No Good ≫ t.c

Chapter 38

Rebeca's Pov

I lightly throw Taylor's arm off of me I can't sleep at all. I keep tossing and turning but Taylor was still asleep. I guess we both had a rough life at start, his was just a bit more rough.

I turn my head to watch him sleep, I don't know how but just looking at him relaxes all my nerves and to come to think of it one look at him relaxed me more than a whole blunt.

As watching his chest rise in harmony I receive a text, taking my eyes off of Taylor I grab my phone and shiver reading the text.

From Unknown: Can't sleep beautiful? I think you need your beauty sleep.. Cause watching Taylor all night isn't going to help. Goodnight beautiful, sweetdreams.

I shiver a bit more until turning off my phone. I place my phone on the nightstand and take Taylor's arm to wrap around my body as I hold on his body for dear life.

I shut my eyes tight but can't fall asleep. Taylor must have notice my uneasiness and squirming because he is now awake looking down at me.

"What's wrong babygirl?" Taylor almost whispers in his raspy voice.

"N-Nothing, I- uh I just can't fall asleep. Sorry if I woke you." I speak nervously and stutter. Great just great.

"Tell me." He say in a more commanding voice.

"I just heard something probably panda downstairs now that I th-think about it." Fuck Rebeca stop stuttering.

"You are lying Rebeca." Taylor's eyebrows furrow together as he stares at me intensely.

"No I'm- I'm" My voice speaks in a high tone, I never slapped myself so hard mentally in my life.I quickly clear my throat and speak again.

"I'm telling you it's the truth." I say looking into his eyes to make him believe that I'm not lying but I'm not doing so hot.

"I don't believe you." He says looking deeply into my eyes trying to read me.

I take him in my arms to hug him and whisper into his ear.

"Ears and eyes are everywhere, I can't tell you well not here." I pull him tighter placing a soft kiss on his ear.

"What, what do you mean?" Taylor whispers into my ear as well.

"Play along." I whisper one last time and pull away.

"I told you it was panda baby."I let out a small fake laugh.

"Sorry baby girl yeah I'm just tired that why I'm snappy." Taylor gives me a awkward look and slightly smiles.

"I'm not tired, can we watch a movie?" I ask kissing his cheek.

I was given a nod, Taylor picks me up and place over his shoulders. I let out a small laugh and start talking.

"You know I very capable of walking on my own two feet Tay."

"I'm aware of that Becky." Taylor says adding a nickname just like me.

No has called me just the name Becky since I was in elementary school. It's been such a long time, it's makes me notice that I'm not a kid anymore which is sad but now I feel so much stronger.

When my father use to abuse me when I was a kid, I would cry much more and beg for his forgiveness. I didn't know why he hit me I thought he hated me so I hated myself as well. I try to be the best daughter for his love or even the slightness bit of affection.

*FLASHBACK*

I walked home from school with a big smile waiting to tell my daddy I got an A+ on my test today. I don't know why he hates me but that's why I'm trying to make him happy.

Walking into the door I see my daddy on the couch with a really angry face, yes I'm a bit scared of my daddy but I still want to tell him the goods news.

"Daddy I got an A+ on my test today!" I squeal clapping my hands after showing him the paper.

My daddy doesn't say anything, he gets up and grabs the paper from my hands and rips it all. I frown look at the test I worked so hard on, ripped and all over the floor.

"I worked hard on that dadd-" I wanted to finish telling him but he didn't want to me to cause he slapped me hard which made me fall.

I kept feeling hard slaps on my face. I felt something way harder than the slap but the pain was coming from my eye, the pain was getting worse. I scream out in pain trying to make my daddy stop. He was punching me in the eye that was a new spot for him.

"OW NO STOP DADDY PLEASE IT HURTS DADDY OUCH!" My screams are getting louder by the second.

He finally stops after many of my screams, he turn around but not moving. I'm still on the floor in a lot of pain.

"I'm sorry daddy that you hate me and I'm sorry you have me in your life, but I love you. You are my daddy, and I'll keep trying to be a better daughter for you." I tell him with fresh tears rolling down my red burning cheeks.

My daddy walks off not saying anything to me. I keep crying mumbling 'Don't hate me' or 'I'm sorry daddy I really am' until my older brother comes from middle school. His 12 while I'm a little 9 year old girl in elementary school.

"Baby sister why are you here?" My brother Eric says walking into the living room were I'm laying and crying.

"Cause daddy doesn't love me." I cry more.

"I told you before run to your room after you came from school." Eric picks me up placing me on the couch as he gets frozen peas for my face.

"But I had good news to tell daddy." I say sadly with my pouty face looking at my feet.

"What's the good news?" Eric places the bag of frozen pea on my eye.

"I got an A+ on my test today but daddy ripped it apart." I say and look down the see my test one more time.

"I'm so proud of you little bear." Eric kisses the top of my head which makes me smile.

"I love you big bear." I smile saying.

*END OF FLASHBACK*

After I got older I realized that he will never love me so I stopped trying to win some love and I simply grew up.

"Baby why are you crying?" Taylor snaps me out of my memory and thoughts. I wipe salty tears I didn't know I was crying and reassure him I was fine. 

"Do you still want to watch a movie?" He asks me while placing me down on my own two feet in a type of movie room.

"No, just tell me sweet things until I forget my past and fall asleep."

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chapter 38 everybody!

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