My old life (C)

Chapter 36 dont cut anymore!?

Song -baby dont cut
By-BMIKE

Connor:babe are you ok

Me:yes i just feel trapped

Connor:you wanna talk ?

Me:(i sighed)no connor

Connor:are yo-

Me:im gonna go to the bathroom

Connor:ok

((I went the bathroom))

Me:((thinking))i look at myself in the mirror all i see is what i see always my fat ugly asś self bitch (i sighed)
Connor thinks I've stopped cutting but the truth is i haven't
I still cut One cut wont hurt right ((i sighed and started crying))
Im so sorry connor
(I took out pocket knife)
(Im sorry)

I cried harder and harder

Im not meant to be in this world

(I grabbed the knife and stabbed myself in the leg I started
Drifting away into darkness as I screamed from the blood
And then before you knew it the door opened and i fainted)

Connors pov--

I open the door and as soon i saw ruby i felt myself
Go numb i was shaking crazily i picked up ruby and took out the knife from her leg and i threw on the floor (its ok ,i started crying )

(At the hospital)

Doctor-um connor

Me:yes

Doctor-she has three weeks to life and if she doesn't wake up in a year where talking off life support

Me:wwhat three weeks no! No! (I punched the wall)

Doctor-clam down please

Me:no!i cant my girlfriend is in that room i have to see her ,I tried to push threw but they didn't let me at all

Nurse-(i pushed him back)sorry sir you cant go in there

Me:LET ME !

I pushed threw them,and entered the room

There she was on the bed
I walked over to her and sat down on a chair

Me:babe why?(i whispered)

(You promised ,i whispered)

Was it something i did?(i whispered)

(Im sorry if i did something ,I cried)

I knew there was something wrong with you there was something odd
About you and I guess i just figured out that you still where cutting yourself

(I sighed)its those bullies isnt it or your insecurity
Actually it's probably both

Oh ruby im sorry i didn't realize that you were hurting i could have helped you

(I sighed)

(I whipered)baby fight for me to come back to this world because I'm not leaving
Till you wake up i cant live without you (i kissed her forhead)

My pov---

I was in darkness and than from a far i saw a light that showed myself on the bed with connor kissing me and he was crying

And then I heard a very familiar voice-

I turned around

(Mom?i started crying)

Mom:honey?you cant be up here yet its not time yet for you

What am i doing here?

Mom:This is the way to cross to the light

Why haven't you cross yet?

Mom:i wanted to say goodbye to you!she cried

We dont need to say goodbye but we can say till i see you next time (i started crying)

Mom:ok till i see you next time

And she went to the light and crossed

What do i do now?

I looked back at the light showing connor besides me and it looks like i was running out of time cause i saw the heart monitor start slowing down

Goodbye mom

I walked to the light that was showing connor and me and before i knew it
I was on the bed i could tell cause i heard the monitor and connor crying harder and harder

I opened my eyes to only see connor in pain

Connor:b baby?

Me:yes connor its me (I whispered)

Connor:why?babe?

Me:(I sighed)i felt weak i didnt wanna live i had my insecurity and bullies eating me alive i couldn't last and i was wrong I guess i can last connor im-

Connor:(i kissed her)

(I kissed him back)

Connor:look its ok if anyone should be apologizing its james and jeremy and linda and the rest ruby please dont apologize

Nurse-someone is here to see you

She stepped aside -

And then i saw three people i didnt wanna see right now
It was

James

Jeremy

And

Linda