The Better Chaser; James Potter

Chapter 30- Acknowledging My Failure

"Good morning everyone! I hope you and your families are doing well," I greeted with a small smile. A murmur of greetings responded and I sighed before beginning, "I have some unfortunate news I need to share with you guys. But before I share anything, please know that I truly am sorry, and I take full responsibility for what happened. I plan to make it up to you guys as much as I can." I paused before continuing, "My position has been compromised," whispers broke out everywhere and people started complaining, asking what happened. I raised my hand to silence the crowed and they obeyed,

Huh I've become really good at this respect thing for grown ass adults to quiet down like that,

"I know. I have failed you," I said slowly,  " But we knew this day was coming eventually, and I couldn't be a spy forever. Even though I wish I could have continued to do so longer, I can't. This doesn't mean I'm completely useless though," I joked in the end trying to lighten the mood. I earned a few chuckles from the crowd which made me smile slightly, "I still know how a dark wizard thinks, how they operate and what magic they use. But I can no longer pass over information on new missions like I used too. On the bright side, I can now invest 100% of my time into the order," I explained, "Once again, I truly am sorry. But I hope you know I will still keep my promise of doing everything in my power to help us win the war," I said determinedly with a curt nod. My eyes shot to the door of the room as it was slammed open and Mark ran out of the room. I gave an apologetic look to the crowd before I ran after him,

"The fuck was that Mark?!" I yelled after him, entering the kitchen and shutting the door behind us,

"Take full responsibility? You're sorry? You failed them?!" He yelled back, repeating parts of my speech, "You know damn well that I'm the one responsible Reigna!"

"Stop it with the victim act Mark. I'm fine taking the heat, it is my fault. I'm old enough to make my own decisions on my own, regardless of you! This whole thing was a risk, I knew it- heck everyone did. You don't see any of them storming off and throwing a tantrum! I knew this was going to happen eventually, I'm just glad everyone came out of it alive!" I ranted,

"IT IS MY FAULT!!" He yelled, "When is that going to sink in Reigna! I got myself hurt! I got you hurt! I compromised your position! You saved the day- while I did nothing-"

"Enough with the savior complex Mark," I rolled my eyes at him, "I get enough of that with Potter. I don't know why you don't think I'm capable of making my own decisions! Decisions that I knew had consequences. Get over yourself!" I yelled back

"OH ENOUGH OF POTTER! What is that by the way?! You say you guys hate each other- but the way you look at each other-"

"THE WAY WE LOOK AT EACH OTHER?!!" I interrupted loudly,

How did he get there? and what does he mean 'the way you look at each other?' You mean pure hatred?

"YES THE WAY YOU LOOK AT EACH OTHER! WHEN HE ENTERED THE ROOM YOU LET GO OF MY HAND! WHENEVER HE ENTERS A ROOM YOU SHY AWAY FROM ME!" He yelled,

"Okay first of all," I said in a low voice trying to calm down, "None of what you're saying is true. I mean Remus and Sirius also entered the room! Why aren't you after them?" He had no response to this, "Secondly, why does that bother you so much anyways. I don't look anyway at Potter and he doesn't give two shits about me. But why does it fucking matter to you anyways? and Lastly, stop trying to change the topic! Mark I don't give a fuck whose fault it is. Mine, yours, Voldemort's, heck fucking Dumbledore's! What happened happened, I can't change that and I'm just doing the best I can with whatever I fucking have left! The only reason I was in the order Mark was because I was a spy! That was the only reason they respected and accepted me! Now I have nothing! Now I'm just a 16 year old to them!" I ranted