𝚃𝙷𝙴 𝙿𝙴𝚁𝙺𝚂 𝙾𝙵 𝙻𝙸𝚅𝙸𝙽𝙶 𝙸𝙽 𝚈𝙾𝚄𝚁 𝙰𝚂𝚂 ☘ 𝚈𝙾𝙾𝙽𝙶𝙸 √

𝚕𝚎𝚝𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚡𝚡𝚒𝚒

It was one of those times when she made me feel so loved.

She is leaving tomorrow. I'm happy for her that she finally got the opportunity to take part in some mathematics quiz.

She said that we should go and visit before she leaves. Just me and her.

Basically, she was asking for a date.

Okay, Yoongi. Shut up.

I'm sorry I'm still flustered and can't think straight but I'll tell you how last night went.

We went bowling and it was fun. I lost, I don't know why she is good at bowling and I lost in foosball too. She had her iconic smirk on her face. I shook my head and laughed.

She was wearing a big hoodie and a short and I don't think she could look more beautiful. I also can't believe she chose to wear a short in this cold weather but you can't argue with her. 

She was driving, I had no idea where she was taking me. And that's what excited me. We stopped towards an area, where all other cars were parked.

Shit, are we doing the drive-thru date? Yes yes, we are. That's all I could think as we hopped out of the car. This is what I mean when I say I'm in love with her. None of my previous girlfriends have taken me on a date before, it has always been me. One of the reasons I love this girl because she's open-minded and would never back off from doing such stuff.

I was biting my lower lip in anxiousness, I remember. It's was so beautiful. All the cars were lined up, the white screen in front of us. There were some shops near the area.

Then she opened the trunk of the car and I was startled to see the trunk filled with blankets and pillows and there was some lighting on the roof too.

I kissed her.

We were sitting in the trunk with the blankets on as it was cold. I wrapped  my arms around her and brought her a little more closer to me. We ate raw sandwiches and popcorns and it warmed my heart. It just did. She's the most endearing person on the face of Earth and now it feels like I'll die if I ever lose her.

We were watching the movie called 'Moxie'. If you haven't seen it yet, then what are you doing, go and see it. It was peaceful. We were enjoying the movie and the press of each other's bodies.

We watched movies, held hands, kissed, and made weird faces, and complained about how unfair the world is. The movie was finished and we went back.

I was driving back home, we stopped at Mc Donald's drive-thru to have some burgers and coke. We were passing through the highway. The song was playing in the background, I stopped the car, and went out. I opened the door and extend my hand, she smiled.

We stood in front of the car and dance in the middle of the road.

Perfect, by one direction.

It was dark and quiet and the moon was shining so bright. Only the sound of us laughing can be heard.

We ended up sitting on the hood of the car, sipping beer. We were laughing at our old moments. I was talking continuously and she looked at me fondly and said something that made me feel special.

No, it wasn't I love you instead it was,

'Rae once told me that in your life, there will always be one person who will come into your life and find your weirdest of habits endearing. That time I laughed at her and told her how stupid she is and to come back to reality. But I guess, you proved me wrong.'

I kissed her and it was the kiss that I imagined sharing with her. It was slow, wet, soft, the one that made me believe in love. And I started crying in the kiss because I truly, truly find everything she does endearing. Hell, even the way she finds paperwork aesthetic is endearing. Everything she says touches my heart and I want to keep her so close.

Fuck, I'm crying now and my paper is staining with my tears but still... I can't tell you how badly I love her.

We didn't sleep that night. We had sex in the car and it wasn't rough, it was slow and sensual because I wanted to remember everything little thing about her before she goes. I'd never forgotten her. I know we didn't have the best start, nor did we have the best love story ever. But I learned so many little things because of her, grew and felt so much. I realized that when you love someone, you can't help but care even when you're mad at them. And you want to cry rather than looking cool. You want to give power to them and I'm speaking this as a male.

I don't even know how Christian grey never cried if he loved his woman so much. I don't know how any boy doesn't cry in every fucking book if they love their girl so much. Well really fuck them.

We went home and then she got busy packing her luggage. Her flight departure time was six in the morning so we had to leave early. I'm sure you're thinking I went to the airport to see her off but I went there because my mom was threatening me with bodily harm if I didn't go and meet her.

Then there was a hustle there because Mae hadn't made her parent sign her consent letter for the competition. She was bickering with the staff to let her go. Guess she's still not on talking terms with her mother. She yelled at everyone that she'd be an adult in a month and stuff.

My mom signed her consent letter. Mae was in shock.

"Why would you do that?"

"Because you're creating a scene at the airport?" My mom raised an eyebrow.

"But I thought you hated me, why'd you sign my consent?"

"Because you're talented and an asset to the team, idiot girl. Now you wanna come or not?"

It's my mother's way of showing her affection for me and Mae. She teases and all, for showing that she was good with our relationship. Mae frantically nodded and hugged me then kissed me several times as a goodbye.

I could see my mom smiling.

I almost picked her up because she was practically jumping on me. Then she was gone. I'm sorry the Ink is staining because of my tears but... she's gone. I know she'll come back but...I'm a kid still, okay? I miss her. I'm not practical like she is, I get driven away with my emotions and I want her to stay cuddled up to me when I'm sleeping.

That's it. That's it, I can't write anymore. But that's what happened today. I don't know what to write any more now that she's gone. Everything is grey, nothing is interesting. Fuck it's only been a couple of hours and I can't stop crying.

Okay, I'll try to continue writing tomorrow. I need to get some sleep.