Poison Ivy

Chapter 23

I feel like shit. No point in sugar coating it. I was planning to write in my diary but I'm to lazy to get it out of my hiding place. Instead I head downstairs, hopefully breakfast has already been made.

Someone is at the door. I groan but still open it. "Uncle John? Hi" I say and hug him. We actually don't have a bad relationship. I always felt close with him, I could never explain why. He hugs me back. "Hey kiddo, you look like crap." he says inspecting me further.

His eyes land on my neck, as if expecting a vampire bite. I raise an eyebrow at him. "I saw that and we will discuss whatever that was later." I motion in a circle around his face. He doesn't look surprised. Weird.

Elena and Jenna talk to him while I make myself scarce. Turns out no one made breakfast yet. I start on breakfast and hope that today won't be trash.

It kills me seeing Jeremy in this state, since news broke about Vicki. I haven't had time to talk to him but I'm not sure that now is a good time.

Stefan escorts me to class today. "Wrong twin." I brush my hair over my shoulder. "That's a big red flag he more I think about it. We aren't identical and you actually want to walk with me of all people--"

"Elena is worried about you and so am I" he sighs and looks at me through his full lashes.

"AH. You're on baby sitting duty aren't you? I can defend myself and I don't want your help." I say slam my books on my desk and everyone looks in my direction.

"We can't take any chances with the tomb vampires. You were already attacked and kidnapped once." he taps his foot. He is anxious about something.

"If memory serves me right, I wasn't the only one." I snap. The day drags until we have history. I always perk up when I see Ric...I mean when I learn about history. Today is no different except for the fact that Elena and I met him after class. He better not force me to help her with her grades. She can fail then I'll be rid of her quicker.

"What's up Ric?" I say and sit on the edge of his desk. He doesn't even bat an eye at me. He hands Elena and me a paper written by Jeremy. It's titled as ' The truth about vampires in Mystic Fall'

I can hear my heart in my ears, this is bad. I wanted to tell him but now the prospect of him actually knowing scares me. I can tell by Elena's expression that she probably feels the same.

"It's clear that he doesn't believe it." he says to us.

"I really hope that you're right because I've done so much to protect him from all of this."

"Clearly you've been doing a bad job." I give Alaric the paper back. She simply looks at me with hurt in her eyes. I just shrug, it's the truth after all.

"It's not safe for them to know the truth. So I will continue to keep them in he dark. It's because I love them." Oh and I don't?

"I think Stefan is a good guy. But at the end of the day he's still a vampire." Speaking of which where is he? I thought he was baby sitting me.

"I know it's hard to understand but Stefan is different. he would never do anything to hurt me." It's thinking like that that will cost people their lives. She walks out and doesn't glance in my direction.

"So are you baby sitting me now or..."I ask him and smile

•••

A home I find Jer and John talking. "It's tradition. The Gilberts have been a part of this town for hundreds of years. We're a founding family and with that distinction comes certain obligations including going t the party." He lectures Jer.

"Don't bother trying to convince him." I say to John and Jer flinches at the sound of my voice. "Jer are you okay?" I ask and he storms off. Did I say something wrong?

Problem for later, I guess. John stares at me weirdly. "You're looking at me funny and I don't like it." I say while drinking some orange juice.

"It's nothing, just your parents would be proud of you?"

I almost choke on my drink. "Which parents." I snap. He takes a step back.

"Yeah I know that we're adopted, everyone knows. It's not a big deal but hat's not why I wanted to talk to you. I know you know." I smile.

"I surprised that you are so calm about finding out that you're adopted." he shakes his head.

"I have a feeling of who my dad is though." I shrug. His reaction is vital. It will answer my burning question.

"Oh you do." he stutters. He isn't know for stuttering, ever. He knows something.

"Anyway I know you know about vampires."

"How? And how do you know about them?"

"This morning you looked at my neck to make sure that there was no bite. I made the connection and I know because out town has a whole tomb filled with them."

I walk away because I have nothing else to say. I need to talk to Jer. Something is off with him. I get upstairs just as Elena leaves his room, she doesn't notice me and leaves his door ajar. I hate when people do that but up the door. My heart breaks into pieces because there he sits with my diary.

I storm into his rooms. "Explain. Now." I snap.

"I shouldn't be the one explaining anything. Get the hell out of my room." he says as he throw my diary out of the rooms.

I start to laugh with tears running down my face. "And here I thought you were ready but you go through my diary. Through my personal belongings." It hurts me more than I can say. Before I know what I'm doing, reach for his sketch pad and rip a page out. I crumple it and throw it at him. But I don't stop there, I pull all of his books off the shelf and throw it to the ground.

"How does that feel Jeremy. When someone messes with your personal belongings. Why mine? Why not hers." My tears are salted and I find that I like the taste.

"Stop. You messed with my head. You're fucked up."

I step closer to him. "Me! Did you even read the whole damn thing or even in depth." he looks away. "I read enough."

I see his weed and lunge for it. I might as well make use for it. "I get that you lost her and that you're grieving. But fuck, I'm not your punching bag." I walk out and grab my diary on the way.

I find a lighter with the pot. I place it between my lips and inhale. Tears still flowing down my cheek. Let's find out what all the hype is about weed.

Unedited

This hurt me so much to write. I feel like Jeremy and Ivy had/have such a good relationship but grief does crazy things to people.