despise - negan x reader

chapter iv - moving

a week later...

rick has gone on another run, taking carl with him. they'd be gone for a day or so, leaving me with three kids - not that i'm complaining.

i've finally gotten all the kids down for a nap, they didn't go to school today and i've convinced rick i only need to go to the clinic when someone is injured, like house calls.

i know the kids will be up soon so i go ahead and make lunch, grilled cheese and a baby bottle. the house is clean, the kids are asleep, lunch is made. nothing to do but wait for them to get up.

morgan knocks on the door, i go to open it and step out quietly, "what?"

"negan is here, again."

"tell him he's early and that rick isn't here. i can't leave the kids."

morgan nods and goes to do what i told him to.

ten or so minutes later i hear another knock. when i go to open it, negan's there leaning against the doorway, a cocky grin spread on his face.

"what do you want?"

"to see you."

"well, i'm watching kids right now. come back later," i say shutting the door. he stops me, opens the door, and waltzing right on in.

"don't shut the door on me."

"keep it down, they're sleeping."

i hear mila crying, i give him a glare and then climb the stairs.

"hey mi," i say once i get to her room. the other two are in mason's room sound asleep.

i sit in the rocking chair that faces away from the door, rocking her back to sleep.

i feel a hand on the back of the rocker.

his hand.

i stand, carefully placing mila back in the crib. when i turn around, he's there. the same smile still grazing his face.

"pack a bag for you and the kids, you're coming back with me," he whispers.

"i'm not taking judith from her father."

"you, mila, and mason are coming with me. judith can stay, but you, my friend, are coming with me."

"i despise you, i'd never go with you."

"either you pack your bags and come with me or i'll throw you over my shoulder and take you and those kids' asses to the truck, your choice."

i roll my eyes but decide to go peacefully. morgan or carol - who morgan delightfully dragged back - can stay with judith.

i pack mila and mason's clothes quietly. i grab some of my stuff and then go to get morgan, "i need you to watch judith until rick and carl get back. can you do that?"

"yes, but why?"

"i don't know, he wants me to go with him. these kids have been traumatized enough so i'm not going to fight him. just promise me you will keep judy safe."

"i promise," he says, giving me a quick hug. "stay safe," he says.

"you too," i say before i go back inside, going into mila's room. i put her in her car seat then go to get mason.

"i got him," negan says.

i grab the car seat and bags. i motion for negan to grab mason's car seat.

"what? he needs it, he's only three."