My old life (C)

Chapter 28 new life,new day

Monday morning-~~~~

I feel empty without connor and logan in my life
Ugh i feel like shit again
I feel

-worthless

-fat

-like a slut

-bitch

-whore

-and a fagot

I feel like all the names people call me always
And people think the words people call you hurt
Less but really that a lie even one little word
Can hurt you like nothing else can
And the people that dont look broken
Are the ones hurting the most inside people
Just cant tell cause they only see the outside before
They see the inside of you

((Well here i go back where i started ))
To college i go
Or what i like to call
HELL SCHOOL!
But dont worry
Only 3 more months and
Ill be out of there forever !

10 minutes ~~~~~
In hell school

Linda:hah hey bitch i heard about your little boyfriend that died!hahaha

Jeremy:your a worthless piece of shit hahaha

Girl:bitch what are you even wearing?you look like a fuckin slut
Oh wait you are one

((Kids laughing))
((Pointing and laughing
At who
Well who else
At me ))

Kids:oh im so sorry about for stupid ass ugly kid im glad he died (hahah)

((I went crying in the the bathroom and went to the stall))

Me:there right you know what i cant live with this anymore I CANT !!
((I cried))

I took out the razor and cut myself

((One cut ))

((Two))

((Three))

((I cried even harder than ever before))

((And then i heard a knock on the bathroom stall where i was))

((I was a guy ))
And it sounded like
James angelo
The schools bad boy~~~

James:h hey is everything ok in there

Me:you know this is the girls bathroom ,right?

James:yeah you just sound really bad!

Me:look james i know its you can you just leave me alone i dont want to talk right now

James:about the bullies? come on you have to talk to ,you need some one to talk to
Ruby

Me:you know my name?

James:well yeah

Me:why because im the most hated girl in the world

James:no well actually yes but nevermind that can we talk

Me:listen james why are you here ?,to beat me up or something or even better
Kill me please

James:look just because i am the schools bad boy doesnt mean i dont have a heart
Listen im not gonna beat you up i just wanna help you

Me:why ?im fine !

James:look ruby stop playing your self i know no ones fine when they say there fine
Look ruby i know deep down your broken i cant see it on the outside but after
Years of seeing you get bullied after a while i started to see that your broken
Look ruby please just open the stall i want to help you

Me:fine( I cried harder)

((I opened the stall))

And as soon as opened the stall
((I hugged him))
Because i just needed one i mean
Connor wasnt in my life
To help out i needed someone to talk to and he was right
I wasnt fine

James:(whoa)

Me:sorry i was being a bitch

James:its ok

Me:so really why are you nice to me your supposed to be ((THE BAD BOY))

James:well i dont have to be bad all the time do i

Me:well kinda true

James:hey why dont we go out after school and do something fun

Me:i dont know i feel like shit today after you know im pretty sad

James:its ok I understand

James:you sure i Maybe can make you at least crack up a few smiles( he smiled)

Me:oh fine ill go

Jeremy:no your not your coming with me slut

Me:no let me go im not coming with you

James:she said shes not going with you ((I grabbed jeremy by the collar and pushed him against the wall ))

Jeremy:h hey l let me g go i s swear ill leave her alone i sorry ruby i mean im sorry ruby

James:ruby what ?

Jeremy:ruby tejada im sorry

James:((I dropped him and he feel to the floor,))GET OUT OF HERE JEREMY!

Me:why did you do that ,you didnt need to do that

James:because im not letting no one hurt you we are friends i dont want you to get hurt ok

Me:well thanks for saving me from jeremy

James:no problem,hes always been trying to take advantage of girls

Me:um

James:so you wanna talk about things or not

Me:yeah but not now

James:ok how about in starbucks ,we are going after school there

Me:o ok

James:((i hugged her))

Me:((i hugged him))

And in first time in days
I felt wanted again
And even if
He didn't say it with words
It doesnt matter because actions
Speak louder then words