We Each Have Our Reasons

Chapter Seven - Shall we take this to the bedroom?

I suddenly wake up and breathe in like I'm gasping for all the air in the world. I open my eyes and notice that I'm on my bed.

“What the hell?” I whisper when I notice a bag of ice on my forehead. I sit up slowly and my head starts pounding like I've been running for days.

I stand up and stumble to the lounge, where I find my mom and Tanae.

“Oh my god, sit down.” Tanae walks up to me and sits me down on the couch. She must have noticed how weak my knees are at the moment. Her skin is so soft and warm.

She sits next to me and they both look at me expectantly.

“How do you feel?” my mom asks.

My legs feel weak, my chest feels closed up, and my head hurts. My eyes are heavy too.

“I'm okay. Where's Tyler?” I look around nervously, even though I know she's not here.

“I called her but it went to voicemail so I left her a message.” my mom answers. I nod. I'm not gonna pretend Ty should be here, although I would love for her to be here.

“Dude do you know how much you scared me? I thought you were going to die. In my car.” Tanae keeps a straight face that just makes me chuckle.

“I guess I was ov-” I'm interrupted by the door.

The door knob turns very roughly but the door is locked so the person can't open. All three of us look at the door surprised.

“River! Oh my god please open the door!” Ty yells from the other side of the door.

My heart starts beating fast. Does she want to cut all ties with me? Please let her not make me choose between her and Tanae. Thoughts.

My mom walks to the door and opens. “Where's River?” there's panic in her voice so I'm freaking out too.

My mom moves out of the way for her to come in and Ty just barges in.

“Oh my god you're okay!” she runs to me and hugs me so tight I almost couldn't breathe, but I was so lost in the moment to even focus on my breathing. I hugged her just as much and had to stop myself from crying, because she was just sobbing on my shoulder.

“I'm sorry.” she says in between her sobs, and clenches on my back even stronger.

I'm so afraid of what my life would become if I lost Ty, it drives me insane. The thought scares me and that's why everytime she's too mad at me, I overreact.

I don't remember when I started shedding tears, but I can feel the dampness on Ty's shirt and on my face.

“I know this is all my fault and I'm sorry. I don't wanna fight with you.” she says when we finally pull away from the hug.

I start wiping her tears away because I'm only crying because she's crying.

“Do you forgive me?” she smiles, but it's not the full smile of hers that I like seeing.

“Maybe if you would've brought two boxes of pizza with you, this part would've been easy.” both of us laugh slightly.

“I don't want you to forgive me because of pizza. Just forgive me.”

“Ofcourse I forgive you. I'm sorry for yelling at you too.” I smile.

“You yell at me everyday when I always ask you to buy me stuff so it's fine.” we both laugh a little again.

“I think at this point you two have forgotten we're even in the room with you guys.” my mom jokes.

Ty and I turn to face them. She must've not noticed Tanae was here before, because her face drops when she sees her. And her face is filled with sadness, or anger, I can't tell which it is.