A World of His Own

Chapter 19

[Alien]

A diary. They would never thought they can find another diary here.

"This must be Taehyung's diary when he was young," says Jimin as he grabs the diary and look at both the front and back covers.

"It looks worn."

"Of course it's his diary when he was a kid. Come on, let's read it. Maybe we can find a clue," says Jungkook.

Jimin nods and he opens the book.

May 18th 2005

The world is such a beautiful place to live in. I'm happy to be born here. Although I am an outsider, I am grateful that I'm lost here.

I like the sunshine that hits my skin. It's so warm. I like the rain that hits my skin. It's cold and it washes away every filth. I am glad that I am here. Trully.

A short entry. There are many smudges on the page. Some words were erased multiple times and some does not look clear. It seems like Taehyung was just learning how to write diary this time.

Jimin smiles widely as he reads that out loud for the members. He flips to another pages and begins to read again.

June 5th, 2005

I met an old man today. He was riding a swing next to me. I asked him why he was here. He said it was because he was sad and lonely. I told him he did not have to be since I was there with him and we play paper scissors stone together. It was fun.

June 7th, 2005

Father is out again with my little brother and sister. I am home alone with my grandma. I do not complain though, I love grandma, but I want my dad too. When will he come home?

"I don't really want to say this. But I don't understand the reason why Taehyung's father had to leave him alone here with his grandma. Couldn't he bring his children and his mom with him?" Yoongi asks after Jimin has finished reading that entry.

"Yeah, I don't understand too. It happened though, so there isn't any use in questioning about it," says Namjon.

Jimin, Jungkook, Hoseok and Jin just nod their head in agreement with Namjoon.

June 12th, 2005

My friend told me I should cry when I feel sad. I know he was right, but crying pains me. I don't like it, I can't hold it either. I don't want them to make me cry, but they make me sad.

The members' heart ache listening to that entry. If the date is right, Taehyung must be around ten years old when he wrote that.

July 1st, 2005

Diary, I want to stop writing. I'm tired, nothing is interesting to me.

January 3rd, 2006

Jimin stops reading and re-checks the year. He wasn't wrong, it is indeed 2006. Taehyung skipped more or less a year before he continued his diary.

"A year? He stopped for a year? What happened during those months?" Hoseok asks.

Jimin shakes his head. "He just mentioned that nothing seemed to interest him anymore."

January 3rd , 2006

Moths are great. They aren't as clean, they aren't as beautiful. But they continue to seek light and crowd around it. They give the light a reason to shine.

I am confused of wanting to become a moth or the light. Will someone who has stayed in the darkness for so long be able to shine?

My uncle came home drunk again tonight. He slammed the door, the table, threw his shoes and screamed on top of his lungs.