In heaven- Rock one-shots

First time (None)

I looked at one side to other extremely nervous on that giant bathroom, was my first time passing the night at his apartment, it was so big and luxurious that I felt out of place.

Okay, just breathe, take off your clothes and get in the shower, isn't hard, or shouldn't be, but for some reason I feel very uncomfortable, looks like someone is watching me  all the time, maybe because of the big windows , I really don't know, maybe this black walls have eyes...

After a couple minutes sat on the toilet with my towel around my body I finally got in the water.

A giant question is in my head, why I don't feel comfortable at my boyfriend's house? That if he's really my boyfriend, he never asked for that, but we act like we are, we walk together, we sleep at each other's house, we travel together and all the things that people dating do, but is a little bit hard to say to everybody that we're together, that's just because he's considerably older than me, okay he's a thirty and some years old famous and talented guy, and I'm a nineteen years old student, I guess you can imagine how many times I heard that I'm a 'money interested whore' and that I don't really love him, or that I'm just doing this for fame and a luxurious life, but isn't! Of course isn't, I felt in love with that shiny eyes at the moment I first saw him, and I really think that he does the same.

Some knocks on the door take me out my thought, I felt my legs fail, my heartbeat get faster, okay, just breathe in, he saw you like this before, it's okay...

"Babe?" Asked outside and I saw the knob turning "Can I get in?"

"Ugh yeah..." I answered blushing.

"You forgot it there..." Said opening the glass door and giving me the shampoo "I'm waiting for you okay? "Completed kissing my cheek and smiling.

"You what?" My eyes opened and I really thought that they would fell out my face.

"Im waiting for you at the bedroom" Responded laughing, what just helped with my panic "Relax, I'm sure you will like it"

I spent more time that I needed on that shower, I was a little bit of fear in my heart, I don't like this mysterious things that he loves, he's good in surprises, alway make me happy and I never expect, but today I think that's something different in the air.

I turned off the water, put my clothes on and went out the bathroom, walking slowly to the bedroom.

Opened the door and nothing looked different, he was sat at the desk writing something in a notebook, looked very focused on that, doesn't even noticed that I was behind him.

"Honey?" I asked with my head on his shoulder "Need my help?"

"Well... Yes" Responded smiling and taking me to his lap.

"Where's the problem?" I giggled kissing his cheek.

"Really want to know?" Said grabbing my hand and walking with it to under his belt.

I felt my body shivering, my cheeks burning and a ball in my throat, I waited a long time to this, but I was nervous, never did it before, everything was very new.

"Can you help me with this?" Whispered in my ear, and oh God that warm and whiskey tasted breathe in my neck made me crazy.

I couldn't even talk, just shake my head smiling and taking his lips, I could feel his hands opening the black belt and taking the button out.

My hips started moving, the adrenaline was at a million in my blood, I just wanted to start with that.

"You are a very anxious girl..." Mumbled with the low voice, grabbing my hair and walking with my head down his body until it found his lap.

I know what come now, but I don't know how, I just  used the logic, I had lips, I had hands, and pants to remove.

So I did it, removed that fabric that was there just to hinder my work. I looked at that and something like a bomb happened at my heart, just an impulse to lick it, I followed my own instructions, and I guess it was working, just by hearing the moans coming out his mouth.

And when I was learning what to do, my body went back to his lap...

"You did it very well dear" Whispered with his thumb in my leg.

My biggest fear, through my whole life was: This shit will hurt, and he knew it, maybe that's the reason of him being so soft and comprehensive with me.

An desperated moan came out my mouth at the moment I felt his cold fingers, and what he did? Laughed, I don't really know if that's good or no.

After this I understood what paradise really mean, because I'm sure that I went there tonight.

I was felling so tired, I just let my head fall at his chest, and even after this all, one of my favorite moments was the last one, we lay down on his soft and big bed, his arm around my shoulders, one of his hands in my hair, nothing more.

"I said that you would like, didn't I?" Asked kissing my forehead, I just shaked my head, I needed to sleep now...