No Good ≫ t.c

Chapter 55

Taylor's Pov

I take deep breaths in trying to remain calm and awake while also trying to plan everything perfect for tomorrow. Everything will definitely be different after the things that will happen, I am really trying to prepare for this but a feeling deep in my heart is scared because as much as I am trying to be prepared the feeling knows that I will never be fully prepared to do something like this.

"C'mon Taylor you have to do this. It's for the best." I tell myself quietly trying not to wake up the girl that is sleeping. I need to learn her name.

I look over my shoulder to see her peacefully sleeping, her tiny arms wrapped around my pillow. She is really beautiful but I can't see that until its night because for some odd reason the other person inside of me finally gives me a break and I can be myself again.

Starring at her I feel my heart weigh a ton, I don't mean to be like the way that I am towards here it's just that she brings all the bad out of me and I don't even have a clue why. Maybe I'm just so mad at myself that I let a girl like Rebeca go when she was so right for me, maybe I'm bringing out all the bad out of myself.

She sighs in her sleep and moves around as if she is having a bad dream, I stay silently furrowing my eyebrows together waiting to see if I can figure out what dream is clouding her mind. I rest my head on my arm still not taking my eyes of her.

"Why?" Her soft voice says whispering, I tilt my head leaning in to hear more of what she is saying.

"Please, just tell me why. Why?" She says a bit louder moving much more. She starts burying her face into the pillow and I start hearing soft weeps.

Something in me has the need to get up touch her head and softly pet her hair. She cuddles into my stomach and I freeze in that exact moment her long blonde hair is covering my stomach. Her tears are now trailing down her face to my t-shirt and I still don't move. She lightly hiccups and wraps her arm around my body as if something is coming to get her and I'm what is protecting her.

I lightly place my hand on her head and start running my fingers through her hair. Which calms us both down, I feel her hold in a breath while my fingers run down her hair. I pull my hand away and she moves away too, her breathing is now picking up in an anxious way.

She is shaking now and I haven't even said a word. It is way worst than I thought. I see her about to get up and leave but for a reason I touch her arm. She immediately freezes and so does her breaths, my heart weighs more than tons seeing the way she responds to me.

"I- I uh, um." I struggle getting words out of my mouth. She flinches when I speak though I think I know why because I always scream.

"Damn it, I'm sorry okay. I know I may sound mad but I'm mad at myself right now with how I'm speaking but I really want to apologize." I say clearly frustrated with myself. The girl lightly scoffs and tries to leave again but I stop her.

"Please, can you just listen?" My voice and my question catches her attention, she sits back down resting her back on the headboard but keeping her eyes locked on the end of the bed.

"I know you are a bit spooked of me or being near me, but I'm not always like that type of guy I'm just mad at myself for my reasons and the anger is controlling me. I am really sorry I'm taking it out on you and I know you won't forgive me but I just want you to know that it's not you it's me. I honestly don't know why I'm saying what's on mind when I don't even know you, I guess it's the heat of the moment. Anyways I'm really sorry and I'll leave you to get some rest." I say getting up heading towards the door.

"Amelia." Almost a whisper was heard through the room, I turned around and she was looking at me with her electric blue eyes.

"That is such a beautiful name. Hi Amelia, I'm Taylor." I say giving a small smile, happy to know her name for some reason.

"Taylor, you need sleep and this is obviously your bed so you need the rest here I'll go on the couch in the living room." Amelia says slightly uncomfortable to be in my room and with me.

"No I can't have any other guy try anything on you. I'll take the room next door. Make sure to lock the door when I leave, there are many horny guys even girls here so lock the door. We both need rest so goodnight Amelia sweet dreams." I say turning the knob on the door stepping slightly out.

"Wait!" Amelia voice stops my feet from taking around step.

I turn around looking at her worried/tired eyes. She has her eyebrows slightly pushed together giving her a scared expression. I see her gulped down the fear and talk.

"I don't feel safe alone." She says while fiddling with her fingers.

"Don't worry you'll be safe in this locked room no one will get in, I promise you Ami." I say calmly.

"I really just don't feel safe even being in a locked room. C-can you, um, stay, maybe s-tay here with me?" Amelia says nervously which is a very cute sight.

"Of course Ami. Just I want my bed back." I say jokingly as I lock the door and walk slowly towards her.

"O-h oh of course I-I'm sorry I-" Amelia says quickly getting off but I put my hands of her shoulders to stop, she slightly flinches. I quickly take my hands off and look her in the eyes.

"It's completely fine Ami. I'm just joking love. You take the bed, I'll sleep on the floor." I say taking a pillow from the closet and a blanket.

I turn off the lamp on the desk I was working out and lay down on the floor, silence is accompanying us while we lay there. After a few minutes I feel the need to say a couple of things out loud because if I don't I might explode.

"I am really sorry Ami. I can't say how sorry I am for doing treating you that way. You aren't nothing Amelia I again am really sorry for saying that. You are kind, extremely beautiful, smart, gentle, and many other things I don't know about, you are such a good person. Anyone will be the luckiest person to have you. That being said you can go, live your life outside with nice people, be free. One again I'm sorry for everything." I say meaning every single word that left my mouth.

Quietly I wait for her to say anything but I don't hear her even breathing. I peak up just a little bit and I hardly see anything I just barely make out her figure. I lay back down and start falling asleep, thinking about tomorrow and what will it bring.

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