Changing

chapter 14

"Harry, please go away. I don't want to talk to you" I breathed, trying to fight back the tears. I didn't want him to see me cry. I didn't want him to know how much he hurt me because we are meant to hate each other. I am not meant to cry over him. "Lexi, please whats ️wrong. Why are you so afraid of me" he starred into me eyes, sounding hurt. "Harry, please" I breathed, my voice growing shaky as I backed up slowly. "Lexi, please just tell me what I did". He looked like he was going to cry, he looked like for once, in his whole fucking life, he actually cared for someone other than himself. "Harry, you don't like me. You don't love me. We hate each other. The other night, you only used me. I don't want to be around you if all you're going to do is use me for sex" I blurted out. I didn't mean for all of that to come out but I couldn't stop myself. Harry stared into my eyes, I watched his fist clench and unclench. I was slightly afraid, but more hurt than ever. But I don't know why. I never thought the day would come where I felt something special being around him. The way he kissed me the other night, it felt like he meant it. That he meant for that kiss to feel as if he was slowly falling in love with me. But he isn't falling in love with me, I need to get rid of that thought. He will never ever see me as anything else but one of the girls he led on. Harry didn't say anything. I felt tears brim along my eyes and my legs became weak. "Harry, we can't love each other" I spoke, trying my hardest not to fall on the floor in sobs. "Listen Lexi, you may hate me, but lately I have been feeling different around you. And the only reason I tease you is because you look so hot when you get mad and I love your reaction when I annoy you. It turns me on. You turn me on. I see you more than just a sexy body or a new toy to play with. I see you as my own. I know we have had our differences, a lot of them, but why not start fresh. Even if you don't like me in that way, why can't we be something only the lines of....friends". The way he says friends makes my stomach turn. I don't know what to do. I felt like I fell for him on Friday night and I am scared I will fall for him again when all I know is he is just gonna find a way to brake my heart. I peered into his emerald eyes and let out a shaky sigh. 'Friends?!' i asked, uncertain causing a massive grin to stretch across his face. "Friends"