Part of the pack

15 || Shallow understanding

Nothing in life is to be feared, it is only to be understood. Now is the time to understand more, so that we may fear less.

- Marie Curie

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I must be insane if I could just swiftly do my goal as if acting like a child to her parents who wanted to have some candy on her. I just now realized my stupidity at this moment.

Just looking at Hati's face, I could feel the embarrassment manifesting into my cheeks as it reddens down to my neck. I swear I could hear my heart beating loudly at the unusual question that was thrown at me.

It didn't help matters when I spurt out the chewed food I have on my mouth and decided that the table would be a good place to cough it out.

I'm feeling so mortified right now.

"I'm so sorry I- I didn't mean it!" I can still hear the gasps of laughter from Fenrir and Skoll as I apologized to Luna who just nodded at me in understanding. Her two sons were looking at me with equal pair of curiosity that made me blush even more.

"Wow, never thought I'll see someone react that much to my question," Hati says, her tone a mix of amusement and wonder.

Hati and Everlyn would be the best of friends if they knew each other and just imagining that makes me shudder in fright. I don't think I can handle two energetic ladies with a passion for doing adventurous things.

"I don't... um... It's not that-"

"It's fine, I already knew the answer" with a knowing smile as her eyes glint, I gaped at her incredulously.

Did she read my mind? I think I've also read something along the lines that werewolves were known for their telepathic ability to send messages to their own without speaking.

"You must be thinking if I can read your mind right?"

My eyes grew as wide as a saucer when I heard her ask and then furrow my brows when I heard pearls of lighter from her and another fit of laughter from her two brothers.

"Silly, you look like an open book" I blink profusely and registered her words before making myself look smaller in front of their humongous frames.

I truly wish that the ground itself swallow me instead of becoming a joke.

"I like her, can we keep her?" I heard Fenrir say and I glared at him but before I could even refuse, I already felt his presence behind me.

"Times up" I heard him say, his voice was monotonous and low, lacking the mischief and gentleness that his pack has but it was enough for me to listen to his disguised command.

"You're such a party pooper" the triplets have the same expression as if their favorite toy was taken from them by their older sibling and I resist the urge to snicker.

He didn't mind them any longer, like a level-headed adult who didn't mind the silly kids on his side. Then he went out of the door leaving me with the twins who gave me a basket full of fruits, it was a welcome gift they say. The triplets were whining against Luna to let me stay here but she was like an iron and refused their wishes.

I thanked her in my head and sent a grateful smile at her before thanking the twins who just calmly nodded at me.

I catch Lukka waiting at the front door, his lean figure was leaning against the wooden doors and as soon as I step on the floor, his eyes met mine and I grip my sleeve tighter to prevent the gasp that was threatening to leave my lips. His eyes were molten lava, it was deep and murky and I couldn't fathom what he's thinking.

He's the only one that I couldn't understand, even if my knowledge about the others were shallow, I thought that since he's the first one that I've met I would understand him better or know him like how an acquaintance to me would. But he's not.

It's like there's a wall between us, no matter how many times I've step on his territory he wouldn't budge. Like an impenetrable wall, encasing him in every crevice of his body that no one would be able to infiltrate.

The funny thing is the fact that I'm also glad that no one seems to understand him much and that no matter how distant and mysterious he is to me, he would still come to meet me.

It's such a sick morbid feeling I have and I don't understand why. One moment I feared him and now I'm fascinated by his every move.

"We're here"

I was so lost in my thoughts that I didn't notice we've already reached the clearing. Embarrassment floods in my cheeks, it's been like this the moment I came into their homes and I find myself petrified at the thought of becoming an entertainment to them.

"Thanks" I murmured and swung the basket of fruits that were given to me on my side.

His back turned and I knew he's about to leave and something urges me to call his name and so I did.

"Lukka!"

Saying his name was foreign, it was like saying a forgotten ancient language as it rolled to my lips. The moment his back turned towards me, I lost all reasoning.

Stupid! Ugh! Why did you call him?!

"Um... so I uh... wanted to thank you, yes! I um wanted to thank you for letting me in your world" that sounds a bit wrong.

He wouldn't think about it in another way right but what if he does? Shit, my nerves were high in tension and so I decided to just explain to let matters clear.

"I mean not your world in a romantic sense that wouldn't be good but it doesn't mean that you're not good you're you. But what I was saying was something that encased the world of you as in your kin you know what I'm saying?" I blabber like a baby who cannot form a sentence.

Shit, I think I just made a full of myself again, ugh! Stupid mouth, stupid nerves and all!

I didn't bother to look at him anymore or I'll just make a mess of myself. I didn't know if it was my imagination but I think I heard a chuckle behind me but didn't think of it anymore.

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