Keith X Reader || Why do you see me?

Chapter 13

"Hey, if there's anything.. You're struggling with.. remember how I told you about my doubts last month. If it's not too hard for you to talk about it.. if you want to you can tell me. Maybe I'll be able to help you" you say looking at Keith. He still looks at the floor.

"You're right..
Okay I'll try to explain it.
All these amazing things have happened to me in the past. So many people have been kind to me where I haven't been kind to them. I still sometimes struggle with my emotions, sometimes I do reckless things and don't listen to others. My old habits are still there. When everyone else feels happy about something.. sometimes I can't help but be sceptical, thinking this can't be actually all that good.. that there is something wrong. What I'm saying is.. Sometimes I feel like I could improve a lot as a person if only I had more discipline.

My thoughts can overwhelm me and.. to be honest there are times where I tend to get numb. I try to ignore any of my feelings to prevent myself from overreacting, like I did in the past.. I know that that's not right.. And then sometimes I still overreact. I know you've seen that too.. on some of the missions. Yet you still think so highly of me.. And sometimes I can't help but wonder why."
He looks at the floor with a hurt expression, his eyes filled with sadness. He looks insecure.

This once again reminds you of when you told him what had been bothering you a month ago. He helped you back then. Now it's time for you to help him.
"Keith.." You put one of your hands on his "I know you have the best intentions. Always wanting to improve yourself, always wanting to help others. To give back the care you've received throughout your life. And that fascinates me.

You also don't want to bother anyone with your struggles.. That's probably why you've kept this in. That reminds me of just the same things you told me last month.. When I told you about my insecurities. You know that you aren't alone. You don't have to face any of these struggles by yourself. Just know that you can always talk to me or your friends about things like this. When we care about someone we want to help them where we can. And I think.. just telling someone about what bothers you already helps a lot.. that's something I learned from you and something that has helped me a lot already.

I know you can work through this. We can't change who we are in a second, we all are rather developing over time.. so you don't have to beat yourself up about the fact that sometimes your old habits show. Especially after all the things you went through. I can understand why you acted the way you did back then.. And the fact that you've realized that you don't want to live the way you did back then, and that you've already changed a lot as a person.. it shows how much you've accomplished already. You can and should be proud about that. You have the power to change within you and you know that. Still, it doesn't always workout the way we want it to but that's just how it is. We all aren't perfect."

You both remain quiet for a while. He's probably processing everything you said just now.. how will he react? You turn to look at him, he's looking at your hands.. yours on his. Then from being deep in thoughts his face shifts to a smile. It's very dark already since it's late and you didn't leave the lights on but you think you see him blush slightly. Then he lifts his eyes to look into yours. You see them spark with happiness again.

"I was right you know.. talking to you about my struggles.. it helps a lot. Thank you for all you said.. Somehow it was just what I needed to hear. I feel like a weight has been lifted off of my shoulder now. What you said makes sense, I had a hard time figuring that out but you're right. I have improved a lot already and I still will, but everyone always still has their own problems, life's not perfect, it would be kinda boring that way if you think about it." He smiles looking at the ceiling.

"I want to learn to believe in myself the way you do. And I want you to believe in yourself like I do as well." he says looking back at you.
You smile, slightly blushing and say
"Looks like we can learn a lot from each other. Just like you said with Voltron, were stronger as a team, not having to face our struggles alone."
He nods.

Your wolves teleport to you.
"Whoa!" Keith shouts, his black wolf falling on top of him.
You both laugh, as you stop laughing he looks up at you, giving you a super cute smile..
He looks at his wolf holding him in his arms "Didn't I just tell you not to do that anymore?"
He looks at his wolf, who looks down, like he's ashamed.
Your wolf teleported to the middle of the room further away from you.
"See, he already understood!" You tell the black wolf, your wolf coming towards you, letting you pet him.
Then you feel kinda sorry for the black wolf "Sorry, don't worry about it, just try to remember it the next time, okay?" You pet him with your other hand.
The wolf seems happy again.

"Keith we've been talking for a long time.. I think we should get to sleep."
"You're right, we have a training session tomorrow morning remember?"
"Yeah and Acxa will join us too, it will be very hard.. but I can't wait!" You tell him excitedly.
He smiles and jumps into his bed.
"Thank you for telling me about your past." You tell him getting comfortable next to your wolf.
"Thank you for listening.. to everything. And giving me advice. I really needed that."
"I'm glad to help you just like you've helped me already." You say, smiling. "Good night Keith."
You close your eyes.
"Good night (Y/N)."