Divine Seers

29. Regrets

I woke up the next morning and was still in a state of shock. When I opened my eyes, I kept wondering if last night had actually just been another bad dream.

I drew the curtains to let some daylight into the room and when I looked to the right of my bed, I saw my Cat Woman outfit lying on my bedroom chair. After seeing this, I knew straight away that last night was real and I felt sad.

The negative feelings from last night came rushing back through my body. Anger against Ethan just bubbled up inside of me. How could I have fancied him? How could I have believed that he was only into me?

And why hadn't I foreseen any of this happening in any of my dreams? Why had the universe not send me clairvoyant dreams of all of this? I just couldn't understand.

I kept looking back and regretting my actions. Ethan was being so charming to me and I fell for it! But all that time, he was also flirting with other girls and clearly was just a player.

All of this fake behaviour caused me to turn on my own sister. How could I have done this? I felt so bad for stealing Sophia's passport. All these regrets just kept running through my head.

I also realized how fake my other friends had been to me. Kayleigh was just another fake girl that was hungry for popularity. Amelia was never truly a friend to me either. Now I realized that all of Amelia's so-called projects were just secret dates with Ethan.

Everything just made my stomach churn. Regret, after regret, after regret. I realized that I had given too much attention to people that didn't really matter. I should've really put all my attention towards my school work.

I realized it was time for me to submit an application to start viewing sixth form colleges. I was determined to move on to college and leave Lowlands High behind. I no longer wanted to be a part of a place that was affecting me negatively.

Suddenly there was a knock on my bedroom door. 'Olivia are you feeling better after last night?' asked Sophia. 'Yes Soph, I just had a very gassy stomach,' I replied.

'Ok darling. I'm glad you're feeling better. I am spending this weekend with Samuel but I will be more free to talk and catch up next week so we'll speak soon,' she said.

The weekend went by slower than a snail. I watched Netflix and read books to take my mind off what I had seen on Friday night. By Sunday evening, I felt renewed and ready to face school again.

Monday morning came around pretty quickly and before I could blink, I was already in the school grounds walking to the Admissions Office to pick up an application form for viewing Sixth Form Colleges. As I was walking, I could see my favourite Madam walking towards me.

It could only be the wonderful and graceful Kayleigh, flicking her hair like a shampoo advert and trying so hard to look pristine. I looked straight at her but Kayleigh pretended to look the other way. I was dumbfounded.

All this time I had thought she was genuinely a well liked and friendly individual. Her moodiness and madam-ish behaviour at the shopping centre and now this too. I couldn't take this kind of behaviour and I knew it was going to cause problems for me.

Just after this, I saw Sophia and Samuel walking towards me and Sophia winked at me. I felt better after seeing Soph. It made me realize that our relationship was getting better.

I arrived at the Admissions Office and asked for an application form for viewing colleges. The Admissions Officer gave me a form and asked me to list all the colleges I wanted to visit in the borough and the dates I wanted to visit too. 'Please also get this form signed by a parent or guardian. Thanks.'