Say Something

Chapter 23

PRESENT

Harry's eyes remain closed, he's finally able to sleep. Harry looks fragile as he sleeps, his hand still connected to Louis's. The doctor walks in and Harry opens his eyes.

"Sorry to wake you Harry, but I need to talk to you about Louis."

Harry sits up looking at the doctor.

"What is it doc?" Harry asks.

"Louis is not getting better, he is progressively getting worse. If he were to wake up now, I'm afraid he would be completely brain dead. I suggest pulling the plug, it's the best option. The longer the machine makes his heart pump the harder it will be for his heart to pump on its own. If we pull the plug there is a small chance his heart will start to pump on its own. But there is also a chance his heart will stop. I need your permission to pull the plug."

Harry stays frozen he's pale and numb, a single tear drips down his face. He stands up, beginning to break down, letting every cry and scream out of his body.

"No, no, no, no! You can't pull the plug, Louis can't die, I can't lose him. I'm not giving up on him, I can't, not again."

"Harry, you're not giving up on him, you are letting him fly free. If I do not pull the plug, I fear Louis will die. Pulling the plug could possibly save him, but it is your choice, I can't make it for you. Will, you at least think about it, Harry?"

"Ya, I'll think about it, but I need more time."

"Okay, Harry, you let me know when you come up with a decision."

The doctor leaves the room and Harry slumps back into his chair. He grabs Louis's hand begins to cry; the tears trickle down his face. Harry begins to think about his decision.

"Should the doctor plug? No, if he does then I'll lose Louis, but what if the doctors right and pulling the plug saves him. No, it can't save him, it will kill him. Louis just needs to wake up, he needs to wake up now. Shit, he's not gonna wake up, look at him he's in a fucking trance. If he does wake up, he will probably have a vegetable for a brain. What do I do? Have the doctor pull the plug and possibly lose Louis or wait it out hoping Louis will wake, possibly causing him to go brain dead. I would at least still have Louis, but it wouldn't be the same he wouldn't be my Louis. It would be an empty soul in Louis's body, but what would Louis want? Louis wouldn't want to live his life without a brain, he would rather die than lose his brain, he is stubborn like that. But I can't let go of him, he's my soul mate and I'm not ready to say goodbye."

Harry lets out a loud scream, this was the hardest decision he has ever had to make.

"Wake up Louis! Fucking wake up! Say something please, for me. I can't do this Louis; I can't choose whether or not you live or die. It's too hard, I love you but I fucking hate you for making me have to do this. I don't want you to fucking die Louis! WAKE UP!" Harry screams.

Harry sits shaking his head, the tears keep pouring. Harry starts to think maybe Louis is never gonna wake up, maybe the best decision is for the doctor to pull the plug. But Harry's not ready to make that decision yet, he can't.