Ultraviolence -Damiano David

22

Coming out of the airport, the Italian wind hits me again after a month.
I confess that wherever I am, I will miss Italy. They are unique here.

However, I have to admit that my trip with John was very good for me.

A great pre-wedding gift from his parents was tickets to Dubai where we stayed for a whole month.

Everything worked out, we're better than ever with John, I feel like I made the right decision. I feel like I did the right thing for the first time in my life.

Our relationship has built up quite a bit, we needed to break out of our routine to see how our relationship could work.

"Baby? I'm talking to you. "

His voice reaches my ears, waking me up from my thoughts.
His arms hug my waist tightly and I smile.

"So sorry, i was just thinking about some things. What were you telling me?"

"I was wondering if you'd like to go get something to eat? I'm starving. "

"I'm so sorry baby. I would love to eat together right now, but i promised to Vic toria that as soon as we get back I'll go see her and she's waiting for me in an hour. "

"It's okay baby. I understand. "

A very positive news is that John finally got a job, I was in a hurry to judge him. I regret that I treated him so badly but now I hope that everything will be better.

After some time we arrive home and I hurriedly get ready to see Victoria.

I can say that I have missed her very much and I can't wait to see her again.

"I have to go okay?. Love you. "

I hug him hastily and he gives me a quick kiss. Before I close the door, I hear a soft "Love you too. " and I leave.

I drive around town for about fifteen minutes until I get to my best friend's house.
I feel so happy and refreshed that nothing can spoil it.

The radio is playing one of my favorite songs and I turn it up, singing loudly as the wind from the open window in the car hits me.

Maybe I like this roller coaster
Maybe it keeps me high
Maybe the speed it brings me closer
I could sparkle up your eye

Diet mountain dew, baby, New York City
Never was there ever a girl so pretty
Do you think we'll be in love forever?
Do you think we'll be in love?

Unfortunately I turn off the radio when I reach my destination and get out of the car.

I ring the bell, looking forward to finally seeing Victoria a month later.

"Hey bestie!"

She almost screams with joy and gives me such a tight hug that I almost lose my breath.

I laugh at her reaction and hug her in the same way.

"Come in!"

I sit on the couch next to her and thank her when I see that she already had coffee ready for me.
Coffee is something I definitely need after hours on the plane.

"First of all, how are you? I know it's hard for you. "

I knit my brows together in wonder, what things are hard for me?
The truth is that I don't really understand what he means.

"What do you mean?"

Her mouth opened in shock, as if she saw a ghost in front of her.
"Wait, you don't know?"

"No Victoria, what happened?"

She looks at me for quite some time while I wait for an answer. I motion for her to tell me and she muddles her words in her attempt.

"Stella. . . Damiano. . . is getting married. "

I almost spit the coffee out of my mouth in my attempt to breathe from my choking.

"What? What do you mean?"

"He is getting married to Giorgia. I thought you knew it. Is all over instagram. I'm so sorry. "

I can hear my heart breaking into a thousand little pieces.
I had forgotten him, this one month I had forgotten him completely.

I thought I didn't care, that it was just a phase of my life.

I can't believe he's doing this.

"Please, Stella don't cry. "
Victoria tells me, but I don't pay attention.
I don't even have the strength to look at her.

I can feel my heart aching, tearing away.

"He. . . he didn't even tried to stop me from
saying yes to John. "

I'm being unreasonable, I know. But the truth is that until the last moment that night I was waiting for him to stop me.
I was waiting for him to come find me. Tell me something.

"He was so mad . He literally broke the studio the other day when we went to do our rehearsal. "

I don't know what I want anymore.
I'm getting married to John and still
Damiano hurts.

But now, it is too late. Proceed as I did.
I'm so toxic with him and it scares me.

I want to see him, talk to him. I'm sure he hates me after all this. He has every right to hate me, I would do the same in his position.

It's all over this time, I have to accept it and move on.

"It's my fault. I have to be happy for him. I was the one that left."