Bucky Barnes: The love of my life

"Whatever it takes?"

AFTER THE WEDDING

You and Bucky decided not to go on a honeymoon, you're back at the compound taking a bath together. The bubbles fill the tub and cover all of you. You're sitting on his lap with your head laying on his shoulder.

"What do you wanna do after our bath Mrs. Barnes?"

"Well, Mr. Barnes. Since you asked, I wanna make a baby." You smile and he kisses your neck. "I think we can do that." He says taking his glass of red wine off the side of the tub and taking a sip. He gestures it towards you asking if you want a drink and you say no. You don't want to drink and risk fading the memory of your wedding. You want to keep every detail of today safe.

After a little bit longer of soaking you both get out of the bath. You don't bother getting dressed. He picks you up and you wrap your legs around his waist. He carries you into the room kissing you. You smile through the kiss as he lays you down on the bed.

"Buck?" You say breaking the kiss.

"Yes doll?"

"We got married today." You both smile as he holds your hand that has your ring on it. He sweeps his thumb overtop of your knuckles and kisses the ring. "We got married today." He repeats, kissing you again.

You don't just have sex, you don't just try and make a baby. You make love. He's always been so passionate and every time you think it can't get any better than this. And then it does...

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SIX MONTHS LATER

You've been trying to get pregnant for almost 8 months now. You've been married for six. You've seen a fertility specialist and she said nothing is wrong you just need to keep trying. And that's what you do. Your relationship with Bucky is still perfect but not being able to get pregnant has made both of you quite and all you do it lay in bed, have sex and sleep.

You're in the bedroom with him right now cuddling and watching a movie.

"Babe?" You say. He looks at you and you have tears in your eyes. "I don't want to do this anymore..." He wipes a tear off your face.

"Do what baby?" He continues to wipe the tears from your face and holds you tighter. "I can't keep trying to have a baby. Every time it says 'not pregnant', my hearts breaks a little more and I don't think I have anything left. I can't...I want a baby but I cant keep doing this."

His lip quivers. He holds his emotions back as best he can but his voice breaks as he's talking. "Okay. I know it's hard. I feel the same way. I want a baby too. But if you need a break, if you need time, or if you just want to stop we can. Or...uhm we can adopt I guess. It's not ideal, I know you wanted to carry the baby but...I don't know we can talk to the fertility specialist again if you want."

"Okay. I-I don't know. We can think about it. We can talk more but can we just take a break. We can take some time first and decide if we want to try again ourselves before going back to the specialist."

He kisses your forehead and pulls you on-top of him. You lay on his chest and hug him tight. "Okay. I love you doll. I know it's hard. But you're so strong and you will be an amazing mom. I promise you I will make sure we have a baby."

"Whatever it takes?"

"Whatever it takes doll." He chuckles. "We will have a baby."