🌺Lingering Feelings🌺
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Lea
Tulala lang akong nakatingin sa kabuoan nang hardin
What have I done? Tama ba ang ginawa kong yun?
"Ba't nasa labas ka pa, Lea?" nilingon ko so Kuya at binalik agad sa hardin ang tingin ko
May dala syang tray na may cookies at dalawang baso nang gatas. Nakita nya siguro ako sa bintana kaya naisipan nyang dalhan ako nang meryenda. He was very thoughtful
I sighed "Do you still love Danica, Kuya?"
Napatigil sya sa pag nguya bago sya tuluyang umupo sa tabi ko
I heard him sigh. As he positioned himself
"do you think I still do?" he said coldly
"ganon ba kadaling magmove on?" I said
I heard him scoff kaya napalingon ako sa kanya
Why isn't he affected? Ba't parang wala lang sa kanya ang mga tanong ko?
"moving on is one thing, Lea. Wala akong lingering feelings para sa kanya, kaya mabilis ko syang nabitawan" he faced me
Napaiwas ako nang tingin sa kanya
Lingering feelings...
Feelings that stays, feelings na hindi basta basta nawawala. Yan ba ang nararamdaman ko ngayon?
It's only a few days. I admit nagkagusto ako kay Chris. Pero di naman siguro valid feeling yun para manatili diba?
"how do you know if you have lingering feelings for someone?" biglaan kong tanong
"are you in love, princess?" he laughed "ba't parang iba yang mga tanong mo?"
Suddenly, I felt my heart beating. I held my chest
"I think so" napangiti ako "but I don't want to be" nawala ang ngiti ko at kasabay nun ang pagtanggal ko nang kamay ko sa dibdib ko
Leo laughed "that's the first" he tucked my hair behind my ear "what's wrong? Ba't mo pinipigilan?"
"he..." napatigil ako. "I... I'm scared of commitment"
"takot kang masaktan" he corrected "ganyan din ako dati"
Nilingon ko sya
"but now... I know better. I learned from the people who broke me, look at me now. Hindi na ako basta bastang nasasaktan"
"tama bang iniwan ko sya bago pa lumala tong nararamdaman ko?"
Our eyes met. I felt his hands on my back
"love takes time" he began "there is a reason why you choosed to leave, and that's because you need time to think"
I pulled him for a hug as I felt my tears
"you never told me this would hurt"
He laughed "you never asked me about love before. You were never interested"
Kumalas ako sa yakap namin at pinahiran lahat nang luha sa mata ko
I looked at my brother who is now looking at the sky
I remembered his past. With Danica. Palagi silang nag stastar gazing. It was like a usual habit since Danica adored the stars so much. Kaya ba sya nakatingin sa langit ngayon dahil namimiss nya na si Danica?
"do you miss her, kuya?"
His smile faded as he looked down
"she... lied to me, Lea" he looked at me
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