What The Future Holds

Chapter 8 : Back to Mumbai

Shefali didnt seem to stop questioning her about biggboss.
"Do you miss you're Biggboss life?"

"If you have to miss something shouldn't that thing be distant from you? Far away from you? Biggboss and all the days i've spent on the show, its very close to my heart"

"Do you have any regrets, something you wish you had done different? "

"On Biggboss? No . What's the point anyway. Everything that I did, I did it according to that situation. My actions and reactions were never planned or made up or fake. I was myself and remained being myself till the end of the show. Im not perfect, but no one is. Everyone has a side that they don't want to show to other people, but I showed everyone,everything that I am. You need alot of guts to do that. Frankly I'm very proud of myself"

"True that shehnaz. What about the other Biggboss members?
Why didn't you keep a connection with any of them, obviously siddharth is an exception but according to you're personality you are someone who can always forgive and forget. So why didn't you do that?"

"Who said I didn't forgive and forget? I don't have any personal grudges towards any of them. To tell you the truth once I got out of Biggboss I really was looking forward to keep in touch with all of them. But once I sat at home and watched the show, that changed. Most of them, in that house were already famous, senior artists. They've already gotten pretty successful in their lives and they were all pretty aware of the fact that I'm new,and that I knew very little about the world and the film industry itself. But the comments they passed about me, the things they said behind my back, I mean I've done it all too but not as much as they have. It just hurt me a little that them as senior artists,who always claimed to be much older smarter and intelligent than me, didn't even think about how they were blowing my chance in the industry with the things they were saying. I'm not complaining. I know ive made my own place in my own way. Im not saying i needed their approval either , but after watching all that,it really is hard to want to keep in touch. But that doesn't mean I hate them or that I would never talk to them or won't work work with them. If any of those members come here right now, I will be happy to interact and have as much fun as I can. And If I have to work with them I will. I have no issues. But thats all you'll get. Staying connected, calling each other friends ? I won't do that. I can forgive and forget but Sorry dont expect a friendship out of it."

The audience clapped.

"Is that why you didn't keep in touch with me?" Shefali asked, a little nervous.

"No. We have a different bond don't we? I believe, with you shefali ,even if we don't talk for years, we strangely don't have an issue with it and if we randomly meet we are going to talk like we've been around each other since forever. I'm very comfortable with you."
Yes it is true. It is strange. Shefali thought.
" Im super comfortable with you too"
They both smiled.

"Alright guys, its time for another break. We'll see you soon"

Shefali swiftly climbed out of her chair and approached shehnaz,
"Sana, this break is gonna be a long one. You can go and take some rest if you want to. You've been sitting on the same chair for such a long time! "

"Ah, you're right. Ill go then "
                    
Shehnaz was now in a small green room. It wasnt very spacious, but she found a comfortable chair and carefully , making sure her hair wouldn't be ruined, she sat down, closed her eyes, and relaxed herself.

This is the first interview she has done after her leaving for Punjab. The show is running live. Her mom must be watching. She smiled.  Will siddharth be watching?
No way. He must be busy. She took her phone, and read the last message from siddharth.

'Shehnaz, I hope you can make it to the success party!'

That was the first and last message he had sent her since her 'break'.
He had told ken already to inform her about it, but then she guessed he must have wanted to remind her again.
On December 12th. This was just a few weeks back. His new web series (the one she was watching in punjab) had been a huge success. They were celebrating its success on his b'day.
She remembered herself , back in punjab, staring at his message and wondering whether to go or not.
She walked back and forth in her room, talking to herself.
"Should i go?"
A part of her really didn't want to leave her home, but another part of her was super excited for siddharth and his success and wanted to see him happy.

"Maybe i shouldn't."

She still wasnt really sure if she can go back, look at his face and talk normally,not after the coversation they've had last time.

"But its his birthday! And also he will be extremely happy if all his friends were around. I shouldn't miss it for the world."

And then the next day , the newspaper headlines had read ,

" 𝐒𝐇𝐄𝐇𝐍𝐀𝐙 𝐊𝐀𝐔𝐑 𝐆𝐈𝐋𝐋, 𝐁𝐀𝐂𝐊 𝐓𝐎 𝐌𝐔𝐌𝐁𝐀𝐈 "