I've been alone for so long.

Chapter 9

Pov Sugawara

This is simply great. I freaked out. Perfect. I freaking hate my life damn it. Those three will surely come after me and they know I am much slower than them. What do I do?

"Hey, Sugawara-san are you okay?" Fuck I was so deep in thought I didn't realise someone was behind me. So, I turned around and its Shimizu great. Thanks, god, for that.

"I'm actually not okay Shimizu-san and I would like your help to escape from Daichi, Asahi and the captain." "Why would I do that? Youre the best at escaping from people." "I know but this is different." "Different how?" "Let us just say I had an attack two minutes ago in front of those three. And it still isn't back to normal."

"Okay thats a problem. Meet me at racer bridge." "Thank you so much Shimizu-san youre the best." I headed to the bridge. As fast as my heart would let me. I hope she handles them.

Pov Kiyoko

"Where has he gone?" "Sugaaaaa!!" "Where are you?" Yep, he is dead. If it isn't today it will be tomorrow. None of this events fade from people's memories. Not in a million years and especially not now.

"Shimizu. Have you seen Suga?" "We wanted to ask him about something?" "About what?" "Well, we were having an argument. And Daichi kind of snapped at him so I stopped him. We kept on arguing and when captain came to stop us, he was in a little corner with his hands over his ears. We wanted to ask him if he was all right. But we thought it would be very insensitive, so we decided to plan a day to go out and meet to study for the end-of-term exams."

That speech made a lot of sense. I don't exactly know what to do right now. I want the three of them to come closer together but at the same time if Sugawara tells them anything I'll be sucked in too.

"He was heading to his house right now. But if I were you, I would ask him another day. How about tomorrow?" "Yeah, thats a better idea." "Bye Shimizu." "See you tomorrow." "Bye."

You know what I'll get them closer together. I'm not going to tell him anything about the conversation we just had.

Sugawara started having anxiety problems in primary school. He normally would hide these problems from everyone but at the end we found out. I'm guessing he started having them because of all the bullying. When I found out it didn't surprise me. Its normal to have those problems, especially when your being bullied 24/7. He wasn't the only one with secrets. Koemi started having an eating disorder, plus self-esteem issues. Keiji suffered from self-esteem problems and ended up having suicidal thoughts. Of course, Kankan started having social problems. And finally, I suffered from severe depression, which ended up in self-harm. Koushi also ended up self-harm.

What a bunch of friends. Just thinking about it makes me wanna laugh.

Although, there is something I never have understood. Why did everybody hate Koemi and Koushi? They are incredible people. How could kids be so horrible? When there was someone different, they were discriminated. No, it isn't a was it still happens now. So many children feel like this every single day of this so-called unfair life. This life isn't unfair. Society is unfair. This world is amazing, and no one cares about it.

People are so blind they can't even see the beauty of other people. They venture inside the cave but not outside. They are cowards that want to show others respect.

There it is racer bridge. And there he is. I didn't realise how beautiful the moon is. And now that I think about it. His hair shines when the moon is bright. It's beautiful. The water from the river. A dazzling bridge. A lonely, beautiful boy standing there looking at the moon in the mysterious night. How beautiful.

What the hell am I thinking. Wake up damn it. For a second I thought my heart was going to fall out. What was this feeling? I'll investigate later.

"Hey, Koushi. How you doing my friend?" Friend? Why does this word hurt so much all of a sudden? "Kiyoko. Hi. There I'm feeling a bit better." "Don't you dare lie to me Sugawara Koushi." "Sorry." "Number? From were to were. And the actual number too." "Started at level 4. Increase to level 7 in 3 minutes. Started decreasing slowly. While talking to you before it was at 6 and now it is at 3."

"You are progressing, good. At least you didn't crack." "I guess you are correct."

Suddenly, a phone started ringing. The song imagination in the background. I started rushing through my bag. Unexpectedly, another song started playing. This time was Fly High from Burnout Syndromes. We both burst out laughing. In that silent night.

After two minutes of struggling, we finally found our phones. Oh, and what a surprise it was. Those three never stop. Do they? I made a sign to ask Koushi if we should get the phone. He agreed.

"Why are you guys calling at 8 on a Monday?" "There is trouble, guys." "Whats up Keiji." "Well, me and Koemi were wondering if we could meet up. All together again." Kanna suggested. "Your right Keiji. This is trouble." Koushi said. "Hey. Don't you dare talk about us like this brother." "What? I'm saying the truth."

"Well talking about the meeting so this two don't start arguing in the phone." "Fuck of Kiyoko." They snapped in unison. "Quick change the subject they are coordinated." "I got this Kei, Kiyo." "Piss off Fuji Kanna." "They are already on the full names hurry." "I WAS THINKING OF DOING ANOTHER CONCERT!!!"

Silence. No one talked. No one dared to.

"Why would we do another concert?" Thank you Koushi for breaking the silence I told him through signs. "Well. It's been a while. Also, maybe this way we could show at least Miyagi that the K's are real." "Yeah, that wouldn't work." Koushi replied. "This one is right. For once." "I guess. It was just something fun we could do together." "I got an idea." "Really Kiyo. What is it?" "We should do a concert but only in a special occasion." "Great idea." "Okay. Pinky promise." "Pinky promise." Three other voices said from the other side of the line. The phone call ended.

"How did we ever become friends?" Koushi asked me through laughter. "Why do you ask me? I still don't even know how I ever became friends with Kei." We both started laughing. All the feelings we had before gone. But still, I have this weird feeling inside my chest.

"I guess it's time for me to go." We both said in unison. "Well, see you tomorrow Koushi." "See ya."

We both went on our separate ways. He went to his deserted house and I went to my disastrous house. Now that I think about it, we both met face to face in that bridge. It was really funny. He was running away from those three horrible kids and I was running to the store because it was about to close. We ended up hitting each other. After a while we both joked about the fact, every single time we run through the bridge we bumped into each other. That is why we titled the bridge, racer bridge.

When I got home the first thing, I looked up was what was the feeling I had before.

Wait if what it says here is true then

Am I in love with that boy named Sugawara Koushi!?

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