Keith X Reader || Why do you see me?

Chapter 9

It's been about a month now since Acxa sees you and you've become good friends. Turns out when you really get to know her she's a really kind person, always looking for the best way to do things. She even trained with you a few times and told you how she met Keith. They were enemies at first but became friends. Their relationship really makes you realize that there can be goodness in everyone, no matter what they've done. People can change.

You and Keith have continued to look for any clues on how to get others to see you, you know that it can work with the wolves but only for one person. And it even might be that it only works for those who trust Keith.
Keith has suggested to try the same thing with some other people on the ship but you said right now, it's good the way it is. It would get really complicated if certain people saw you while others don't. You've told him you want to wait for some time and not to worry about it.

Now you're in Keiths room in the evening, exhausted by all the work today. You went to help other people on the planet you're currently on. You also try to help as much as you can on the missions, mainly by using your wind magic to secretly transport supplies quicker.

"What a day! I can't believe how many different beings we see every day and to think they all have their own different lives.."
You tell Keith sitting down on the floor next to his bed, the spot you usually fall asleep.
Keith nods and adds
"That's one of the great things about helping all of them.. we get to be a part of someones life, even if for just a little bit.. sometimes changing lives completely. You saved one of them today remember? That snake would've bitten that small guy and you blew it away with your wind.. The guy told me a bite of that would've been deadly and that that wind blow must be been a miracle." He walks towards you and sits down next to you.

"Oh I didn't know that but that was very lucky! I'm so glad I could help him.." You smile and look at Keith, he smiles as well but then his expression changes, he looks sad
"You've helped so many people over the past months.. Yet no one of them knew it was you. It's great to see that you get so happy about helping others but I believe if those people could thank you.. that would be even better. You deserve that. To have them look at you happily. It always makes my day. I really want you to feel that too.."

You listen to him, hearing that this bothers him makes you sad as well.. to you it's not that bad but it surely would be amazing.
"Hey, I really appreciate you worrying about me.. it means a lot that you care for me but.. I don't want you to feel bad for me, I'm really happy right now, a lot happier than I was before you found me. And besides.." You pull your book out from underneath Keith's bed, where you keep it hidden.
"Were working on that remember?"
He smiles softly "Yeah, you're right.. I just wish we could put more time into it."

He still looks worried. You put your arms around your knees, pulling them close to you. You don't like this.. You feel like you're putting him under pressure. You're the reason he's this worried. He cares about you.. which is great.. but you care about him too which means you don't want him to feel bad because of you.. And figuring out things about yourself.. it's also taking up time you both could spend helping others.. helping so many more lives than simply.. yours.

You feel yourself shaking. Insecurity overwhelms you.. for the past month thoughts like this had been coming to your mind again and again. You thought it would just go away, you'd get used to it but it only got worse..
"Hey.. What's going on?" Keith asks you. You realize you totally zoned out. Maybe Keith even was talking to you before but you didn't hear it at all.. That's how worked up these thoughts have you already.
Scared you look at Keith. Not knowing how.. or what to tell him.
His expression changes from a soft, worried one to a scared one too.. Great, now you've made him feel worse too. You look at the floor. Oh no..

"Please.. If there's anything bothering you.. tell me. I want to help you. And.. I know you don't want me to worry about you but.. I can't help it. Please don't feel bad because of that. It's because I care about you, okay? I can't and I won't change that."
Your heart suddenly feels warmer again. Somehow his words make you feel more relieved. Opening up about what's going on with you.. What you've been thinking about will probably make it easier. Yes, he'll feel bad about it but if you don't tell him.. he'll only feel worse. Telling him might really help.

"Keith, what you just said.. really helped. Thank you for... always being so understanding. I should tell you. But yeah.. just like you said, I struggle with that because I don't want you to feel bad for me.. Because I care about you too. But it's stupid to keep everything in. It won't make anything easier, you'll just worry even more. Okay I'll tell you."
You look at him and see his gaze on you soften, nodding slightly.