Part of the pack

39 || Insecurities seeping out

Insecurity is a powerful enemy. It forces people to use make-up, plastic surgery, collagen injections, and liposuction; to nip, tuck, throw up, push up, suck in, and laser.

- Carlos Wallace

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I kept my hands clenched on my side, eyes looking down as I listened to the plan that Maico, our leader brought up. My entire focus was halved into listening and controlling my heart knowing that they'll be able to know how fast it is considering the amount of stress that I am feeling right now.

She was Rosette, the witch that they asked for help and someone powerful that will help us from preventing the town's demise.

Even though she has become our ally, someone that would protect the town where we lived it still didn't sit right well to me.

I couldn't get myself to feel gratified for her coming in here and it's so selfish of me and too horrible for me to think.

I watch in the corner of my eyes as she talks with Maico, her stance was confident and her voice filled with assertiveness.

She was everything I am not.

Maybe it started when she flashed a knowing smile at me then looked at Lukka before deciding to call dibs on him. Maybe it's how she's so confident of her beauty and charm that even though Lukka has avoided letting her on his orbit, she just wouldn't leave. Or maybe it's how jealous and insecure I was after learning of her obvious admiration for Lukka, someone that I'm not even enough for, and knowing that I'm just another member of their pack.

Maybe it's because I wasn't the only girl in his life anymore.

"-lene, Selene?"

I snapped out of my thoughts and riveted back to reality where they were all looking at me, Rosette was quietly watching me with keen, knowing eyes and I blushed in shame. It's like everyone else is busy trying to protect our lives and here I am getting myself submerged in insecurity.

"I'm sorry I was just.. out thinking" I gave a weak smile, I felt Luna's hands tighten on me and I was glad that serenity begins to invade my body and get rid of the cloud of insecurity that was clouding my head.

"As I was saying, the entire town was now in her hands and we couldn't just attack her since the life of the whole town can be easily taken with just her spell. So we decided to get into two groups, one is responsible for tracking Lexon and the other is for Margaret"

Margaret, it's the witch that has stretched her claws on our town and is now controlling it. She could easily take the life of one person living here and the town wouldn't even know or realize.

"As for you Selene, you have to act like everything is normal, don't be caught"

It was a shame since I wouldn't be able to help them but even if I did, I would just become a burden in their eyes since I do not have the strength nor power that they have.

"I won't"

Rosette stood up, her long vermillion sleeves stitched in gold revealed her snow flawless skin, her hands shimmered in a second before a stone pops in her palm.

"This will track Lexon's existence and it would glow bright red once he is near" Fenrir stood up and took it on both hands before bowing in gratitude at Rosette.

Luna stood up as well, the twin's stomach growled and she ushered us to go to the dining room, not before Hati, Skoll, and I was ordered to prepare for dinner.

I held the bowls carefully in my hand and poured the vegetable stew that Luna made hours ago. The plates were after all a priced possession, maybe it was all totaled to several million.

"I'll take that" Lukka swept in to take the bowl of stew on my hands and left the kitchen while I stood there, blinking in surprise.

I was about to enter the dining room when a figure flashed to me and soon I was pulled over making me screech in surprise and then realizing that my voice was gone.

My eyes wander around and saw the whole room darkening, it's as if I'm transported into a private place where no one would be able to see and hear me again.

I look behind me to see Rosette with her infamous grin, she was like one of those evil witches that grins evilly at you but it wasn't like the witches portrayed in a children's book.

She was a goddess, a woman that embodies the word charm and I know any sane guy wouldn't be able to resist her. She was just too perfect and now that I see her in the light, just the two of us alone I feel the compulsion of comparing myself to her even though I already knew the results.

"Nice to meet you, human"

It was like adding salt to the wounds when she said those words. Never have I ever resented my weak origin until the day I met her, clearly hearing the tone of distaste in her words.

"Oh, I forgot you can't talk" she then swished her hand and I feel myself being able to talk again.

"Yes... nice to meet you too"

"Lies, I do not like lies, human"

I shut my lips, her eyes were narrows into slits as she sashayed her way over me with such confidence that I knew I never have with my body.

The green monster that lays dormant in my body threatens to burst out of its cage, the moment I look in her eyes is the moment her lips hook, realizing that she already knew the thoughts I kept on hiding so much.

Her red-trimmed long nail fell on her smooth poreless skin, eyes that shimmered into the brightest star as her ruby red lips opened.

"I really don't know what he sees on you" her voice was that of an angel but made the devil in me burst forth. "A weak, fragile human" her words were clear of her distaste in my origins but underneath lays what she truly means.

That I am not enough to stand with him.

That I am not a part of their world.

And I'll never be.

And at that time, I believed her. She was the nightmare that I never thought I would have. A perfect representation of my insecurity, and her mere presence gives me the feeling of not being enough and believing that I will never be.

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