Silent Memories (Emery Scott)

Chapter Forty Two

Emery-

Guilt. That's what I felt. It was consuming my entire body. Every day was becoming harder and harder to keep the secret from Axel. I didn't want to lie, and I didn't want to hide things from him, but this was for the sake of both of us.

"Say it again" his voice was deep and turning me on big time I could feel myself becoming week as I always did. The way he was looking at me with those big blue eyes made me feel weak to my knees. He had inched closer to me so I could feel his erection against my stomach.

"That you're mine?" I barely whispered but he licked his lips dipping his head down to mine so that we were inches apart.

"Yeah" he breathed as his lips met mine. The pulse that was sent through my body when we kiss hadn't reduced over time. Each day my want for him grew as did my love. I didn't think it was possible to find a love that consumed me the way Axel did, but he did. He consumed every inch of me like a drug I couldn't get enough off. It was incredible how that the minute his lips touched mine that I became oblivious to my surroundings. All I see is us.

I pulled myself away gasping for air as I pressed my head to his. "Am I yours?" I asked quietly. He placed a soft gentle kiss on my lips.

"you have been since the day I laid eyes on you" he replied a small smirk against his lips. He wasn't wrong, I didn't stand a chance he crept in when I least expected it. My mum often spoke about the great love my dad and her have, the way he only had eyes for her and despite their many struggles she never once doubted how much he loved her and even to this day you can still ser that to him she is the only women he sees. I never knew I wanted that, I always tried to avoid the type of love they had, I wanted easy, steady something that wouldn't cause me any pain. But here I was madly in love with the campus's notorious bad boy, he gave me purpose, excitement and pleasure. It was everything I never knew I wanted or needed.

"Good, now let's go home shadow and bone was released today and I'm dying to binge watch it" I said with excitement. He had a small smile on his face. "What" I asked curiously as we began walking hand in hand.

"I like the way that sounds... home" I hadn't realised I had said it like that, but he was right, it did sound good. The thought of coming home to him every day warmed me. I wanted nothing more than to come home to him after work every day but whilst we were in college having the choice between two his or mine was refreshing and sometimes, we did need our own space.

"me too" I said quietly "now come on I want to go watch tv and cuddle naked with you" I added the naked part making him instantly grabbed my hand and pull me out of the hall.

"Well, if you have led with that we would have been home already" he said jokingly. I rolled my eyes as he opened the car door for me to get in. I thanked him quietly. The drive back to his was peaceful and refreshing the text messages had almost left my mind... almost.

I hated myself for lying to him and I was going to talk to him about it eventually just not yet.

All it was at the moment was empty threats and childish messages.

Except it wasn't... my subconscious reminded.

We will talk to him just not, yet I thought.

We eventually arrived back to his house, we were the only people home, so we made our way straight to the bedroom. I dropped my bag and pulled my hair up into a bun as I stepped out my shoes throwing myself onto the bed, I grabbed the control and switched-on Netflix. Excitement bubbling in my stomach over watching Ben Barnes as the darkling.

"Erm excuse me not so fast" he said I glanced at him as he kicked his shoes off.

"I believe you told me this was a naked cuddling session so come here" fuck the way he said that had my insides tingling. He always had me so ready no matter my mood I constantly wanted him. I made my way off my bed to stand Infront of him where he licked his lips. I lifted my arms above my head as he reached for the hem of my top, he pulled it over my head leaving me in my red lace bra that I was extremely glad I picked out this morning Instead of my boring old white one. His cold hands reached behind my back sending a shiver down my spine as he unhooked it sliding the straps down until it fell to the floor. He moved away from me slightly his eyes scanning my top half. I loved the way he looked at me. I bit my lip looking up at him earning a groan. "Fuck" he whispered as he reached to slide my trousers down, he lowered as they did kissing the inside of my thigh. My head fell back slightly as a I gripped him. he lifted my leg to pull them off in which I gladly obliged before he reached up to tug my underwear down with it. I stood there completely exposed before him and yet in such a vulnerable state I was he made me feel so secure, so safe and so loved. "You're so beautiful" he breathed reaching for me. I took a step back taking in his appearance.

"Too many clothes" I mumbled as my hands made my way over his chest to lift his top up. His arms rose as he pulled the top the rest of the way off. Laughing at our height difference. I slid to my knees looking up at him through my lashes as I pulled his boxers down with them freeing him. his breathing was harsh like he was running out of breath. I slowly stood up standing in front of him where he placed his lips upon mine. "I have held my end of the bargain up; I think it's time you let me watch my show" I whispered in his ear as I made my way over to the bed pulling the covers over my body.

"Oh, you're such a tease" he whined as he joined me on the bed.

"No, I said we could naked cuddle and watch the tv show I never said we would be touching each other inappropriately at the same time" I replied pointing out the facts.

"Everyone knows that when cuddling naked is suggested you never just cuddle naked. I can't bare the thought of having your body so close to mine and not be touching you all over, kissing you, tasting you, fingering you... fucking you" he said quietly as his hand slid up my thigh instantly sending shivers down my spine.

"stop" I breathed feeling myself becoming wet to his touch.

"Do you really want me too?" he whispered as he kissed my neck making my head fall to the side, so he has more access. A hmmm came out from my mouth.

"i-I fuck no carry on" I moaned as he smirked victoriously at me.

Fuck I had no self-control around this boy and I loved it.

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As an apology for my lack of updates I thought I would add a little spice. 

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