Bumps in the road | J. Puckerman (1)

Gift

TW:  smutt after the line

Jake came over to my house. He has a little brown envelope in his hands.

"Whatcha got there baby?" I asked him, kissing him and letting him in the house.

He smiled my favorite smile, "a little present for you."

I pulled him onto the couch, "I didn't get you anything?"

"You don't have to get me anything. I wasn't planning on getting this, I just saw it and thought of you," he told me, rubbing my back.

We had been together for about eight months and we would randomly surprise each other with gifts that made us think of the other.

I had gotten him a University of Washington crewneck as a joke, because his guilty pleasure was watching the girls basketball team. Blaine and I got him a stuffed Jaguar to go with our name themed stuffed animals. Jaguar was very happy to join the 'lil friends'.

He made the joke that he was going to get me a tiny green hoodie to match his, but I prefer getting lost in the sea of army green and good smells, so I just steal his.

I stole a lot of his clothes, because they were safe. my personal favriotes were: the UW crewneck, the green hoodie, a green graphic t-shirt, a simple black t-shirt, and his letterman Jacket. I'm sure I'll find more stuff in the days to come.

He pressed the envelope in my hands, "open it beautiful" he said

I opened the envelope to reveal a gold necklace with a small dainty butterfly on it. It was on a little card that said 'beautiful' in bold letters. Under the 'beautiful' was a little message, 'you are a kind, loving, and smart person., wear your necklace as a reminder that YOU make the world a more beautiful place'. I looked up at him with tears in my eyes and layer on his chest.

"It's a butterfly," I said, as a tear fell down my face. "Thank you my love, it's so pretty. I love you so so much a whole lot" I said, my voice quiet to hold back more  tears.

He pulled me closer into his chest, wiping my eyes and kissing my head, "I love you so much a lot. Simply lotsa lotsa."

I started playing with the necklace, "it's just so perfect, and I can wear it so close to my heart so you are like always here." I told him, putting his hand on my heart.

If I would have a panic attack, he would hold me so close, take his shirt off, and let me put my head on his chest so I could hear his heart and feel his warmth.

Daniel said that it was like we were doing skin to skin, and called me a dumb ass bitch baby. At that point his words barely phased me. Sometimes he would say too much on a bad day, and I would cry. No matter what he said, Jake would yell at him. If it got too far Jake would punch him or throw him into a locker.

"I hope it doesn't replace me," he said, softly kissing my lips.

I kissed him back, "mmm mm definitely not," I said, kissing him again and giggling. "Because it can't do this."
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He laughed and kissed me yet again this time a little harder, "no no or this."

"Mhmm see you can't be replaced," I said, moving myself to face him from his lap.

He put his hand on my lower back and moved it up with his hand stopping at the clasp of my bra, and started kissing my neck.

"You can," I told him, knowing he wouldn't do any new steps without asking.

He unclasped my bra, pulling it off and letting his hands migrate closer to the front of my torso, "remember the rule. You are in charge. No matter how far this goes it can stop the second you want it to," he said, going back to kissing my neck.

"Mhmm yep I know. But it like shouldn't stop right now unless you want it to please," I said, starting to unbutton his shirt, and looking at his eyes to make sure it was okay. When he nodded I stared to kiss his neck, not the soft making sure he's real kiss or even the 'messing around' kiss. This was different.

He'd done this before, he did this a lot before we started dating. I had no idea what I was doing, but based on his... reaction I was doing something right.

I moved the kisses to his lips, starting to trace his abs and going slower the lower I got. "God I love you," he said, breathlessly between kisses, moving his hands to cup my chest and softly brush his thumb across my breast.

"I love you," I said quickly not wanting to break away from kissing him. I moved my hands to unbutton his jeans and he nodded. I slowly unbuttoned them, making my tracing go even lower tracing the 'V' line and stoping at the waistband of his boxers.

"Are you okay?" He asked breaking away from the kisses and moving his hands from my chest to his lap.

I nodded and used one of my hands to pull his face back, keeping my hand in his hair. I tried my best to speak, but my breathing was getting harder. "Yep, just thinking like safety.... like birth control... double better.... in bathroom under sink.... also we are in living room... maybe bedroom."

He kissed my neck then whispered in my ear, "so bedroom with a pit stop to the bathroom?"

"Mmhmm yep. That one," I said, still trying to get my words to work.

He lifted me up, wrapping my legs around his waist and carried me up to my room, never breaking away from the kisses. When we walked into my room, he moved Elephant into the closet then locked the door, laying me onto my bed.