BALI SUN ☀ [✔]

[10] I can't believe I'm doing this

My senses were completely overloaded. Overloaded by her. I felt and sensed nothing but Lisa. Her arms around me, holding me close. Her body soft but firm against mine. And her lips, kissing me like there was nothing else in this world she would rather do right now.

I couldn't believe I was doing this. Kissing Lisa without restraint. Because I wanted to. Both my hands were now on her neck, my thumbs stroking her cheeks. Her skin was so smooth. This was nothing like kissing a guy. No stubble that scratched at my chin or lips. No rough or calloused hands. Just softness. Also I had to admit that Lisa was a damn good kisser. I loved everything she did.

Muffled giggles pulled me out of my Lisa-filled haze. I recognized my best friend's voice and pulled away from Lisa's warmth. We both looked up to where the giggles came from. We barely saw their faces, but I knew it was Jisoo and Rosé. They waved cheekily, looking down at us from where we sat earlier at the bar. Even in the semi-darkness I felt my face heat up.

"Sorry! Don't mind us, we'll... go..." Jisoo chuckled and pulled Rosé with her, who added a mischievious "Carry on." I heard the insinuous wink in her voice.

"Oh my god..." I breathed out embarrassed when their faces had disappeared. They had once again caught Lisa and me kissing. The Thai girl didn't seem as fazed by it. She ran a hand through my hair and gently pushed my forehead against hers. Our alcohol soaked breath mingled. I closed my eyes at the close proximity, willing my heartbeat to slow down. I felt Lisa stroking her thumb across my face. It felt sweet and intimate.

"Should we... go up there again?" I asked Lisa a bit unsure. I didn't quite know what she hoped to be the outcome here. Her deep eyes were hard to read most of the time.

"We can if you want to..." I heard her answer carefully, leaving room for interpretation of what she wanted. My eyes met hers.

"I... do like... having you to myself..." I admitted quietly, making her smile at me softly.

"Good to know." she whispered back with a glance down at my lips.

I started to feel self-conscious, sitting on Lisa's lap like this. It was a very intimate position for two people who knew each other only a couple days. No matter the obvious attraction between us. Lisa however, didn't let me think about it any further. She leaned in and stole a couple of kisses. Consecutively. Sweet ones. Kisses that I would usually steal from someone I'm in a relationship with. Not from someone I made out with twice.

Lisa was being sweet to me. Her kisses made me giggle. She didn't make me feel like I was new at this girl on girl thing. I thought that maybe she now understood why I was so awkward and hesitant to be close to her before. But I still couldn't quite wrap my head around what the heck someone as perfect as her, wants with someone like me. I knew I was pretty. And I was good with boys once I overcame my initial shyness. But what did Lisa, who I knew, dated exclusively girls, want with a 'newbie' like me?

"What's going on in this head of yours?" Lisa gently tapped my temple with a long finger, looking to catch my distant stare. "Are you overthinking right now?" She didn't let me answer but stole another soft kiss. "Because there's nothing to overthink." Another kiss. I willed my mind to just shut up. I closed my eyes. "I'm not." I told her softly.

"Good." I felt a kiss on the corner of my mouth. She wandered lower. "No thinking Jen, just enjoy." Her mouth was now just below my ear. The strong hand on my back kept me pressed against her while her other hand was half on my nape, half in my hair. I felt another soft kiss on the side of my neck. Oh this was good. More soft kisses on the same spot.

I tilted my head sideways so she had easier access to my heated skin. I tangled my own hands in her soft hair and held her close to me. "You smell so good." I heard her muffled voice. "It's... Dior." I managed to whisper before a lick on my neck stole my breath. Oh fuck! Lisa went from placing sweet kisses down my neck to gently sucking and licking and my body responded accordingly. I felt the heat rush down to my core rapidly because neck kisses like that are a major turn on. Nobody can deny that. And I was sure, Lisa knew very well what she was doing.