The Secret Hybrid Child

Learning About Me

Lucas and I haven't  spoken in almost a week, I called Jason and Dominic to check on them and when he found out he was pissed, which in turn aggravated me to the point I told him to fuck off. He has spent everyday since then with my father and Tristan, even though we sleep in the same bed every night we do not touch or speak. I was furious for the first few days but then my wolf and I started to miss him, and here enters my aunt Alexandria. She found me, basically moping, in the gardens and decided it was time that I learn about and embrace my vampyr side. So I have been with her everyday learning what I can. The first thing I noticed is that I feel as though I have several different personalities living and speaking in my head. There is my voice, Dana's, and now this more sultry and darker version of my voice.

"You need to remember that she is not separate from you like Dana, she is the baser more feral part of you. In order to control that side of you, you must acknowledge that she is in fact part of you. If you think of her as separate then you will never control yourself. You have too much power to be ignorant, and its not fair for others if you don't know how to use it."

I nod my understanding and close my eyes, willing myself to see my "baser" self. This was an exercise that Alexandria taught me the first day, how to delve into my mind and bring forth the vampyr in me and learn about her. She shimmered until solidified, meaning I have finally accepted that she is in fact me. She is identical in every way, except she is slightly paler and her eyes are red with a darker look to her. We stare at one another and then finally sit opposite each other.

"Are you ready to listen?"

She asks, her voice deeper than mine, I can hear the "baser and feral" tones to it and it sends shivers down my spine. I nod my head and she smiles showing me our fangs.

"There is an advantage that you have, other Vampyr don't possess a Lycan/wolf as you do. You already accept that she is part of you which will make this easier. We are one Dahlia, I am and always have as well as will be, you. I may be more territorial but you can balance that out. Let me in and I can help you find that power you possess. Dana and I have already spoken, she understands and agrees with me. We are bonded and now it its time for you to accept and bond with me as well."

I look at her, really look at her, I feel the energy coming from her, and under all the feral aura that I feel, I feel me. It is my smell she holds, it is my heart beat that is in her chest, it is my strength and fears she holds on to. My eyes open wider as I finally understand that she is me, not separate but me, and together we are whole. I can hear Dana purr her encouragement as my baser self and I embrace.

I open my eyes to find Alexandria smiling at me, her eyes shine with pride.

"You catch on quick niece, now lessons on how to feed."

We spent the rest of the day learning how to not be sloppy, how not to gorge, how to take only what I  need.

"Very rarely will you be starving to the point of taking a life, most new to the vampyric ways don't want to kill, just feed. It is a burden to carry a life when you know you could have stopped in time. Now you must listen and feel the pulse of the person you feed from. You must listen to the beat, once it starts to slow that is when you must lessen the feeding so that you break away cleanly and without causing harm. Humans recover quickly, longer depending on how much you take, but they will always recover. Also you can detect disease or drug addled blood, try to stay away, with drug addicts their blood will contain trace amounts and you will be hooked to the euphoric taste they give. Most who succumb end up killing the person they feed from, because its so addicting. Those with diseases will taste disgusting, sour or rotten. The diseases infest the blood and our bodies can not digest, you will throw up everything you drink. Now I will bring a few people in and blind fold you, uses your senses, Dana included and tell me who is tainted and who is not. There will also be a virgin so you can smell what "pure" blood tastes like."

She was gone for about 30 minutes in which I spent that time going over everything I had been taught as well and consulting with Dana. Eventually Alexandria came back in with a blindfold and after that was secure she brought the different people in. It took me less than 5 minutes to sniff our the ones with disease and the ones on drugs. The normal ones smelled of iron with a hint of vanilla, but once we smelled the virgin my mouth started watering, the person smelled almost as good as Lucas, but they did nothing for my sexual appetite, only my stomach was concerned with them. As Alexandria removed the blindfold I looked at a pretty male that stood with head down. When he looked up at Alexandria's order his eyes were glazed and a smile graced his face.

"Right now he is under compulsion, that is something we will teach how to do later, right now I want you to drink and leave no mess."

I swallowed and nodded, after taking a big breath I brought his wrist to my lips. Its not as easy as you think, you have to pierce the skin with your fangs and then form a suction while removing your fangs and drinking from the open artery. The arteries are not that big, which is why most go for the neck. I laugh at all the movies where they bite down where ever and drink the blood. If you make a mistake and bite an vein, the blood isn't oxygenated and there for useless to us. It is damn near tasteless and does nothing to satisfy the hunger. And they barely suck in the movies, if you don't latch on just right blood will be everywhere, and who likes a messy eater? After you have had your fill you must maneuver your tongue over the entry points, Vampyr saliva has a healing property that can be activated while feeding. I lick and seal the wounds and step back. As I detached from the wrist in front of me I was happy I wasn't covered in blood. I don't even want to talk about the first few times I fed,  I felt I'd have to get a bib if I didn't get it right. Then he smiled as Alexandria walked him away. Dana was still slightly repulsed by the drinking of blood until I told her that's what we eat when we eat a live kill in wolf form. She thought a moment and nodded her head in understanding.

"You are getting the hang of it, very tidy and you didn't over indulge. I'm not sure if you've noticed how much stronger you have been getting since letting yourself realize that you are one and the same with your vampyr side. I have a feeling you will only get more powerful from here on out. Lets end today, and dahlia.."

She stopped and I looked at her curious of what she will say

"Make up with Lucas, his moping and whining is nerve wracking and it smells like sad mutt all over the castle."

I sighed  and she just held my gaze

"Fine, if he'll even talk to me."

She grabbed my shoulders and said

"Don't give him the chance to ignore you, his Lycan is causing hell for everyone because he is being a stubborn ass and refusing to own up to his mistake. Be the bigger person and forgive him for being an ass, apologize for your part in going behind his back calling your former mates, which is understandable why he is upset. You both messed up, now fix it so everyone else can have peace. Now go, I'm going to find my brothers and figure out what needs to be done next."

She shooed me out the door and I felt like a child that had just been scolded and told to go apologize. I took a deep breathe and went in search of my jealous blockhead mate. And she is right I won't give him a chance to huff and puff, I'm ending this stupid feud right now.