Ultraviolence -Damiano David

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"Stella, you are over reacting. "
I'm speechless that that's all he has to say after what happened.

I feel awful, I ruined a relationship and I cheated on John too.
"Overreacting? We had sex while we are in relationship with others!"

I cry out in agitation. I don't know what I'm supposed to do, how I'm supposed to feel that this happened. I never thought it would happen.

"I'm not. I broke up. "
I knit my brows together with a look of wonder.

"She broke up with you?"
I say softly and sit down next to him.
That's my fault. I ruined their relationship.

"No, I broke up with her. "
That was something I never expected to hear.
I'm choking up, with nothing to say.
I am speechless at this move.

"What? Why?"

"Giorgia is an incredible person. I couldn't do this to her anymore. She deserves better. "

We sit in silence for a while, with me thinking how I've done it this way.

"I still. . . I still like you. "

His voice comes out hesitantly and I turn in shock to look at him.
He can't say it now. I had asked him to divorce her and he said no, he can't play with me like that.

"No, you just used me like a toy, to forgot about your inability. "

"Don't ever say that again! I never used you, you did. You were the one who left me!"

I can't believe that even after that, he turns everything against me as if it's all my fault.
I want to yell at him, to curse him, but my silence is the best answer I have the strength to give him.

"You have to go, John will be back in a few hours. "

It's now dawn, I haven't slept at all and I don't think I will.
My mind is always working, I can't stop thinking about what I've done.

"At least I didn't cheat on Giorgia. "

"Damiano go now. I have no desire to deal with you anymore. Just leave. "

He slowly gets up from beside me and steps towards the door.
I feel a little weight lift off me when he opens the door and leaves.
[...]

I make my tea with nervous movements , as I think of Damiano's words.
Does he like me?
He did all this and he likes me?

There is no way.
He's just playing.

"They broke up. I knew it, he is so selfish because he won a contest.
At first I don't understand what John is saying, but then I look at the TV. It was all over the place that Damiano had broken up.

My heart is pounding as I think about what has happened and the guilt is choking me.
"That's so sad. "
I manage to say without looking him in the eye. My guilt won't let me rest and stop thinking about what has happened.
"He is a dick. "
John answers me and I feel myself getting irritated.

"I have to go. I will be in Bella. "

"You are always out. "
She complains and I know she is right but I feel like the house doesn't fit me anymore.
I don't answer and just get my stuff.
I have to talk somewhere.
[. . . ]

"That's so fucked up. "
Bella commented first just as I finished telling her about yesterday.
"Well, it's not. They are in love with each other but Stella being lazy. "

"Victoria he is playing with me!"
I object and he looks at me as if he doesn't believe what I'm saying.

"He never played with you, you know that. "
He supports him and I get angry.
"I feel awful. I cheat on John. "

I puff and throw my head back on the couch.
"I bet he cheats on you too. "
Bella says and I'm looking at her with shock.

"What? No. "

The doorbell interrupts us and Victoria hurriedly answers it.
"Ethan? Hey what are you doing here?"

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I haven't much time.
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