𝚃𝙷𝙴 𝙿𝙴𝚁𝙺𝚂 𝙾𝙵 𝙻𝙸𝚅𝙸𝙽𝙶 𝙸𝙽 𝚈𝙾𝚄𝚁 𝙰𝚂𝚂 ☘ 𝚈𝙾𝙾𝙽𝙶𝙸 √

𝚕𝚎𝚝𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚟

I suck at greetings.

Okay. So, two days have passed since and it's kind of chilly today since it's almost the end of October now. I'm sorry I didn't start writing to you at the starting of my year but I promise nothing much has really happened except for me gaining feelings for Mae.

Taehyung caught a cold because of spending so much time in the pool at the starting of winter. Jin is making soup for him while Jimin and Hoseok keep him company.

Jungkook is studying with the help of Namjoon.

Mae and Rae are out today.

Apparently, Jimin and Rae are going on a trip in a couple of days because they're in the scout and guide team. So Rae said that she needs one last party with Mae before going on the trip.

Rae and Jimin have made up and they're back to their 'it is just for fun' shit. Mae is very angry at Jimin. You see, Rae is her best friend. And when Rae cries, the shit is real. So Mae doesn't miss a chance to shoot Jimin a death glare.

Jimin deserves it.

To cool everything off, both of the girls went to a birthday party of their classmate. I don't know, he's my junior.

You'd say that I'm biased to the girls but it isn't like that. There was this time when the girls had stubbornly held on to the demand of bringing a dog home. Now, it isn't like we don't like dogs, we love them. But we can't actually buy one because we all go to uni at the same time and during that time, the house is empty. So we can't keep a dog.

But Rae and Mae being themselves, performed a strike and went off from the dorm for two days. Like, they didn't show their faces to us at all. Not even at university.

Taehyung had to bring his dog, Yeontan, back from his home for the girls to play with him for a day.

But hey, I didn't give in to their demand. So I'm not biased.

Yesterday, I went to audition for a company as a trainee. I, Jimin, and Rae are performing arts students here. I'm majoring in music, Rae in acting, and Jimin in dancing.

Suits Rae, drama queen.

Mae is studying accounting for now. She says she wants to do paperwork in the future. Says it's the new aesthetic.

I want to puke by hearing paperwork. But she's so...unique.

She says she wants to do interior designing too. And she says she wants to compose a song once in her life.

"Can we compose that song together when I become a music artist?" I asked her.

"Of course." She said with that confident smirk of hers.

So I went to audition as a trainee and...got rejected.

I was devastated. I had been hoping for this particular company for a while now and I got rejected, I felt sad and I didn't know what to do. And I found myself in front of Mae's room, looking for her.

It would be embarrassing for you but I cried like crazy last night, in Mae's arms. Wailing and sobbing and letting everything out. And she held me. She listened to everything I said, she watched me lose my entire shit, and yet she just held tighter onto me.

It's doesn't help that I have feelings for her and she shows how much she cares at my hard times. She's perfect. Perfect. I think it's fair to say that she likes me too.

I mean, she sleeps with me. She mumbled in her sleep that she might be in love with me. She holds me when I'm at my low.

"Does this mean I'll never be successful, Mae?" I asked her last night, my face was buried in the crook of her neck, hands tightly wrapped around her.

"I think that you got rejected, and you'll eat a lot of ice cream, cry your heart out and try again. And it means you're growing. And that's one step closer to success."

I don't remember sleeping last night. Just that she hugged me and she soothed me with hushed words while tucking me in bed. She kissed the top of my head and said it was gonna be alright.

I believed her.

I don't know if I'm in love with Mae or not. But I loved her last night. For that particular night, I loved her. It's difficult to explain. Maybe one day you'll find someone like that make your feel on the moon and you'll understand. Till that, goodbye.