🌺The People I've Grown To Hate🌺
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Chris
"Umalis, work ulit" tipid na sabi ni Greg na nakaupo sa couch at nakaharap sa nilalarong video game sa TV.
Sinara ko ang pinto nang makapasok si Luna, ang aso ko, na mabilis na tumakbo paakyat ng hagdan.
"trabaho nanaman?" I said as I walked towards the kitchen to drink water.
My mom was a lawyer. It is understandable na busy sya palagi. It was rare to see her inside the house. Masyado na akong nag aalala. Kahit na galit na galit ako sa kanya.
"nagmamadali sya kanina eh, urgent daw" Greg swerved to the side, ginagaya nya ang pag galaw nang sasakyan na nasa screen.
I scoffed. I hate her. I hate how she doesn't trust her own children. I hate her for thinking that I was blind to what she really does.
I shook my head in disappointment as I made my way upstairs.
In front of my bedroom door was Luna, my black-furred basset hound, puppy, laying down waiting for me to open the door.
Pumasok na ako sa kwarto ko at nagmukmok. It was always like this, pag dating ko sa bahay, kwarto lang at si Luna ang kausap ko. I hate living here. I hate being a part of this family. But I can't leave.
I hate living on the same roof as the people I've grown to hate.
Nilingon ko si Luna nang tumahol ito at umakyat nang kama.
"Hindi ako malungkot, Moon" I told her. Makulit kong ginulo ang tenga nya.
The dog whimpers as she moved closer to me trying to comfort me. Napangiti ako, buti pa yung aso may pakialam.
"Moon..." I laughed as I called her.
She was the only thing I loved genuinely. Simula nang magtanim ako nang galit sa mga taong nasa paligid ko, puro kaplastikan nalang ang naging trato ko sa lahat. I was now avoiding the feeling of pain. Avoiding conflict. And hiding the real me inside a mask.
"Kuya" napabangon ako nang buksan ni Greg ang pintuan nang kwarto ko.
Kumunot ang noo ko nang mapansin ang kakaibang reaksyon sa mukha nya "May... May bisita ka" aniya na parang ayaw talaga itong sabihin.
"Sino?" kunot noo ko syang tinanong.
He scratched the back of his neck, hesitant to tell me who my unexpected visitor is. Hinila ko nalang ang sarili ko sa bintana nang kwarto kung saan nakikita ko ang front door. Umigting ang panga ko nang maaninag ang babaeng nasa baba.
Another person who made me miserable. Ba't sya nandito?
"Tabi..." I coldly said to my younger brother na agad namang dinikit ang likod sa pader para makadaan ako.
Binuksan ko ang pinto na walang pagdadalawang isip. Bakit naman ako matatakot? She was the one who hurt me, and this is my house.
"Gev..." she immediately said when I opened the door. Mukhang nagulat pa sya.
Akala ko ok na ako, I thought everything was fine... Until My eyes landed on hers. I felt a painful feeling inside my chest. Ang bigat. Hindi pa pala talaga ako nakamove on.
"Danica" From her emphatic eyes, naging malikot ang mga mata ko, I can't look at her straight.
"Gev, I'm sorry" her voice broke. Yumuko sya at humagulhol.
Damn it Chris! It's been months! Ramdam ko ang sakit sa puso ko, seeing her cry like this. She always won these arguments. Lagi akong tumitiklop sa mga paawa nya. Pero Christian Gevino Ramirez! tama na, bitaw na.
"What happened that night, with Leo, hindi ko sinasadya yun" she tried to hold my hands, napatingin ako dun. Bago binalik ang mata ko sa mukha nya.
How could she do this? Bakit parang gusto kong maniwala sa kanya ulit? Bakit parang gusto kong balewalain ang mga nakita ko at yumakap sa kanya ulit?
"Alam mo na hinding hindi ko kayang saktan ka, you know I love you so much, right?"
How could she... How could she lie to me and make it look like she's telling the truth? Nakita ko ang mga pangyayari... Alam kong hindi aksidente yun!
"Please, forgive me" I pursed my lips, frustrated.
Forgive? Ito lang ba ang trabaho ko sa mundo? Magpatawad? Umintindi?
Wag, Chris, wag mong hahayaang manalo na naman ang puso mo. She has done this a lot of times, matauhan ka naman.
She sniffed and tried to hug me.
"tama na" I said in almost a whisper as I gently remove her hands around my waist "Paulit ulit nalang tayong ganito, Danica"
I looked at her "Minsan... naiisip ko nalang kung... Nakakatuwa ba?... Masaya ka ba na manipulahin ako sa tuwing nagsisinungaling ka sakin?"
I hate how I wanted to stop myself from talking. I hate how she makes me wanna give in to her... Kahit wala naman syang ginagawa.
"Gev, I–" Her eyes pierced through mine, they looked sad, but I know they lie "I would never–"
"enough.. Danica..." I closed my eyes in frustration. I gritted my teeth and looked away. Trying to talk to her in a calm voice I usually use.
"enough..." it was almost a whisper "I'm tired. Pagod na akong sabihin sa sarili ko na mahal mo ko. Stop using me, Danica." My voice cracked but I tried my best to bottle my tears. "Please?"
She pursed her lips and her eyes closed gently, freeing a tear from one of her eyes.
"Please, Danica... Ayaw kong masaktan ka pa... Umalis ka na" I begged "Bitawan mo na 'ko"
"I... I can't... Gev, Alam mong hindi ko kaya. I can't lose you!" she broke down in tears.
I swallowed hard before releasing the words I never thought I'd say.
I sighed heavily "You should've thought of that... Before kissing and carressing that man" She stood there speechless. I gently pushed her before Greg intervened and Closed the door for me. Greg gave her an apologetic smile.
Nang nawala sya sa paningin ko, gravity pulled me to the floor. I broke down as I punched the floor with pain and agony.
Naririnig ko pa ang iyak nya sa kabilang bahagi nang pintuan. Sinubukan kong umiyak nang tahimik. Greg was tapping my back.
I did it. I let her go, but why... Why am I still in pain?
"Kuya..."Greg's voice.
Mahina nyang pinadaloy ang kamay sa likod ko. He comforted me as I continued to burst out silently.
I never cried for anyone like this. Akala ko hindi na ako iiyak nang ganito pag nandyan si Danica.
She was my comfort, the shadow I needed when I wanted to hide from this cruel world, she was my darkness when I hated the light. But I was wrong. Sobrang mali ako na isipin na kahit kailan, hindi nya ako pagtataksilan.
Hindi ako nagkulang sa pagbigay sa kanya nang lahat. I gave her everything I have. So why... Why did it have to end cruelly like this?
Why do the people you love the most... Hurt you the most?
This time, I won't believe in love. Masyado na akong nasaktan dahil sa pagmamahal ko, I don't want to be a part of anyone anymore. I don't want another teardrop falling from my eyes.
I don't want another piece of me to break.
I won't let another woman destroy me like they did.
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