What The Future Holds

Chapter11: Who deserves whom ?!

When he came back ,he saw her standing alone looking at the sky. He was glad there was no one around them.
Carefully, without making a sound, he kept the glass of orange juice on a table, and hugged her from behind.
He loved the fact that she wasn't surprised over his touch. She knew him too well. He remembered how in msk she guessed his name blindfolded. He slipped both his hands towards her tiny waist,rested his face on her shoulders and swayed her a little.
He smelled her hair,looked at the dark sky and whispered,

"I thought i told you to sit on the chair"

She didn't reply. He took a breath and asked again,

"Its a beautiful night today isn't it?"

"What is up with you today?" She asked.

"Nothing. I'm just really happy"

He really was. He was happy that she was back, that she came to his party, that he finally heard her voice,that he can now be near her ,that she was now safe and away from the other men.
She held on to his hands, and replied,

"Well you should be. You deserve it all and more"

"And more? What more can I get?"

"I dont know . everything more"

He still hadn't loosened his grip. He was holding his head towards her ears now and speaking to her softly.

"I know i told you to take a break, but wasn't 3 months a little too much! Didnt you miss me?"

She tilted her head to look at him.

"You were right about that you know, punjab was a good idea, ive never felt better "

He laughed.
"I know that. But the break is enough don't you think?"

"I guess"
she said and turned her head back at the dark sky.

"Shehnaz, you're gonna get a good guy one day. You're future is really bright. I'm sure of it. Everyone was staring at you today. All the men. Even the ladies. You've grown into a beautiful woman"

She knew she looked pretty. But that wasn't what caught her attention.

"A good guy ?" She laughed.

She slowly pushed his hands away and turned to face him. Her eyes were shining and her cheeks were red now. And  he knew it wasn't the make up.

"Siddharth, today is your birthday. Lets not make this about me. Stop worrying so much, im fine"

"Are you sure?"

"Yes"

This made him feel better. He gave her the orange juice. They walked back to the party holding hands. But he still never let her stand near any man. And when a romantic song was played Mahi nagged them both  and forced them to dance. It was fun. He had a great time.Shehnaz cracked up jokes like before, entertained everyone with her punjab stories. He felt good when he saw her happy. So peaceful.

At midnight , they cut the cake. After a few hours, almost everyone had left. Only a few of his friends remained. He was talking to one of them , when shehnaz had called him from behind,

"Siddharth?"

"Tell me baby"

" Im going home"

Heart : what, so soon?

"But i thought you're staying the night! We can talk and have fun. Mahi is staying too"

" Umm..no siddharth. Its better if i leave"

Logics : Did some guy make her uncomfortable? Was the food bad? Is she bored?

"Is something wrong?"

"No" She shrugged, "but congratulations on you're success, i watched you're show when i was in punjab, with all my family members. Everyone loved it" She hugged him.

So she did watch it.

"Goodbye then" He said awkwardly.

They both walked towards sana's car. He opened the door for her like a gentleman.
But there were still things he wanted to say. He didnt know how to, and he was waiting for the right time. But now its too late. But still, one last try :

"Shehnaz, i know you said you're fine, but what i said that day, i know i was rude and im sorry i -"

" Look I get it. Don't you say another word"
Her fingers touched his lips indicating him to stay silent. She didnt want him to think about her and worry .
" I went home and thought about it. I always thought you were the problem , that you might have feelings but was just afraid to express it or something ,but Its me. Im the problem. Im just not the right person for you. I dont deserve you.You know it but you'll never tell me that cause you're siddharth shukla . You're too nice "

Logics : umm what?

"Wait what ? "

"Siddharth, you deserve someone who is classy, pretty, someone who is always right and just, she should be just PERFECT. But Im just a, well i am a gadhi. I dont know why i even dreamed of living a life with you "
She laughed.

Heart : well thats just fantastic. Sid thinks he doesnt deserve her and she thinks she doesn't deserve him.

Logics: you know i hate to say it , but this girl never fails to make me speechless.
Heart : And thats exactly why i love her so much.

Before he could say anything that made sense, she had already said goodbye and left.