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MEN CAN HAVE 365 DAYS OF DEPRESSION TENDENCIES

Men Can Have 365 Days Of Depression Tendencies( Special thanks to Crevin for the photo illustration )

Depression is an inevitable shapeshifter. ( Benaim's ) One night, it was the room in a house, the next day, it's the house. Depression can be a line from a song and gradually turns into the whole song.They say women are more of an emotional creature~ but I would perceptually disclose ~ that the proper pronoun was human. To castigate a man and to jest at him that it's kind of juvenile and un-masculine to have breakdowns and mind-tortures~ do you have any idea how to live? To all men, it's fine to have a turning point . Our emotions of course, influence the decisions that we make, the films and music we enjoy or even our career path or the kind of art we're drawn into. Emotional intelligence is actually the ability to accumulate the power that understand and manage emotions~ so that you can make your choices that are in harmony with your core values and principles.Even if you spend your whole day rummaging your opened pitch-black closet and try locating the numbers where the text messages that tells you "you're not awesome" came from, I swear your efforts will yield no result. To feel down- you don't and you can't just google search that LMAO although every body google searches~ the only phrase you can ever voice out to SIRI was "I'm alive by luck at this point" and instead of getting the comfort that you need, SIRI will ironically answer "I'm sorry, I don't understand". And life is so weird that your close pals might answer the same thing~ or no response at all.They exchange I love yous and how are yous until they forgot what it meant. I asked a friend once, "How are you?", and he replied in a gradually shaking monotone voice, "actually I'm not even certain if I am fine or I ain't or I'm just pretending to be one". He answered with a clenched fist. Okay. I know he's not okay. And the mere fact that you're not sure if you're fine means you're not. But I decided let to him deal with it ~ privacy, they call it. But that's prolly the worst decision I had ever made. How can I ever let someone go without making him feel good? How can I sleep after work if I know someone might be crying at home? What if he left on a normal Sunday and never come back? I can read suicidal point messages. "The bullet that was made with the feathers of a robin missed my head and landed in another. I wonder often, if the gun that will unmake me is yet made, maybe it was built with hummingbird's wings". But why does it feel like a cage full of mirrors? Is it a glaring reflection of an existence you cannot escape? Does it mean Aristotle was right? That happiness depends upon ourselves? I have friends who weeps every morning or every night or every after gym work out just to turn each tear into steam. I have friends who prefers to battle anxiety alone than asking for a call. I know someone who is so good in having win streaks and victory playing MOBA and feels literally defeated emotionally. I know someone who makes literature just to survive the thoughts that cloud his head. I know someone who makes rap music to express his soul. I know a male Filipino artist who had attempted ending his own life because of an anxiety attack. I have a close pal from my junior year who pranks that he was ending his life and it turned out it wasn't a prank because of his overthinking. Did you know that even Gogh ate yellow paint? Because for him, yellow is a happy color. And even though paints are not edible~ we can't argue with him - why would we stop someone doing things that makes him happy? Are we envious that we don't have our own yellow paint? Even the word "Nuisance" can be a happy pill~ just like what Tine named the guitar that was given to him by Sarawat. He named it "Nuisance" . It sounds like an oxymoron.And although he was oblivious playing such instrument from the very beginning, that even he pained his own fingers pressing the strums into the fret, eventually, the thing that hurts him is now his own revival tool. Are we envious that we still didn't know what instrument's best for us? Or if we know already, will you be eager to play it? Scientifically ~ are you familiar with the Bitrex? It was a flavor additive for stuffs, usually for poisons. And such ingredient was added on Nintendo cartridges so babies won't eat them. I hope you being a baby won't eat those cartridges. You know, anger can make even things that are right feel unbearable- that even the Bitrex tasted terrible and have some poisoning tendency, you might feel it's right~ but it will never be. Bukowski once mentioned, The right to commit suicide should be equal to the right to love. Maybe you have heard more than enough. All that you hear are pure gibberish and the only word that register was dying, don't you think that maybe, it's the time to be deaf to be really able to hear yourself from within? Because if something happens and things panned out beyond a friend's control, don't tell me you weren't warned. Because in the end, we're the resistance trapped inside.A man is less talkative. He might write que ironia vender sorrisos e ser a pessoa mais trista using his own blood or the ink from an octopus he ate after dinner. He might be suffering Hellmer's Myopathy like Berlin from Money Heist and no one will ever know until it was discovered. Can you be an Ariadna for someone like Berlin? Can you be Inspector Raquel who witnessed professor's breakthroughs and never leave?If you all think that men will always be brave, will never be transparent, will never have breakdowns, will never be sad,will never cry, please think again. Just like the film "All The Bright Places" , they say that when everything seems dark, you can be the bright place, and only realize after Theodre Flinch was gone. I have stopped bringing foods to the fishes on the aquarium that I used to be. Emotions~ yes you have them but - that's only something that you have and that is not who you are. "I don't want to be at the mercy of my emotions. I want to use them, to enjoy them, and to dominate them."--Oscar Wilde"Those that will not hear must be made to feel."--German proverb"Few people are capable of expressing with equanimity opinions which differ from the prejudices of their social environment. Most people are even incapable of forming such opinions."--Albert Einstein"Care for your psyche...know thyself, for once we know ourselves, we may learn how to care for ourselves." --Socrates"Happiness depends upon ourselves."--Aristotle"Emotion can be the enemy, if you give into your emotion, you lose yourself. You must be at one with your emotions, because the body always follows the mind."--Bruce Lee"He that loves to be flattered is worthy o' the flatterer."--William Shakespeare"Treat your men as you would your own beloved sons. And they will follow you into the deepest valley." --Sun Tzu"The idea that you have to be protected from any kind of uncomfortable emotion is what I absolutely do not subscribe to."--John Cleese"You may not realize it when it happens, but a kick in the teeth may be the best thing in the world for you."--Walt Disney"Everyone must be quick to listen, slow to speak, slow to anger..."--The Bible (James 1:19)"It is just as valuable to be censured by friends as it is splendid to be praised by enemies. We desire praise from those who do not know us, but from friends we want the truth."--René Descartes"Your emotions are the slaves to your thoughts, and you are the slave to your emotions."--Elizabeth Gilbert"What worries you, masters you." --John LockeGuess we have enough quotes from these men, for they had been down to be able to articulate one~ that won't Unman you, pal