Life's short write it down

Romeo and juliet are dead

So I feel like talking about my day starting with English walked in almost crying not quit yet but almost. we do a journal and it's a free write I could not even think one of the prompts was "what makes you happy? Sad?" It's not what I wrote though because I started writing about how I felt and I was crying and then people at my table were like are you okay? I of course said yes.than we played this game and everyone and I mean the whole class told me I ruined everything and the teacher even laughed.thats when I lost it and got my blade and squeezed it in my hand kinda saying they will pay. I wanted to slit all their throats but I'm to nice and not a murderer so that would have destroyed my sanity. So I pretended to be alright cries alittle but then I went straight to the locker rooms restroom and cut my wrists because I needed some relief. cried in their till everyone left into the gym got ready quickly and went to my spot. no one even noticed I was gone. lunch was terrible. people would go up to me all the fucking time asking me things and telling me things like I just wanted to punch every single one of them saying stop and let me be. after I walked to dance. cried and cried and cried of course. didn't change passed the test. and when that was done say on the steps and cried and cried and cried. advisory all I did was cry nothing else. ugh in elementary school that was all I would ever do I would just cry and cry and cry now im doing it again God please help me im a broken person and I need your help.