New Day : Heartstrings Book2 (GOT7 Fanfic)

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"We Got Married is having two new couples on their next season. Do you think anyone from JYPE is going to be on it?" Yihyun unnie asked.
"Doubt it." Jinwoon oppa answered.

Silence came over the dorm again.

I hate silences. It feels like I'm trapped inside a place where I can't make a sound or else they'll get mad. Silently, I stood up and went to the door, putting on my shoes and heading out.

To the practice studio, of course.

I connected my phone to the speaker and played a random song.

I see you, I look at you, you dazzle me
You see me, I look at you, my heart flutters
I see you, I look at you, you dazzle me
You see, I look at you, everything stops

I let out a sigh. This song was seriously starting to annoy me. Don't get me wrong. I love it, but the meaning itself...

I changed the song. It played our song this time No, not a dance song. A ballad, one of my favorites out of our mini-album.

At night, when the moon shines bright
At night, when the stars come out
I lie in bed, missing you
I lose sleep, thinking of you
But you're just like the stars
Too hard to reach,
Up in the sky
Brighter than a diamond

When it came to my part, I rapped quietly. Apparently, we had a radio guesting at Sukira and I remembered just now that we were going to do a live performance of this song.

"You've really improved,"

Aish...

"I don't need your compliments."
"Too bad. You have them."
"Go away."
"I don't want to."
"You're busy with practice, Choi Youngjae."

I didn't look at him directly. Only through the mirror in front of me. He was leaning against the doorframe, the glass door wide open, and staring at me.

"What happened, Aera?" he spoke in a soft voice.
"It's none of your business. Now can you please leave?"
"Can't you at least tell me what's happening?"
"No."
"Don't you need someone to talk to about it?"
"No. I don't need anyone. I don't need BamBam and I especially don't need you."

I don't know what I'm saying now...

I looked up to see the mirror and saw the hurt in his eyes. His mouth opening and closing as if he wanted to say something but decided not to say it anymore.

"Do... Do you love me?"
"I did. But that's the point. I did."

Lies...

Why do I keep lying?

***

"Ideal type?" Kangjun said slowly.
"Yes. Your fans are quite curious about that topic, since you are a co-ed group and there are rumors that some of you have had boyfriends or girlfriends before, so fans are curious what captures your attention," Ryeowook sunbae smiled. "Jinwoon? You go first?"
"Uhh... I just like someone who has this certain charm to her that really gets me. Someone who makes me want to be with her and not let go," Jinwoon oppa answered.

On and on.

Until it came to me.

"GOT7's BamBam."

I spoke a name, unlike the others, who only said the traits.

"I see..." Ryeowook sunbae nodded. "What is it about him that you like?"
"Everything."

Answers like these are dangerous. They're the ones that can cause scandals, but I'm saying the truth. No, I don't love him, but he still is my ideal type.

"But he's only my ideal type and a friend," I said quickly. "Just an ideal person whom which I want my partner to be like,"

But I am definitely not risking a third scandal.

The radio show went on, me staying silent for half. But I talked whenever I had something to say on the subject, but normally, I didn't really talk.

"Is Aera really this quiet?" Ryeowook sunbae asked after the radio show ended
"No. She's really loud and talkative in the dorm, but these days, she's gotten much quieter," Min unnie answered.

I didn't say or do anything.

I thought about earlier that day, when I practically yelled at Youngjae.

"Stop bothering me! I don't need you anymore!"

I feel so sorry for that now... Aish... What do I do?

I know why I said those things. I really did want him out of my life. Hurts to say, but it's true. I don't want any part of him with me. I'm not here to fall in love. I'm here to be an idol.

But if I say those things, won't he hate me? And not be my friend anymore? I know he was worried about me... But this is Youngjae. He loves me. He's my friend, but he also loves me.

And I love him, too...

As for Mark... He loves me, but it's different. He knows when I want to him. He can make me tell him things I don't want to talk about without me getting mad.

I don't even like Mark as more than a friend, so why can he do those things and Youngjae can't? Do I trust him more than Youngjae, who is my best friend?

I don't know anymore...

I grabbed my phone and dialed a number.

"Mark, let's meet up," I said at once.
"What? Now?"
"Yes. Right now. I'll meet you at the cafe near JYP building in thirty minutes."

***

"Won't you fight for her? She says she doesn't need you, so that means she doesn't love you anymore?"
"She said she did. She said she loved me. Meaning in the past, Mark. She doesn't love me anymore."
"It might be the past until-"
"You love her! Why are you trying to make me fight for her? Why don't you do it instead?"
"She loves you, not me! If I was in your place, I would have done that long ago, but I'm not! I'm just the friend!"

Youngjae sighed, shaking his head and walked inside his room, slamming the door and locking it.

"Okay!" Jinyoung clapped his hands, looking at the other six. "Who's willing to go talk to Lee Aera?"
"Will she even talk to us?" Yugyeom asked quietly.
"Hopefully..."
"You go, Yugyeom," BamBam said.
"No. You caused this. I'm not the one going to solve it," Yugyeom said, looking at his best friend.

It was silent.

They all knew BamBam was the one who started this.

"Curse those stars," BamBam said softly. "If I just didn't... I'm sorry about that, alright?"

No one looked at him. Only Jackson gave him a pat on the back before trying to get Youngjae to unlock the door.

"Go talk to her, Yugyeom. Let's just this over with. She's not mad at you. She's mad at BamBam." JB said.
"Jackson should do it, then!"
"Kim Yugyeom!"
"Aish!"

The atmosphere in their dorm changed when Aera stopped talking to them completely. Yugyeom became irritable. Jackson and BamBam talked much less. JB almost always lost his temper easily when it came to Youngjae and Mark. Jinyoung became more caring for them and Mark and Youngjae? They've been constantly arguing.

"You are going to fix this." JB told BamBam. "If you don't, I swear I'll hit you."
"It's not my fault she won't talk to me!"
"But it's your fault why she stopped talking to you! To us!"

They all cared about this topic, but they could never get someone to fix it. BamBam was much too stubborn. Mark was just silent. And Youngjae didn't want to do it anymore, judging from how he acted.

That's why Mark was hoping for a chance to make it all right. But what chance?

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Hi!! How was this? Any comments?? This is my last update for the week since we have our final exams (aka torture week since that's what I call our exam week) and I have to study so I can't update... Wish me luck, tho ~ ^.^ Hahaha XD