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TW's:
-Small mental breakdown

Clay's POV

I was so excited for the rest of the day and Hannah kept teasing me for my red face. I just rolled my eyes at her at all times. It was around two pm and we had PE now. I walked to the changing rooms after I got lost and saw George sitting down there, talking to Sapnap and Karl.

I walked in shyly and sat down on the bench next to George. He stopped talking to Sapnap and Karl. 'Hi! How are you?'

'I'm okay, and you?'

'I'm good,' George said with a big smile on his face. I heard Karl and Sapnap giggle and they walked off, leaving us alone.

I saw George standing up and he pulled off his shirt, making my stomach go completely crazy. My cheeks heated up and my eyes seemed to be stuck on George's chest. I kept staring and I forgot the world around me, just as long as I saw a hand wave in front of my face. Skeppy was giggling and I was startled.

'Uh- I was zoned out.'

Skeppy nodded with a big grin on his face and I blushed even more. I had been caught staring at George's chest and felt pretty stupid now. George didn't comment on it and I quickly changed into my other shirt too, seeing George look at me now.

I could really obviously feel some sort of tension between us now and I pulled on different shoes, just to quickly walk away from George. I got way too flustered close to him and this was all pretty new to me.

I had had a girlfriend for ages and I fell in love with a boy, I was genuinely hopelessly in love and it was confusing since I never liked a boy. I got a bit sad and because everything was so overwhelming suddenly, I started crying.

I sat down on a bench in the training hall and felt tears rolling down my face. I lifted my knees and hid my face behind them, wrapping my arms around my knees. I started sobbing softly and sat like this until I felt a hand on my shoulder.

'Are you okay?' Hannah asked me.

I shrugged and kept hiding my face which was covered in tears.

'Come here, Clay. Tell me what's wrong,' Hannah said as she held me against her body.

'It's too confusing and it's too overwhelming, I have so many feelings for George and I have never felt anything like this.'

'What makes it so confusing, Clay?'

'Am I actually suddenly gay?'

'Not suddenly, you have always been. You just didn't know it yet.'

'I'm actually so in love with him,' I whispered. 'I just don't understand what's going on anymore. I got caught staring at his bare chest and I'm embarrassed and confused.'

'There is no need to be embarrassed, you're attracted to boys and to George, that's why you stared at him.'

'What's going on, Hannah? Why do I feel this way so quickly?'

'Because you fell in love the first second you saw him.'

I sniffed loudly and nodded slowly. 'I'm sorry for being gay, Hannah. I'm sorry for making you sad.'

'You haven't made me sad and I don't want you apologising for something you didn't choose for ever again.'

I nodded and wiped my tears away. 'I'm sorry for crying, it's just overwhelming.'

'I fully get that it is overwhelming, Clay. It's quite a lot to figure out you're gay, to break up and to fall in love within a week.'

'Thank you so much for still being my friend.'

'Of course, I don't see why I wouldn't.'

'Because we had a relationship for years and I turn out to be gay.'

'Yeah and you didn't know that. If you would have faked our relationship, that would have been hurtful.'

People slowly started walking into the hall now and I saw George running to me. 'Oh gosh, Clay. Are you alright? Did you cry?'

'I did, but I'm okay.'

'Do you want to talk about it?'

'It's just a lot, I'm confused about everything happening to me.'

'Such as?'

'My sexuality.'

'Okay, I understand! Do you have any questions about it? I know quite a lot about sexuality so go ahead.'

'Is it possible to only like boys if I had a girlfriend?'

'Did you have feelings for Hannah?'

'No romantic or even sexual feelings, only friendly feelings.'

'And you do for boys?'

I shrugged. 'I guess so, yes.'

George smiled. 'I'm not going to give you any label, but it's most likely that you're gay.'

I sighed softly and nodded. 'I'm sorry for crying, I may come across as such a pussy now.'

'Not at all, boys cry too, Clay. Everyone cries.'

I nodded. 'You're right, I think.'

'I'm sure, I'm bawling my eyes out every now and then,' George laughed. 'Sometimes even without a reason.'

I giggled. 'Okay, I'll believe you.'

George smiled and grabbed my hand shortly, making me shyly look away. He rubbed my hand with his thumb and stood up after a while. 'The class is starting,' he smiled.

He walked off and I sat down for a second longer with Hannah. She was smiling at me and giggled after. 'Why don't you just immediately make out?'

'Excuse me, what?'

'I mean-,' Hannah giggled.

I rolled my eyes and stood up quickly. 'The class is starting, idiot.'

'Fine, go to your lover.'

'You're so annoying,' I giggled as I quickly walked off to go to George again. He was helping set up some stuff and smiled at me.

'Can you help me? I'm weak and you look stronger.'

I giggled and blushed at his comment. 'I'm not that strong, but sure. I can help.' I lifted the thing he was holding up and we walked to the place we had to put it down. I kept looking at my hands so I wouldn't blush when I saw him and when I had put it down, I quickly ran off.

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