Til We Meet Again, Next Life

🌺Chapter Nine🌺

🌺Friendless🌺
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Lea

parang ang bilis nang takbo nang panahon. Tatlong buwan na ang nakalipas simula nang pagkikita namin ni Chris

When life takes away something you cherish, you lose hope in trying to find a replacement

"tanga ka ba? Sabi ko dito mo ilagay" a boy shouted calling my attention

Napangiti pa ko nang nakitang naglalaro pala sila nang bato lata at nagtatawanan pa kasi di nalagay sa tamang lugar yung lata

Suddenly, I felt envious

Seeing a group of people is painful for me. Pero napapangiti parin ako nang mga ito

Siguro insecure ako dahil wala akong mga kaibigan. Kung meron man, bigla bigla lang din nawawala. Pero bakit ko ba gugustuhin magkaron nang kaibigan. I was better friendless

Having friends is a big exposure. Kung may kaibigan ka dapat eexpect mo na magiging usap usapan ka

Dahil pag may kaibigan ka, lalaki ang chances na mamatay ka. Sabi nila betrayal never comes from an enemy. The more friends you have, the more knives you have to avoid

Napatingin ulit ako sa magkakaibigan nang biglang may napasigaw

"Yan Kasi Ang Kulit Kulit, Nasugat Tuloy" sabi nang isa at umupo sa tabi nang natumbang kaibigan "patingin nga" sabi nya bako hinawakan ang sugat

"ano ba wag mong hawakan!" sabi naman nang natumba at sinampal pa ito

The good side of having friends is that someone will help you back up if ever you fall. The good side of having friends is someone will be there for you. You'll have someone...

"mag-ingat ka kasi... Mamaya na ulit tayo mag laro, papahingain muna natin si Ayesha" sabi nung lalaki at tinulungan pa syang tumayo at umupo sa bench para gamutin ang sugat

...to take care of you

"comcern ka na nyan? Kala ko ba heartless ka?" sabi naman nang kasabay nilang babae rin

...to laugh with you

I shrug the thought as it starts to get deeper

Ganon na ba talaga ako ka desperada magkaron nang kaibigan?

No. Because I don't NEED them

And Yes... Because I want to know what if feels like

Those are my two answers when it comes to having friends. Bakit di ako pumili nang isa?

Simple. Because both are at the same percentage. They both have the same strength kaya hindi ko alam kung saan sa dalawang sagot nayan ang dapat akong magparaya

Para akong lubid sa gitna nang dalawang taong pareha lang ang lakas. At dahil ganon, hindi ko alam kung sasang ayon ba ako, o wag nalang

In the end, I felt myself breaking. Natitipas na ang lubid dahil sa paghila nang dalawang desisyong yun

Instead of finding you answer to things, if both are strong, then you are the loser. You end up breaking, kaya ayaw kong gumawa nang desisyon. Kaya ko iniignore ang mga pangyayari

Napatingin ako sa notebook na hawak ko. There was a drawing now. Ngayon, nakakapag isip nanaman ako nang maayos

I looked at the unfinished drawing of two people and a rope, labeled as what I thought of earlier. I started sketching a few more details to bring more life to it. Every stroke was painful to me. I can't even tell why