Bucky Barnes: The love of my life

"One day in paradise."

Bucky's POV:

An hour later Steve and I are still laying in bed. We put boxers on but nothing else. I love the skin to skin contact with him. Not just the sexual stuff we just did. Just being able to feel his body against mine after all this time. I've come to a conclusion that y/n is still everything I want. Being able to be with Steve like this, I needed it. I needed to see what it was like to be with him. I know I love him, I do. But it's so hard to explain.

I could end it with him. In an instant. And we can just go back to being best-friends. I think. It would be hard but I could do it. But if I ever lost y/n, I couldn't live with myself. I've lost Steve before. He's lost me. We've been through that. At this point we're used to it. But if I ever lose her...I can't even finish the thought. I don't know what I would do.

"What are you thinking about?" Steve interrupts my thoughts, running his hands through my hair. "You. And y/n," I sigh, I need to tell him what I'm thinking, "i don't know how to love you both like this. Because I love her more than anything. And laying here with you, I feel like I'm cheating on her. I'm trying to convince myself I'll be okay without you." He takes a long deep breath. "I get it. You have a wife, and a baby. If you want to stop while we're ahead we can. I'll always be here for you. I can continue to be your friend. We can do that. Whatever you decide It'll be okay."

Him saying that is reassuring to me. Because I know he's sincere. He will be okay. He's the strongest person I know, tied with y/n of course. "I think that's what we should do." He nods and we both sit up. "Can we-...I want to actually uhm," I interrupt knowing what he's going to say but not having the courage to. "You want to have sex first?" He chuckles because of how blunt I am. He nods, blushing too hard to say anything.

"We can wait. Take our time for that. We have all day to build your confidence for that." He kisses me, I expected him to say something, not kiss me, so it caught me by surprise. "One day in paradise. huh?" He says between kisses. "Yea." I kiss him again. "Well we should spend it having sex. That's what I wanna do." I'm already hard. So why not? And I really want to.

Steve's POV:

"Okay." He smiles. "Let's do it." I run my hands through his hair and continue to kiss him. His hair smells so good. He uses y/n's shampoo, it smells like rose petals and kiwi. He slides his hand down to my boxers and starts to pull them off and does the same to his. He pulls me into a straddle on his lap and feeling him hard against me is a feeling I would love to get used to.

We're caught in an erotic make out session until he grabs my hips and starts grinding me against him. Both of us reach a near climax when he stops. It takes everything I have not to yell 'no!' When the friction disappears. I let out a moan as he pulls me off of him and adjust himself so he's sitting against the headboard.

I know exactly what he wants. And I comply. I take him in my mouth, no hesitation. I don't want him to think I'm not ready, I need to do this with him now or I'll never be able to. He groans and his hand finds my already messed up hair.

I don't know how I ended up being a sub in this situation. I think it's because he knows what he's doing more than me, but we're both doms. Then again, he could do anything he wants to me. And I'd probably beg him not to stop...

I bob up and down on him until he comes close again, then I give him the same pain he gives me and I stop.

WARNING: it gets cringy and I don't know how to write gay sex scenes so don't judge please.

He groans. Frustrated. He gets up and kisses me, hard and desperate. Fighting against me trying to slip my tongue into his mouth, he wants to feel inside mine. I give up and let him. "Do you have condoms?" I nod and gesture to the nightstand. "Lube?" Again. The nightstand. He reaches in and grabs two condoms and the lube that was in there. He opens one of the condoms and puts it on himself.

"We can stop. Tell me if you want me to stop and I will." I don't. "No, I want to." I kiss him again. This time I take control of the kiss- until he flips me over and lays me on the bed. He's on-top of me he adjusts my legs spreading them and pushing them toward my chest.

He grabs the lube and pops it open, wasting no time he covers my rear with it. It's cool and slimy. It feels good. He looks at me as he runs it around my entrance. About to insert the fingers of his right hand. I nod, giving him the okay. He starts with one. It hurts as he pushes through the muscle. But only slightly.

He gives me a second to adjust as he slowly moved the finger in and out. He checks to make sure it's okay before adding another. And it starts to feel really good. I can't help but moan, loudly. He chuckles and adds another finger. He's stretching me out, preparing me for him. And it's working. I open up to him.

I'm about to c*m when he takes his fingers out. I groan in frustration as he's stopped pleasuring me at the brink of my breaking point again.

"Fuck!" It escapes my mouth. I can't help it. I just need to let go already. "Language!" He scolds me as I did him earlier. I chuckle and he works him self over a few more times before applying a bit more lube to me. 

"Are you ready?" I nod. "No, I need to hear you say it. This is gonna hurt, no matter how much I tried to prepare you." I pull him into a kiss, he's worried about hurting me, but when it's my turn for him...no mercy. I smile and break the kiss. "Yes." I whisper onto his lips and brushing my nose cutely against him.

He readjusts himself putting his legs under mine and pulling mine around his hips. I feel him against me and I groan and my head falls back.

He slowly pushes into me and it does fucking hurt-language, I know- but oh my god. He keeps going slowly. And I can feel it when he's all the way in. I grabbed his elbows hard when he started pushing into me and I started to loosen my grip. "You okay?"

"Yea." I say breathlessly. "You can go faster." He starts to go faster. And it starts to feel so good. Both of us reach our climax fast and before I know it I feel him c*m inside me and then I feel myself all over my stomach. He slowly pulls out and pulls the condom off throwing into the trash next to the bed. He licks my stomach clean and then we make out for a little longer before it's my turn. 

"Your turn." I smirk. He chuckles and gets off of me getting on his hands and knees. I position myself behind him and we're both already hard again.

I take the second condom and put it on. Next I grab the lube and put it all over his entrance. No foreplay. "Are you ready?" He nods and I kiss up his back to his neck. "Yes." He assures me. I push myself into him. Again, no hesitation.

He groans and I can't tell if I hurt him or not. I leave myself inside of him not moving and kiss his back and his neck again. "Are you okay Buck?" I whisper into his ear and I can feel the shiver go down his spine and he loosens up around me. "Yea." He groans as I start to move myself in and out slowly. Eventually I go faster, holding his hips and pounding myself into him. He's starting to stroke himself and I take over still moving in and out of him. Our breath becomes one and our groans, moans and grunts fill the room along with the sound of pounding flesh.

We both c*m at the same time and he collapses before I even pull out of him. I fall on top of him and pull myself out. I roll over and kiss him again. I can't get enough of him. This is our only day together. This is it.