The Better Chaser; James Potter

Chapter 33- Fights

A/N: TW, there is sexual assault in this chapter

They spent an hour scolding us- mainly me. But I apologized over and over again. Then they felt bad or something and they started apologizing for not making me feel comfortable enough to tell them my honest plan, then I would say they were being ridiculous, then I would apologize for making them feel that way, and we fell into a loop. After about half an hour, we agreed that I would never lie to them again, and that I would stay with them until the school year starts. I tried to show them that this just shows what large of risk I put on them, but they guilted me, by saying that I lied and owed it to them, into staying at least for the rest of summer. They kissed us all good night and we all walked upstairs to our respective rooms. I sighed- exhausted after a long day. 

And that was that. I spent the rest of summer just healing up and hanging out with the marauders. Sometimes Lily would visit and even bring Marlene with her. It took a bit for her to forgive me, given I hurt Lily but she came around eventually. Then the last week Peter joined the group and we all started hanging out just like before. It was a weird change for me. Going from being completely alone and surrounded by Slytherins or death eaters, to being surrounded by a bunch of teenage Gryffindors. A part of me felt like I was betraying my house somehow, but I came to the conclusion that no matter what I was still proud to be a true Slytherin, and that I won't stand for the dicks that are also in my house and define it by them. 

We had one last meeting before we went to Hogwarts that everyone attended. It was more of just an update on where everyone was. I found that my parents went on trial and escaped somehow, which meant that it wasn't over yet, but I never thought that it was anyways. This made the order basically hold me hostage and not leave the Potter residence. I mean I get it, for my safety and all, but I didn't even get to go to Diagon Alley to get my shit for next year, I gave a list and more than enough money for Lily and she and the boys made a day of it. I spent that day helping Effie around the house and discussing strategies for future missions with her and Monty. It was a nice chill day in. Until someone came for a visit. He knocked on the door and I opened it because Effie and Monty had went to bed already,

"Hey can we talk?" Mark asked softly,

"I guess," I said dryly and moved so I could let him in, "You want tea?" I asked,

"I thought you were mad at me?" He teased,

"I am, I've still got manners though," I replied in the same dry tone as before,

"Nah it's alright, I just wanted to talk to you before you go back to Hogwarts," He said,

"Alright, what is it?" I asked bluntly,

"It feels like all I've been doing this past month is apologizing, but things just got so complicated. I just wanted to say I'm sorry if I come across as too strong, or as if I control your life. You are one of the most powerful and independent witches I know, but it still doesn't make me not worry about you. And sometimes in high pressure situations I may say things I don't mean exactly, and things just come out the wrong way-" Mark started explaining,

"Mark, I get it," I interrupted, "I worry about you too, but I feel like you worry about me more than the normal amount, which makes me feel like you don't think I'm capable, and you worry about me because of my age or something-" I explained my point of view,

"I get that I can come across that way, but it is true. I worry about you more than the normal amount," Mark confessed,

"See! I don't get why though, if it isn't my age- ohh," I realized. 

Merlin was this because of his stupid little crush on me?

"Yeah oh," He repeated in a bitter tone,