𝚃𝙷𝙴 𝙿𝙴𝚁𝙺𝚂 𝙾𝙵 𝙻𝙸𝚅𝙸𝙽𝙶 𝙸𝙽 𝚈𝙾𝚄𝚁 𝙰𝚂𝚂 ☘ 𝚈𝙾𝙾𝙽𝙶𝙸 √

𝚕𝚎𝚝𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚡𝚒𝚒

Sometimes I wonder why the fuck am I still living with people who are not normal.

I was standing in front of Mae's room because we had gotten ready for the movie treat Jimin was forced to give. I was kinda sad because Namjoon and Jin couldn't come with us. They have a shit tone of work to do before Christmas.

I went to summon the girls since all of the rest were waiting downstairs and I heard them talking.

"Chill out now, you're not pregnant any more."

I realised what they were talking about. And now I also realize that I wasn't there for Mae when she was literally going through the process of deciding a life. Indirectly killing her child. I'm sorry, I shouldn't use the word killing in this situation. I believe abortion is a good thing. You face the fact that you're gonna be a shit parent and you save a person from regretting being born.

It must be overwhelming and painful. I realised I wasn't there for her through it. I hope the person who impregnated her was supportive.

Then my thoughts were cut off when a more than cheerful Rae yelled out the idea that they should do that 'Sandwich scene' from sex education. Where Otis brings Maeve a sandwich after her abortion and she eats it while he drops her home.

I judged them hard. Like...weirdos. Total weirdos. Then I opened the door and told them to come downstairs.

The ride to the movie theatre wasn't much so I'll cut the boring stuff. The middle of the movie, is where shit got fucking interesting.

Well, not really but– oh well.

We were sitting in this cue.

I, Mae, Jungkook, Hoseok.

Then in the row below us, Jimin and Rae were sitting.

There was this sex scene going on the screen and I was minding my own business until I heard Jungkook tell Mae something like.

"You know we could be in there place."

He fucking flirted with Mae, with that crooked, arrogant smirk of his. And at first, I thought that Jungkook was being Jungkook. Everyone flirts here and there, and Mae didn't mind either. She just smacked him straight on the face and told him to focus on the movie.

I was about to say something. I don't know, there was this ripping feeling inside me that screamed how could he?

Like, my every nerve was refusing to believe that she isn't mine. She's not officially, or in any way, mine. I just can't seem to wrap my head around it. I was really gonna scream at Jungkook because...she's mine right? She's my cuddle buddy. Maybe she was.

But then all of ours attention was taken towards Jimin suddenly laughing very loudly. And Rae had half of her face hidden with her one hand in embarrassment. But she was suppressing her laugh too.

What happened was, that during the sex scene, Rae was going to climb on Jimin to kiss him. But she accidentally climbed on the other side where someone else was sitting and kissed the man.

And the man whom she accidentally kissed was just staring at us with an incredulous look. He looked like some rich classy businessman. No one really cared, all of our dads look that way.

But it took me by surprise that Jimin was laughing too. In fact, he was laughing the loudest. I wonder how Jimin doesn't get jealous. Like, at all. Then he playfully hit Rae's arm and kept on teasing her throughout the movie.

Hoseok was laughing a lot too. Mae was face palming. It was hilarious so I and Jungkook laughed too. 

The man was red all over and we're seventeen, we don't really care.

The movie was quick to end after that. Because we were all distracted by the incident and kept on laughing.

Then we ate at McDonald's and walked back home. As we were a couple of houses away from ours, Mae suddenly stopped in her tracks by seeing a guy who was standing in front of our house. She looked really shocked, then she took off in a sprint towards the said stranger and then started strangling him and beating him and what not. Then he wrapped her arms around her.

Turns out he was his brother who was just in the city for his NGO work and decided to meet.

She had a little talk to his brother that I didn't know, but I get guess it's about Mae and her mother fight.

Jin asked Mae that why didn't he stay with us tonight and she said,

"My brother is an ass, he came for his NGO work and I think he could afford a room in a hotel."

She look pissed, as she slap the door right into her brother face. she went straight away to her room.

It rather sad, actually. If I'd become a successful person, my first aim would be to look out for my little sister.

Anyways.

That wasn't the thing that got me.

It was the loom on Jungkook's face. He looked rather... jealous when Mae was beating and hugging her brother we all just stood their not knowing he was her brother. I'm damn sure Jungkook likes Mae. Well, I can't blame him they spend a lot of time together.

But there's always this tug at my heart. Because I love her. Even though we've been a little distant lately and none of us have properly apologized, she's mine, and my feelings for her won't go away.

It's making me uncontrollably jealous. I don't know how to explain it. It feels like I've fallen in love with someone who's not mine. Out of reach, even though just a room away. It sucks, really.

Good night.