🌺For Me, This Time🌺

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Lea

"Kuya Talk To Me, I Can't Live If We Live Like This" I Tried To Be Calm

A Deep Sigh Came From His Mouth "If I Talk, Will You Listen?"

I Bit My Lower Lip "Kuya"

"What?" Medyo Tumaas Ang Boses Nya

I Sighed "Kuya I Know You Don't Like Him But-"

"It's Not That, Lea" He Stood Up

Kitang Kita Ko Kung Paano Nya Tinatago Ang Galit Nya. Pero Lumalabas Parin Ang Pag-Igting Nang Panga Nya. I Could Hear The Battling Of His Teeth

"Then What!" I Sounded Desperate

"You Are Falling Out Of My Reach Leonora. Dahan Dahan Ay Nawawala Ka Na Sa Poder Ko. I Don't Want That To Happen To Us"

"Kuya Even If I'm With Chris, We All Know Na Mas Matimbang Ka Kaysa Sa Kanya"

"Is That So?" He Scoffed "Is That The Reason Why You Are Mostly Out Of The House Than In It?"

"Kuya!"

"Lea!" Sinuntok Nya Ang Lamesa Sa Harapan Ko, Dahilan Kung Bakit Nagulat Ako "Papa Is Disabled And You Can't Even Use That As An Excuse To Stay Here?"

Napalunok Ako "Even Before Chris I Was Already Used To Leaving Tatay Here Alone"

"What?" Nakomkom Nya Ang Palad Nya "So After All These Years Na Akala Kong Binabantayan Mo Si Papa, Iniiwan Mo Lang Pala Syang Mag-Isa Dito Sa Bahay?"

"He Can Take Care Of Himself"

"Don't You Hear Yourself! Papa Is Disabled, He Can't Walk!"

I Sighed In Defeat. Nangilid Ang Luha Sa Mga Mata Ko

"I'm Sorry" I Sighed "I Just Want To Do Things For Myself This Time"

"For Yourself?" He Scoffed "Bakit Parang Para Kay Chris Ang Ginagawa Mo?"

"He Loves Me Kuya"

"I Love You Too!" He Pursed His Lips At Napaupo "Bakit Hindi Mo Ako Sundin?"

Parang Tinahi Ang Bibig Ko Dahil Sa Kawalan Nang Masabi

"Kuya" I Felt Cold Tears Run Down My Cheeks "Please Understand My Choices"

"So Pinipili Mo Sya? Over Me? Akala Ko Ba Mas Matimbang Ako Kaysa Sa Kanya?" Tumayo Sya "He Has Everything Lea. He's A Son Of A Ramirez, He's Rich And He Stole Danica's Heart. Tapos Ngayon Sasama Ka Sa Kanya? Parang Gusto Nyong Pahirapan Ako-"

"Hindi Ganon Kuya!" Hindi Ko Sya Pinatapos "You've Been With Me For Almost All My Life! I Want To Spend More Time With Him As Well... Hindi Ko Ibibigay Ang Sarili Ko Sa Kanya Dahil Mahal Ko Sya. I Just Want Him To Be With Me"

"Fine!" Padabog Na Sabi Ni Kuya. At Kumalma Sya "Fine... Go With That Scumbag. As Long As You Want, Lea. Just Remember What I Said"

"Kuya" I Was To Late, He Slammed The Door Closed Before I Could Even Talk

Napaupo Ako. What Did I Get Myself Into?

"Yan Ang Unang Away Nyong Dalawa Hija"

Napalingon Ako Kay Tatay Na Pababa Na Ngayon Sa Automatic Chair Nya

"Tay" Napatayo Ako

Nang Makababa Sya Ay Napangiti Sya Nang Tipid Sa Akin

"Leonora Anak, Tama Ang Ginawa Mo"

Napakunot Ang Noo Ko

"P-Po?"

"Dapat Pinaglalaban Mo Ang Sarili Mo, Kahit Nagiging Makasarili Ka Na"

I Sighed "Tay, Mali Rin Naman Kasi Ako"

"No, Leonora" He Held My Hand "You Are More Important. Your Opinions Are More Important. Tama Ang Ginawa Mo"

"Tay... Hindi Sa Lahat, Ako Ang Laging Tama. I Need To Be Selfless For Others Too. Gaya Mo"

He Sighed "Hindi Kita Kailangan, Dahil Kaya Ko Ang Sarili Ko" He Smiled "Mas Kailangan Mo Ang Sarili Mo Hija. Have The Right For Yourself, Kahit Kamuhian Ka Nila"

Napatingin Ako Sa Baba. Have The Right For Myself?

"Follow Your Choices" Pahabol Nya

That's What My Mother Told Me. That's What She Always Says. I Could Almost Hear Her Voice

"Leonora, Be Yourself, Be Unique And Be Selfish For Your Rights. Friends Will Leave You Anak, Don't Trust In Them Too Much. Don't Rely On Anyone. You Have Yourself To Rely On"

It's A Bad Piece Of Advice, But I Understood. Nanay Grew Independently. Even Her Parents Never Had The Chance To Give Her Comfort. Because She Never Tell Them What She Really Feels

My Mom Is A Demon. But Everyone Saw An Angel When She Walks

The Greatest Liar Is My Mom. She Always Shows Her Good Side, But The Darkness She Hid... No One Really Saw It

She Cheated With My Uncle. And We Never Knew It... Until She Died

She Was A Role Model To Those Who Are Afraid To Show The Monster Hiding Inside Them

Colorful People Also Have A Dark Side. Wide Smiles Also Have Endless Tears

But People Are Fools To Believe That You Are Devine And Kind Not Even Asking If You Have Problems

"Ikaw Lang Ang May Alam Nang Sarili Mong Problema"

I Was Pulled Back To Reality

"Ikaw Lang Din Ang Pwedeng Maghanap Nang Solusyon Para Sa Problema Mo"

I Looked At My Dad

"Natutulungan Tayo Nang Ibang Taong Pagaanin Ang Nararamdaman Natin, Pero Hindi Nila Talaga Naiintindihan Ang Mga Problema Natin"

"Tay..." I Gulped "Can I Trust Leo?"

I Was Off Topic. But It Came To Mind

My Dad Tore The Connection Of Our Eyes And Gulped. Napansin Ko Rin Ang Pag-Bitaw Nya Sa Kamay Ko

Kumunot Ang Noo Ko "Are You Okay Tay?"

"Ofcourse, You Can Trust Him" He Smiled

But There Was An Uneasy Feeling That Lingered When I Looked At That Smile

What Does That Mean? That I Can't Trust My Brother?

"Thank You Tay" I Kneeled To Give Him A Hug "I Know I Can Count On You"

"Always Leonora... I'll Be Here Always" He Hugged Me Back

"I Love You Tay"

"Mahal Din Kita Anak"

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