Poison Ivy

Chapter 19

"Where am I right now?" I ask Damon. The sheets are to soft to by mine and the bed is to comfy.

"Well, you're in the best place in my house. My bed." Urgh his bed. Wait... his bed. I sit up and immediately the world starts spinning. I must've sat up to quickly.

"Calm down. You lost a lot of blood. You need to rest." I don't need rest, I need to get out of here. He makes me uncomfortable being so nice.

I shake my head. This means nothing, he doesn't care about me. He only cares for him but he's starting to care for Elena... which is bad news for me. No one that cares for Elena, gives me a second glance.

He is only being nice because I helped with the spell anyway. The spell. Oh no Bonnie must be devastated.

"I need to go to Bonnie, she just lost her grams. And I need to..."

He vamp speeds over to me. "How do you know about her grams?"

I ignore him. Getting out of bed is difficult but at least when I do it slowly, it doesn't cause dizziness.

"Seriously how do you know that, you've been out for a couple of hours and we just heard the news." He doesn't even look remorseful.

"Does it matter? My friend lost a family member. I'm going to see her." I get shoes and head for the door, unfortunately I don't make it that far. My legs can't handle my weight and start to fall. I'm to damn weak.

"Hey hey, take it easy." He catches me before I fall. He is so gentle...

"Stop this act. As if you give a damn about me! Before it was just about Katherine. Next it'll be about Elena. I don't want I get hurt because of it. So stop pretending to care about." I say. I have trouble swallowing and my eyes start to burn. I look to him and push against his chest. Hopefully he lets me go.

"I will never be my sister and I will never be enough for you. I won't lose myself like that. Just let me go. Please."

It's a shame that this is my life. Distancing myself from people I want in my life. Stopping myself from loving something or someone before I even try to like it. Because I know eventually they'll leave me for her, they always do.

He doesn't says a word when he lets go of me. He has no expression or emotion and I'm grateful. It doesn't have to be harder then it already is.

I'll survive, after all I wasn't in that deep. "Goodbye Damon."

I grieve what could have been. We would have been so good together.

Walking out, I find Elena eavesdropping. I scoff and roll my eyes. Of course she is here. Maybe that's why he didn't respond, he knew she was listening.

I walk pass her and bump in her shoulder. She imposed on a private moment between Damon and I and I can't help but think that that's how it would have been had we dated. She'd always be a shadow and lurking around.

"It wouldn't have worked out between. He is bad for you?" She says with a saddened expression. "You do get that don't you?"

I straighten my back, I practically flinch. I forgot how triggering her voice had become. I turn around and stalk my way over to her. I don't have much strength but I make up for it with my deep yearning to smash her face in.

A only needed 2 steps to get to her but Stefan stops me. He stands in between her and myself, holding his hands up.

I giggle. "Oh what a sight to behold. Protecting my sister against me? I hardly have any strength left."

"And yet I know you can throw a punch. Do you really want to hurt your sister."

"Yes." I answer immediately. A cruel idea pops into my head. I stand closer to him and smile sweetly. I look down to his lips and keep my gaze there for a couple of seconds and lean in.

He doesn't move but looks...amused. I lean in and place my hands on his chest. Wow he is built but still not my type.

I get up close and personal but I lean into his ear and lock eyes with Elena. I bite his ear softly and she gets red in the face. "You have such pretty lips Stefan. Must be soft, I'd love to have a taste." I giggle.

She steps forward but I move away from him. I'm not a home wrecker but I like to have fun. I remove my hands from him. "How could you—"

"How could I what? Flirt with him? Please he's to in love with you to give a damn about me." I scoff, I'm sound so bitter. And I realize that's because I am. She gets everything and I hate it.

I want to kiss him for the fun of it but I can't do that to him or their relationship. That's Damon's whole thing and I'm not taking part in it.

I fold my arms and scowl. "Whatever. I'm going to see Bonnie." I turn to leave.

•••

Swing Bonnie and telling her what grams said hurts. It hurts to see her like this, in such a state. We're hugging and I can't help but feel like it's my fault, I should been able to help more.

"It's not your fault." How the fuck did she know? "I can't see it in your eyes dummy. Besides if anyone is to blame, it's Damon." I simply nod. Words escape me.

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