Dirty Fantasies | ✔️🔞

Kabanata 17

A/N: I'm really sorry mga dear ang tagal ko hindi nag update, sobrang busy ko sa school.

GREY

I still wasn't sure why I was here. O sadyang hindi
ko maamin sa sarili kung ano ang eksaktong dahilan kung bakit nandito ako sa theraphy room ni Adamae. A therapy f*cking room. I never thought of seeing a shrink, not just an ordinary one, kundi dati ko pang f*ckbuddies. And now here I was. For God's sake, I came her to f*ck but the mission was failed, miserably.

Naupo ako sa chaise lounge. I propped my elbows on my knees, trying myself to get comfortable.

"What can I help you Grey? Alam kong nandito ka, not because you want to f*ck me but because of something else."

Damn straight.

I ran my tongue through my teeth. "Yeah, it's about something."

"I know some details about yourself, so let's escape that." She scribbled something on her pad
that was resting on her lap before asking me. "Now, tell me about it."

Hindi ako sumagot. I shifted on my sit but the lounge didn't make me comfortable. I looked around to delay our session. The room was warm and cozy, very inviting. Unfortunately, the atmosphere inside was suffocating for me, I could feel the misery and lies sipping through the walls. Punong puno ng kasinungalingan ang kabuuan ng silid at kailanman
ay hindi na makakalabas pa sa kwartong ito habang buhay. Hindi ko maisip kung ilang tao na ang nagsabi ng purong kasinungalingan sa silid na ito.

Running a hand across my jaw, I admitted the
truth. "I'm getting addicted."

F*ck, this is harder than I thought.

Opening and stripping yourself to a shrink. Kahit pa may pinagsamahan kami ni Adamae, hindi ko maikakaila na sobrang hindi ako komportable sa ganitong usapan. Para kong hinuhubaran ang sarili kong pagkatao. I was a bad man all right. And this action made me look like a pussy. Kapag nalaman ng ibang associates o nang rivals namin na ginagawa ko ang ganito, paniguradong hindi sila magdadalawang isip na tirahin ako patalikod dahil sa mga mata nila isa itong malaking kahinaan at kaduwagan.

"To what? Alcohol? Blunt? Drugs?" she asked quietly.

I chuckled sarcastically and gave my head a curt
shake. "It would have been easier kung sa mga ganyang substances ako naaadik."

"Sex then?" Adamae's eyes fell to my crotch, before she swallowed and glanced away.

Sa tingin niya ba kung adik ako sa sex, nag uusap kaya kami ng ganito ka formal? Baka hubo't hubad na kami ngayon and I would have been f*cking her like a rabbit.

I narrowed my eyes at her when she finally looked at me. "Are you?"

I focused my eyes on her bloody red lips at bigla akong nakaramdam ng labis na pagkamuhi sa sarili ko kung bakit hindi ako nagkaroon ng mas mababaw na addiction, like addicted to porn or sex. Mas pipiliin ko na ang mga yun kesa ang maadik ako sa isang babae na hindi ko din naman matitikman.

"I'm addicted to something that are beyond my control," I followed up not realising who's turned it was.

Shut your goddamn mouth, De Russo! What the hell are you doing?