No Good ≫ t.c

Chapter 24

Taylor's Pov

We walk upstair and I see all the little things time has done to Kian. He got taller, got more tattoos, wait the fuck?

"Dude what the fuck happen to your hair?" I say looking at his blonde with blue streaks on the side hair. How the fuck did I miss that?

"Well a unicorn threw up on it. No you idiot I dye it like this just about 4 months ago." Kian unlocked his technology room holding wide open for me.

"Damn sorry for asking little miss princess." I say walking in the room and looking at the old stuff that brought back memories.

"It feels like yesterday we found the son of a bitch who killed my dad and I killed him." I felt my heart strings rip with pain and hate.

I hate the man who killed my father, I hate the fact I wasn't there with him, I hate that my father was killed, I hate that I didn't save him.

*FLASH BACK*
I was at my very first bar, me and dad just got in a fight and there is no way I'm going back home and apologizing. It was none of his business who I got into bed with. Yes I do admit I did say something really low and nasty to say to your father but my anger took over my whole mindset.

"You should go say sorry Taylor c'mon don't be like this to your dad he loves you, he just cares." Kian says next to me while I'm drinking my beer and he is drinking his water like a pussy.

I chuckle and look at him like he has 2 heads . I order another round to drown my loud thoughts, my body starts to get a buzzed feeling and my eyesight is now blurry and I have pounding thoughts in my head. One more drink and my mind will be turned off till tomorrow.

My phone rings in my pocket but I don't dare to answer it. I'm about to take another gulp of my beer but Kian decided to ruin the fun by smacking my drink out of my hand.

"Why did you do that? Wow you like a tiger. Kian you never told me you were a tiger!-"

"Taylor-"

"Really why? I'm your best friend why didn't you tell me you are in Dora the explorer?-"

"Taylor stop talking!" Kian finally gets irritated with me and blows.

I close my mouth and look at him like a lost puppy. My phone starts ringing again, I took it out it of my pocket and see it's my dad calling me. I decline his call and look at my best friend tiger.

"Taylor you will call him back right now!" Kian says through his teeth while rubbing his temples

My phone once again starts ringing again. I answer it this time and hear gasping for air, what?

"Dad?" I question through the phone, I hear more gasping for air.

"Taylor- I'm- I'm sorry, I- I love you Taylor so- much-- please promise me- that- that you'll be happy. Find- Find someone who makes- you happy." My dad says gasping for air between sentences. Now I panic, what's going now? what's happening?

"Dad. Where are you? Are you okay? I'm sorry I'm sorry for everything dad but please tell me what's going on." I say really fast in my phone while taking out my wallet and paying for my drinks. I walk really fast outside and Kian is close by me, but I don't know where to go!

"I'm dying- someone shot me-- but Taylor re-remember I- I love you and I-I always will. B-but please t-try to keep m-my promise. Tell your- your mother I love her-her so much. I love- love you son." My dad takes his last breath of air and simply dies.

"I love you too dad.." I say with a tear rolling down my cheek, I sit down in the middle of the parking lot and hug myself thinking what he said to me.

I bury my head into my knee and cry. "I'm sorry dad. I'm sorry, please come back. I need you. I'm sorry, it's all my fault but I'm sorry. Don't worry dad I'll take care of mom but please forgive me." I say to my dad just like he's right besides me. I rock myself back and forth while still apologizing.

It's my fault, if I wouldn't have said those things and ran out he would have been alive . I'm so stupid, I'm sorry dad. I take out my phone and call my mom it takes 2 rings and she answers, my heart breaks just a bit more.

"Taylor Michael Caniff you tell me this instant where you are and your father." My mom harshly says.

He's dead, oh yeah and it was all my fault. I thought of saying but no I have to be settle for her.

"Taylor? Are you still there?" My mom voice softens which makes me feel guilty, I'm sorry mom..

"Yeah I'm still here mom." I reply

"Is you father with you? Cause he isn't answering my phone calls and it's getting late for you two to be out." My mom voice is now getting a concern tone to it.

"Mom.. Dad got um.. he uh.." I couldn't finish my heart is tearing apart.

"Taylor what's wrong? Is your dad okay?" My mom asks more questions

"He died.. He got shot looking for me.. I'm sorry mom I really am, he says you loves you." I said slowly and quietly, I hear a gasp from the other end of the line and quickly after a sobs, my heart shattered.

"Taylor.. Please tell me your-r joking, I-I can't lose him please T-Taylor tell me this is a dream." My mother sobs into the phone

"Mom I wish I could tell you this is a lie or a dream but I can't I'm sorry mom please forgive me. It's all my fault I'm sorry I'm sorry." I start shaking again and tears roll down my face.

"T-Taylor don't blame yourself hun. I'm going to m-miss your father so much, but don't blame yourself please honey." She cry a bit more she's trying to me strong for me I know it.

"Don't worry I'll take care of you, and my dad will take care of us where he is right now." I say

"I know you will baby, you always have and I-I know he'll be watching over us." Her soft voice calmed me down.

I hang up cause I don't want to hear anymore of this conversation of my dad leaving us. I look at Kian and he sit besides me and hugs me for a while and we let go. I look at the ground and my mind keeps replying what my dad said, "Find someone who will make you happy."

Is he taking about me having a girlfriend? Oh no that's ancient history and he knows that. I don't love anyone other then God and my parents that's all the love I give out too oh and drinks.

He really thinks someone is capable of handling me and loving me? And that I am capable of loving and caring for someone else. I know one thing no one will love me cause am you know I'm me.

*FLASHBACK ENDED*

I passed very dark stages back when I was 16 and I still passed those stages when I think a lot. I miss him I always had always will, he would love Rebeca.. wait Rebeca.

"Have you found anything yet Kian?" I ask looking at the computer screen in front of him.

" Yes your bae awaits for you in New York City, ooh so romantic." Kian winks and laughs at me.

I laugh and say "C'mon New York here we come."

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Okay I not going to lie I sort of cried when I was writing when Taylor's dad died.

But whoa it was a sort of sad chapter. 😓

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