Defending Jacob: The Aftermath Book 1

Desires

Andy sat in his personal hell car in the parking lot of the pub forever. He kept rethinking that kiss. Telling himself it was a huge mistake, something inside him wanted more of her though. He looked at the time and realized he needed to get home. If Laurie was still up she be worried about him. He drove, his thoughts where somewhere else though, he wasn't thinking with his right brain at this moment. He pulled into the driveway, seeing the lights where all off in the house. He went inside still in disbelief at what he had done, he went to the fridge and grabbed a few beers sat at the table going on his laptop. He was doing research on Ben's case, he had 4 beers. Eventually he went upstairs at 3am, he heard Laurie, she was having nightmare again. 

"I don't believe you, did you kill Ben, I love you and your father, I can't do this anymore." she screamed in her sleep.

Andy gently woke her up, "honey your having a bad dream, it's ok we are all safe, Jacob's coming home soon.

"Andy, what happened I don't remember my dream much, I just remember crying panicking while driving the car." she said.

He looked at her in shock, fear came over him one session with Dr. Brown and she remember something. She can't ever have her memories back. He was terrified at the thought. "Laurie it was just a nightmare, you probably panic when you lost control of the car, just keep telling yourself it was an accident, that's all it was."

Laurie grab a notebook from her side table drawer, and started writing in it. She didn't stop. Andy was looked at her puzzled.

"Honey what are you doing?" Andy asked her.

She looked up for a second "Dr. Brown told me if i have any dreams, nightmares to write anything down, so I could look at it over time and maybe put the pieces together." she said.

"She told you to do that, hows that going help. Laurie is was an accident nothing more. Just go back to sleep." Andy said.

Laurie looked over at Andy, looking at the time, wondering why he was just coming to bed now. "Andy, where you up all this time, when did you get back home, I went to bed at 10pm and you weren't here, where were you?" she asked.

"l was at the gym, I needed to workout, thought it would help relieve some stress, I'm ok Laurie, really. We are all fine, things are getting better. I was downstairs too, looking for jobs for both of us." he lied to her.

In his head all he could think about was Charlotte, the hope she gave him. He couldn't tell Laurie about her at all. He couldn't say I met Dr. Browns assistant and she's helping me with finding Ben's killer without her asking questions. She'd  go didn't Patz do it, she be confused and her memories could flood back. They seem to be already becoming up to the surface. He looked at her, remembering that kiss in the parking lot. In that moment, he leaned over Laurie kissing her wanting her. Their bodies consumed each other forever. Andy's mind wasn't seeing Laurie he was making love to, but Charlotte's and he wanted to feel it for real. They fell asleep afterwards.

The next morning they both woke, Andy thoughts invaded his dreams once more at night. He went into the shower, he took his phone with him. He heard it vibrate, he looked down and saw the text from her. "Andy I'm glad we talked and are going to team up on finding Ben's killer. Thank you for believing me, I hope to help your family repair itself. I'm so sorry I kissed you it was mistake. I did like it but it won't happen again." He look at the text feeling disappointment she said it was a mistake, deep down Andy knew it was wrong. He just didn't know what was wrong with him, with Charlotte he had hope and didn't drink much at all. When he was home he couldn't escape his mind haunting him so he drink more to shut it off. 

Ping his phone went off again, 'Andy I looked into something, can we meet tomorrow night at 7pm, this time somewhere else. I don't want people to see us again there and say things."

I texted her back "let's meet at Paddy's Public House on Elm st. for 7pm," pressing send knowing they closed at 9pm. We didn't need much time to talk about whatever she had found out in just one night of looking. 

Andy got in the shower he couldn't help himself thinking of seeing her again her words on the phone, it was mistake, I did like it, where make his hormones race. In the shower he did what any guy who do fixated on Charlotte lips on his own.  He finished up in the shower drying off his impressive body. Got dressed and went downstairs. Laurie glaring at him, she lifted up the garbage full of beer cans. 

"Andy you promised,  you've got a problem, whats making you drink more and more lately. Your hiding something from me, like you hid your father for years lying to me." she yelled.

"Fuck, don't fucking bring him up again, you made Jacob think he was capable of murder cause of that asshole. What's worse you lied to me when you asked for news articles about the rape and murder he committed." Andy yelled at her.

"Don't you know I feel bad about that Andy, I thought my son was guilty of murder with that story he wrote, you where right I was wrong is that what you want me to say, I just want to know why your drinking more." she asked.

"I'm sorry I snapped at you honey it was wrong ok, I won't do it again, I just have a lot to get done for the move that's all." he told her.

"No, don't do that you always do that, you make excuses brushing everything under the rug, that's the problem you want us to be normal.  Andy we aren't normal we never where, please just stop drinking so much, go talk to Dr. Brown maybe she can help you too." She pleaded with him.

The thought of going to see Dr. Brown made Andy excited and happy inside, it meant he could see her more not just at their meetings to figure out the mystery they needed answers too.

"Ok I'll call and make an appointment for myself if that helps you feel better, but Laurie I'm fine. She didn't know he had and upcoming appointment on Thursday with Dr. Brown already. Again he lied to Laurie, he told himself he was protecting her and their family.

They went to the hospital to see Jacob, talked with the doctors about his progress, Jacob was now part of the talks about his recovery. They where more and more hopeful he could go home the following week just in time for the move to the new house a few days later. Andy went for a walk he found where Dr. Browns office in the hospital was and jumped on the elevator to head up and make and extra appointment for himself. Just as the doors to the elevator where about to close, they snapped open, Charlotte in a black tight business dress and walked in. She looked at Andy stood in the corner to the right a few feet from him. She said nothing to him, they both flet the tension. 

"Andy I'm sorry ok it won't happen again, you love your wife and son. I need to control my desires around you, I'm attracted to you, yes but ..." she was saying.

Andy couldn't control his own desires any longer, pushed her against the back wall and he kissed her, his tongue invaded her mouth, she let him take control of her. He has his hands on her ass pulling her closer to him and she could feel how bad he wanted her, how badly she wanted him too. He moved down her neck kissing her more. The elevator came to a stop, he let go of her pulling away. She looked at him breathing heavily. She walked out of elevator smiling back at him, saying "tomorrow 7pm", as the door shut locking him in the elevator.