Silent Memories (Emery Scott)

Chapter Seventeen:

Emery Scott ~

I am not stopping this time. I pull Axel closer to me as he flips us around so now he is on top. I pull at his hair harder which resulted in a moan from him that had every inch of my body screaming for. The sound of his makes me moan in response, it is the hottest sound I have heard and all I want to do is do it again. I move out from under him re taking the top position his hands instantly going to my waist his hands dig in at my sides. My body gently rocks back and forth on his lap and his grip tightens.

"Jesus" he breaths into my mouth and I feel a sensation I haven't ever felt. I feel him harden against me.

His hands let go of my waist and find the hem of the top he gave me. He tugs at it pulling it up. He pulls away from our heated kiss ripping my top over my head and throwing it to the floor. His eyes meet back up at mine and go down to my chest where his eyes darkened I could see him biting his lip as his hand made its way to touch them.

"You're so sexy" he whispers.

The way he said those words drove me crazy so I rocked harder against his lap which caused his to moan in pleasure "fuck" is the word he keeps whispering. He wraps his arms around my back and pulls me closer our chest touching...

His lips made their way down from my neck to my collarbone until they made there was to my nipple in which he lightly kissed running his tongue around it... fuck that feeling sent me insane I wanted him. I wanted him now. I let out a moan in pleasure as he takes the over one in his hand running his fingers over it making me shiver.

Just as his hands make their way to my underwear the lift door begins to rattle. We snap up in shock the trance I was in with him was broken.  I frantically searched for some clothes  which I quickly located and chucked it on completely flustered.

"Axel" the familiar male voice called. I instantly snap  out of my trance panic pacing over my face. "I know you're in there mate I can hear your tv" Jamie called

"What" he replied harshly.

"We're watching lord of the rings are you joining us" he asked ignoring Axel's rudeness.

"No, I don't want to" he called back a look of annoyance washing over his face.

"Whatever man" he replied as his footsteps began echoing father away from the room.

Axel looked over at me running his hand through his hair, frustration lacing over his face. I bite my lip nervously. I could sense the mood change drastically and I didn't want it to go back to before, I don't want it to be bitter. I move myself leaning against his legs my eyes still meeting his, he tears his gaze away looking towards the window deep in thought.

"Don't do that" I whisper worrying that Jamie may hear us even though he wouldn't be able to. Axel stays quiet as if I wasn't here. I move myself from the position I am in taking his hand in line trying to get him to talk.

"I shouldn't be doing this" he replies emotionless.

"No, not this again. We can't keep doing this, you listen to me I'm happy when I am with you, I want to be with you all of you, let me in" I beg

"It's not easy Emery, it goes against everything fucking everything. I have told you so many times I'm not right for you, I'm never going to be right for you I tell you to leave and you come running back to me? Why? Because you want to fix me? Guess what I can't be fucking fixed" I could sense anger in his voice and I shouldn't be pushing it but I wanted the reaction I wanted him to tell me why he thinks this.

"Everyone is a little broken Axel, everyone has a past and that's okay, it is. But you need to open up, open up to me please" he faces me bringing his knees up wrapping his arms around his legs."You know one of the worst things that has ever happened to me, I know hardly anything about you and I want to know everything" I reply

"You know more about me than people I've known for 2 years" he replied. "If I open up, I open myself to the pain, I don't want to go through the pain" he whispers

"Whatever it is, I'm here, let me be here"

"I will end up hurting you, I know I will" He mumbles.

"And if you do, that's on me because you warned me" the thought of him hurting me scares me, but how will we know if it would work unless we give it a try.

"I don't want you to hate me" I don't think I ever could.

"Let's start with getting to know each other? Our likes our dislikes... where you're from, your parents etc." I suggest "my dad who you met the other week, he shares a lot of similar characteristics to you, he had a really bad childhood, before he met my mum he would do drugs, drink a lot treat girls like shit, and then my mum came along" I smile at the thought of my parents "and now? He has us"

"I highly doubt it was that simple" he replies rolling his eyes.

"It wasn't, they nearly didn't make it. But they fought for it" I shrugged.

"So you had the perfect childhood?" He replied

"It was anything but perfect, but I was loved, my parents ensured we had everything we needed no matter what and I'm not sorry for that" I didn't mean for it to come across blunt but it did.

"Fine, if we are sharing. My mum died when I was 2 I don't really remember much about her if I'm honest, I have pictures of her in my house she was beautiful, she had this perfect brown hair and these blue eyes that captivate you. And my dad? My dad died before I was born he was in the army, my mum got a call when she was pregnant with me to say they were on a mission and the unit was ambushed his body was never recovered" My chest hurt. "I was put into the system just before my 3rd birthday, I moved around a few foster houses but eventually I was adopted by this family who wanted to give me the world" it hurt me that he went through all of this? Is it normal? Is this normal.

"I- I am so sorry" I whisper.

"Don't Pity me" he replied

"Your family now? Do they live here" I ask

"Yeah" learning about his past set butterflies in my stomach, he was opening up. "We moved here a few years back, Lara is from the UK but Dean, my adoptive dad was born in Ireland as was I so we use that in common" I loved the way some of the words sound when he speaks. Hearing him say the word 'three' he goes 'tree' and I just couldn't contain the giggles.

"My dads from the UK I wish I was" I responded.

"I could imagine you with this cute little British accent, it would suit you"

"Cute?" I asked "what is my American accent is not cute enough for you" I joke taking my hand to my chest as if I was hurt.

"It is, you're perfect the way you are" he replied taking my hand in his pulling me into his chest where I was met with the beautiful smell of his cologne. I just stayed in his arms, I could have stayed in his arms forever it's the one place I felt safe.

He made me feel safe.

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I literally loved writing this chapter so so much! I finally shared a little bit of Axels past, I can't wait till I can share all of it but for now here's a little bit!

Let me know what you think of this chapter! Do you like that he's opening up, are you still sipping AMERY? I am.

Update coming very very soon!

Love you all!

Explosion_ aka Kiera xxx