Bumps in the road | J. Puckerman (1)

Prom

"It just seems like a whole lot," I whispered, looking up at Marley. "I can barely stand even without having a whole child inside of my body."

I still wasn't showing, so that was nice. I had an off-the-shoulder purple dress with my little butterfly necklace. Blaine had given me a little purple bow scrunchie with butterflies on it. I was worried about going, worried about getting hurt, worried about the words people were bound to say, and worried about fainting.

I faint a lot, it's my normal. If I get a change in emotion, change in temperature, or change in honestly anything too fast my body just stops. They haven't really figured it out yet. They just know that my body can't process things. It just kinda hates me. I wish we knew so we could have a better treatment plan, but I guess keeping me alive and somewhat comfortable was enough, for now.

"I'm at least wearing my glasses," I told her.

She shook her head and handed me a pair of my contacts, "nope. You are using these because people deserve to see your pretty eyes. You need to look into Jake's eyes without the silly glasses in the way."

I was just in my robe, and my hair was still in a bun. I forced myself to get the motivation to put my contacts in. I was overwhelmed and not ready for this in any way. I changed into my dress and walked up the stairs to Blaine so he could help me do my hair. I wasn't going to do anything crazy, just half up half down with the little bow, but it was a thing for Blaine and I. He did my hair and kissed my head. 

Once he finished my hair a wrapped my arms around  him, "I am not ready for all the loud noises please." 

"I know, Nugget. We can go in for a little bit and you can hide with me, Sam, Jake, Marley and Ryder. It will all be okay. We get in free for glee club anyway, so if we need to ditch we can."

When Jake came back from getting mostly ready with Ryder, I put his bow tie on him. It was navy blue with little purple polka dots that matched my dress. I kissed him and hid my face in his chest. I took a deep breath and took in the smell of his cologne. I felt comfortable and happy with him. It was almost like all the fear went away. It was still scary, but it was a little more bearable with Jake there. Marley, Ryder, Sam, and Blaine would be there too. Sophia was too young to go, but she didn't really want to go anyway. I knew that Daniel would be there, "If Daniel says anything to literally anyone that I care about he is dead. I'm already in a mood and if he is mean to the people I love I swear to God-" 

Jake cut me off with a kiss, "let's not swear to God right now, baby girl. Let's just get in the car and go take pretty pictures."

We all loaded into the car and Sam drove us to the school. We took tons of pictures and it was honestly kinda great. We danced for less than fifteen minutes before I ran to the bathroom to be sick. I wasn't showing, but I was feeling this pregnancy. Marley came in to check on me and I was on the floor crying. Everything hurt, I felt gross, and was just done.

Blaine came in close behind, "hey baby sister," he said rubbing my back. "Jake is outside waiting, he just wanted to let you have space and pick when he came in. He told me to tell you that you are super duper allowed to blame him for all your ouch and big feelings if you want to."

"All done...all...too much," I whispered through tears, into his chest. I needed this to stop. I was so grateful for my butterfly baby, I just wish that my body was able to support them a little bit better. It sucked that it was a fight to keep them safe, but I knew that it was a fight that was so incredibly worth it.

"shshshs," he soothed into my hair, "we can't be all done all too much with this one nugget. We can go home and you can be with whoever you want, but we can't all done all too much right now."

I grabbed onto his shirt and slid my hand up his sleeve so I could feel his skin and know that he was real, "you can go back and dance with Sam. I don't want him to hate you."

Kurt would always yell at me when I needed Blaine and they had plans. I learned how to hide the things that happened while Blaine was gone. The black eyes, then being thrown into walls, half the words they said, I didn't tell him because I didn't want him to feel bad.

"Sam could never hate you or Blaine, baby Anderson," Sam called from outside the bathroom. I didn't know that he was there, let alone in earshot. "I'm just chilling out here with Jake, making sure that you are okay. I am ready to take all of us home whenever. Dances really aren't my vibe anyway. If Marls and Ryder wanna stay I can pick them up after. Personally, I am a huge fan of ditching."

I tried to laugh and thank him, but before I knew it I was getting sick again. Marley walked out and I hear her quietly talk to Sam about how she wanted to go too. I felt horrible that they had to leave, but I didn't have the energy to say sorry. I made the plan to tell them all in the morning. At some point, the lines of consciousness slipped. I'm not sure if I fainted or fell asleep, I just know that when I woke up I was in Jake's bed, or our bed. I looked around and I was between Blaine and Jake. According to the clock, it was two in the morning. I snugged between them and fell back asleep within seconds.