Life and Other Shit

𝒲𝒽𝑜 𝒶𝓂 ℐ

"You're most likely on the onset of depression",
And that one statement, made me question.

I'm scared.

I'm scared that they'll see past what I hide.
Because my anxiety's running high in tides.

And so I write and write about what I feel,
But all that's inside, how to reveal.

To the family and friends that are watching,
To the world that's waiting for your mistakes.

When I'm still worried, about what the others will say,
Because I know that they'll never see it my way.

I don't know.
No, I really don't know, how to go about this,
But it's taking over me as if it's my mid-life crisis.

I feel stuck in a place,
With doors on each side and the final choice, only to decide.

And soon, I sense all my doubts resurface,
The ones that are buried deep inside.

When I think about the choice I have to make,
One that isn't so easy.

Choosing wrong will cause it all to break,
And the right one won't be as breezy.

Do I say what's on my mind,
Or keep it all inside?

Do I act on the desires that are making me blind,
Or do I do what the others decide?

There's only one question running round my head- "Who Am I"

Do I become who they want me to be, while my true self I deny?

"Never Change Who You Are", I read,
And that one statement makes me reflect.

How long will I live as if am dead,
And everything else I'll neglect.

Instantly, I've made up my mind,
As realization suddenly strikes.

As my life and desires, I soon find,
When one after the other, come to mind all my likes.

This is my life and it's only mine to enjoy,
So today I make a choice to reverse depression's ploy.

I may be depressed but I know who I am,
The real person that's hiding beneath all the glam.

So I stay exactly who I am, letting all doubts die,
I show my true self to all, without any lie.

Let people think what they want about me,
But I don't care because now, I have been set free.
-Outspoken Fears

Poet's Note
Have you ever felt like you weren't being true to yourself? If you have, I hope you find this poem relatable and find the strength to stay true to yourself, despite everything and everyone else :)

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Outspoken Fears.