Caius's Mate

Sixty

I woke up later.

"Darling?" Caius said his hand on my hair.

I didn't respond for awhile.

"Izzy are you okay can you hear me?" He asked.

"Yes Im just thinking," I sighed.

"About?"

"I dont want to talk at the moment. Give me a minute okay?" I said.

"Of course," he said. "As long as you need,"

"Dont let her go into isolation," i heard Carlisle whispered.

I sat up. "Carlisle I'm not," I sighed "I'm thinking,"

"About?"

"This is not the time to start my therapy Carlisle," I said annoyed.

"Do you want to hurt yourself?" He asked.

"Is that what you were worried about," I chuckled and stood.

"Im going to take a bath. Dont worry Ill leave the door open so you can babysit me. Not suicidal," I said and walked into the bathroom running the bath just getting in relaxing.

I want to talk to Santiago.

No I need to talk to him.

"Izzy you doing okay?" Caius came in after 10 minutes.

"Yes," I said and reached for his hand. "Can you wash my hair. Please?" I asked.

"Of course little one," he said.

I looked at him.

"Lay back lets get your hair wet," he said.

I nodded and leaned back, his hand on my back helping me down. He had only let me submerge my hair.

"You know I still need to wash my face. I know you're worried about me and well me trying to kill myself but I'm not," I tried to look at him but I couldn't help but laugh, "I don't prefer drowning as my method of suicide," I said.

"Izzy this isn't funny," he said.

I giggled "You know I had to say it."

"Izzy," he groaned.

I shrugged.

"Seriously no joking about it. I can never tell when you are serious or not," he said.

"Okay no joking," I said

"Thank you," he said.

I nodded. "I should pull you in," I said ready to crack another joke.

"Dont," He said. "I know what you're going to say so dont."

"Okay okay," I said with a laugh.

He grabbed the shampoo and put it in my hair, it felt good, his fingers on my scalp.

"Caius, can I ask you something serious?" I asked.

He nodded and helped me lay back once again rinsing the shampoo out sitting up once again.

"I want to talk to Santiago. You can be present or Carlisle, I need to know what happen," I said.

"Are you sure Izzy?" he asked.

I nodded, "I need to know," I said. "I know its not going to be pretty but I need to know what happened," I said.

"Only if you are sure you can handle it," he said.

I nodded, "Please," I said.

"Okay, Ill talk to him, do you want me to finish?" he asked.

"Yes," I said.

He went over and grabbed the conditioner running it through my hair. "It feels good," I chuckled at it.

"What does?"

"Your fingers in my hair, it feels good, relaxing," I said to him.

He nodded and smiled, "I'm glad," he said.

I looked down then. "You really want me after everything I did?" I asked.

"What do you mean?" he asked.

"Making stupid moves, doing things that could possibly hurt myself, leaving, having a child with someone else?"

He didn't speak for awhile.

"You don't," I whispered.

"No no," he said. "I blamed myself, for everything, for driving you away, for not listening to you, not even paying attention to you. I should've been there for you. I shouldn't have given up," he whispered. "I hated myself every second you were gone, I thought of going to Aro for him to kill me but I knew he would never. I drove you off. I watched you whenever I got the chance. Whenever I could leave. Demetri checked in on you too. When I saw you happy I was relieved, relieved that you weren't in pain anymore from my actions. I saw how happy he made you. How he made you feel human, that's when I got you that house. Got you everything. All I wanted was for you to be happy and you were. I knew you were happy so I was going to let you be," he said. "Yes it hurt me more than anything to see you with another man but I could tell he made you happy, He gave you what I couldn't." He said. "This is my fault you are in this situation," he finished.

"I'm sorry I thought it was you," I whispered. "I couldn't think of anyone else who could've done it," I looked at him. "Would you have been hurt if I was killed when I came in?"

"Yes, I would know immediately something is wrong," He said.

"I don't know why I didn't smell... or even see you. I should've known," he said.

"Well, I wore things to make be blend in and lots and lots of perfume. I guess I was lucky I was found despite my hardest to stay hidden," I sighed.

"Yes," he said.

He finished washing my hair and pulled me out, him wrapping me up in a towel.

"I don't want to lose you. If something is ever wrong, If I'm treating you wrong tell me. I can't lose you again Izzy," he just held me close.

"You wont," I said. I didn't want to ruin the moment but I was getting cold. "Uh Caius?" I looked at him.

"Yes,"

"I'd love to continue this moment but when I have clothes on. You're making me cold," I said.

He chuckled and let me go, "Pajamas?" he asked.

I nodded. "Something fluffy?" I looked up at him.

He nodded and left coming out with fleece pants and a long pajama top.

"Thank you," I whispered and got dressed. "So warm,"

He picked me up and moved to the bed holding onto me. "I love you," he said holding on.

I blushed seeing Carlisle.

"Are you babysitting us now?" I asked him.

"No," he chuckled.

"Then you can leave," I realized that sounded rude. "I didnt mean it like that. I should've said I need some privacy," I said

"Of course," he said and left.

Caius held me close on the bed. "Are you okay?" He asked.

"Yes," I said.

"Are you sure you want to speak with Santiago?" He asked.

"Yes. Im sure. Id prefer to do it today," I sighed.

"Of course, do you want a little nap?" He asked.

"No Im actually hungry," I said. "I went down to the kitchen but I left losing my appetite," I said.

"Lets go down? Together?"

I nodded and stood. He took out him typing something then he put his phone in his pocket.

"We will speak to him in an hour," Caius said.

I nodded and I held onto his arm heading to the kitchen with him.