If I didn't have to wear shorts and a tee shirt tomorrow.
It wouldn't be 19 anymore.
More like 40.
Maybe 50.
I want to be numb.
But not the numb I am right now.
I can't move.
I really can't.
I want to.
But my body is so numb from the pain.
I can't.
Understand.
I didn't do this to myself.
And it's fucked up how I have to fix myself.
I deserve to be this way, though.
Don't say anything to me about this. Dont even think about it.
I'm numb
And I want to go
TRH
