Written In The Stars | Park Sunghoon ✔

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»»—— Shin Lumi ——««

I looked at my phone for the nth time this week.

After our day at the park, Sunghoon suddenly went missing. No calls, no answers from his home, not even a single text alerting me that he was alive.

Nothing.

My heart felt heavy, it felt as if the past was rewriting its self. This was exactly how I lost him back then.

One day we both were happy, the next he was nowhere to be found.

I tried to contact some of our friends, thinking maybe they knew something about his whereabouts but no one did.

Just like how it was before.

"Jay any news?" I stood in front of Jay who was busy with his computer.

He looked bothered and restless. I didn't want to bother him but he's my last resort.

He looked up at me with his tired eyes, "None, Lumi. I'm worried too, I don't know what happened to him."

"Do you think he left me again?"

I addressed the elephant in the room. I know that he is also thinking about that.

Sunghoon has always been unpredictable, but he promised me.

"He's not like that, Lumi. I'm sure he has an acceptable reason. Let's just wait for him, alright?" He spoke confidently like he really believes what he was saying.

That made me calm down. Jay is always right.

He always is.

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We were happy. I mean I want to believe we were.

At least, I was.

The happiness I felt when I had you with me was insane, Pearl.

That overwhelming feeling of happiness was something so scary but it was so worth being scared of. It was so worth it because you were my beautiful Pearl. You made everything in my life better.

If I ever get the chance again, I would stay back with you and be happy with you again.

Everyone knew how happy we were and how much we loved each other. We were the perfect match.

But as I look at you from afar. You with your friends and enjoying your life. I didn't want to ruin that with my selfishness. I want to try and be better for you but time never really let me be.

I looked at your smile and wondered if I would ever be the reason behind them ever again.

I fear that wish of mine wouldn't be fulfilled ever again.

Maybe we weren't really meant to be, Pearl.

Our story was cut short. I know it was my fault but trust me I really wanted to make it work. I wanted to make us work. But what can we do?

I lost the game with destiny.

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A month passed.

A whole fucking month and nothing.

I wiped my tears as my pen almost tears the paper in front of me.

I looked back at the book that I was reviewing. I shook my head and tried to bury myself in work.

"Lumi?"

I looked up at Inna who was visiting my office.

I hummed in response trying to at as though nothing bad had happened. That I hadn't been lied to.

"What—" she struggled to talk to me as she saw my situation. "What's that?"

She motioned at the paper that I was writing in.

"It's a book review, I thought it would be better if I write it by hand before letting my assistant publish it online." I tried to laugh but failed as I choked on my tears.

Inna quickly made her way towards me and hugged my form in hers. She whispered comforting words but those don't seem to do the trick.

I could feel her hand caressing my arms trying to calm me down but nothing could really do that.

"He left again, Inna." I cried, "I thought he was here for good but it took him three months to decide that he doesn't want me anymore."

"Like before," I hiccupped, "without any trace, he's gone."

"Didn't even let me know what I did wrong. What's wrong with me, Inna? Why does he keep leaving me alone like that?" I rambled as I held her arms tighter.

"No, Lumi. Nothing's wrong with you. Please, stop thinking that." I felt her hold on me tighten.

Broken.

That was what I was.

Broken again and all because of the same person.

How naive am I to believe that he meant everything he said?

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I strutted my way to Jay's office as I held the pages tight in my grasps.

I opened the door without knocking and Jay looked up. Actually cautious to even playfully scold me for my lack of professionalism.

"Here's the review you asked for, Jay." I dropped the stapled papers on top of the papers that were already on his desk.

He scanned the contents and gave a satisfied smile. His smile was quick to dissolve when he looked up at me and saw my expression.

He coughed and tried to make a conversation, "How was it?" He asked about the story.

I plastered a fake smile on my face, "I enjoyed the story. The painful ending, definitely related to it." Sarcasm was spewing from my tone.

"Lumi," he started to speak.

I stopped him right away. I know what he was about to do and I don't want to hear anything about it.

"Don't defend him, Jay. He left twice, without anything at all." I looked at him, "Just gone!" I exclaimed.

"I know Sunghoon, Lumi. He always has a reason. Please, trust him."

I chuckled bitterly, "We must have known two different Sunghoons then."

"Because the one I knew was someone who left me after all the years we had together. Then proceeded to come back without any proper explanation and had the fucking audacity to leave the same way he did back then."

I poured all the bitterness I felt about his friend. Jay stayed silent, knowing well enough how much I had been hurt by the person he was defending.

"I guess you being always right doesn't work here." I smiled at him.

"Thank you for the book, Jay. It was..." I took a glance at him before leaving and gave him my conclusion, "Eye-opening."